CAMERONS POV.
We were all sitting in the living room , just talking and laughing.
After 30 minutes I decided to go check on Noah.
I walked up stairs.
When I reached the last step I heard something in my room.
I opened the door slowly and found Noah searching through my drawer.
I slowly walked to her and grabbed her shoulder.
She flinched away and slammed the drawer shut.
She walked away from me
"I.. I .. You.. I was l.. looking for m..my j..j..journal" she stuttered.
I looked at her.
"Its not here" i said
"Well where is it"
"I threw it away"
NOAHS POV.
"I threw it away"
The words hit me as a brick in the face.
My journal, with my whole life in it. The last memories that I had are all gone now.
There were no words. Nothing came out.
I just shook my head, walked passed him, I went in my room and grabbed my bag.
I grabbed my teddy bear out of it and looked for my razor in the back of it.
I hold the razor to my skin and moved it.
I couldnt stop, I went to my bathroom, locked the door and sat on the floor.
I continued cutting. Deep.
"Its only my second day and I already want to die" I whispered to myself.
There was a knock on my door.
I quickly stood up . Im dizzy as fuck. "Shit" I whispered.
"Noah can I come in?" the person said. Who the fuck is it.
"NO." "I mean. No. Wait. Wait a second" I stuttered.
I grabbed a towel and wrapped it around my arm.
Shit shit shit the bleeding wont stop.
"Noah are you okay?! What are you doing in there?"
I grabbed another towel.
It doesnt work. I started to tear up.
By now I was crying.
"Noah! Im coming in!!"
Fuck.
"NO DONT . DONT COME IN. who are you?"
"Its Jacob are you okay?"
Fuck he cant see me like this omg there is blood everywhere.
I started to cry even more.
"Noah Im coming in okay? Dont worry"
He tried to open the door but I locked it.😌
"Noah please open the door, I can help you but not like this"
I thought for a second and sighed.
I reached for the door and unlocked it. Still sitting in the floor with my arm wrapped in a towel.
"Im coming in now okay?" He said/asked.
"Okay " I quitely said. And I sighed.
The door slowly opened and I just looked down at my arm.
Jacob walked in and bend down.
"What happened?" he asked worried.
He grabbed my arm and took the towel off.
I just started crying.
It just wont stop bleeding.
"Noah.. you need stitches"
"NO YOU CANT TELL ANYBODY" I cried out.
"But Noah youre going to die if you dont get stitches" he said worried.
"I.. I dont care" I said.
He looked up at me.
"Noah please"
I sighed and tried to stand up but I fell.
"I will help you come on. " He said while standing up.
I reached for his hands and he pulled me on my feet.
I leaned on his hands and tried to keep my balance.
"I.. Im so dizzy" I said.
"I know baby , wait a sec"
He grabbed a clean towel and wrapped it around my arm.
It hurt so bad right now.
"Hold the towel to your arm Noah." he said.
I let go of him with one hand hold the towel.
He lifted me up and carried me.
I rest my head on his shoulder and cried softly.
"Shh its gonna be okay"
When we got downstairs Jacob walked into the living room.
"Cameron get in the car we need to go the hospital right now" he said quickly.
I just closed my eyes and rested my head on his shoulder.
"What the fuck happened" I heard Cameron say.
"Just get in the god damn car now!" Jacob yelled.
I felt that Jacob started to walk again.
I guess we reached the car because I was set down on a seat.
I opened my eyes and yes. In the car.
I looked at my arm and the towel was red. I was bleeding so much. I started to cry again.
Cameron got in the driver seat and Jacob got in the back with me.
He is really nice and caring.
"Does it hurt?" Jacob asked.
I nodded.
Cameron started driving and I rested my head on Jacobs shoulder. I closed my eyes, I felt tired.
"Noah , noah dont fall asleep" Jacob said shaking me.
I opened my eyes and looked at him. "But im so tired"
"Thats because you lost a lot of blood, stay awake okay? only 10 more minutes" he said looking at me.
He pulled me onto his lap and I rested my head on his chest.
He stroked my hair and started singing 'you and I' by one direction. I gave him a small smile. After 10 minutes we reached the hospital.
Jacob carried me inside and Cameron walked next to us holding my hand.
"Cameron.." I whispered.
He looked at me.
"Im sorry" I said.
We got to this room thing and Jacob laid me down on the bed and Cameron went away to get a doctor.
"Jacob.."
He looked at me. "Yes?"
"Do you think Cameron is mad at me?"
He shakes his head. "No, he is worried"
I sighed. "Im so dizzy"
After a few minutes Cameron came in with a doctor.
Its a female yes.
She walked to me and said "Hi Im doctor Mariah"
"Hi" I said.
"So what happened with your arm?"
"I wanted to stroke a cat outside but he attacked me and now my arm wont stop bleeding" I lied.
Cameron and Jacob looked at my with their mouth dropped.
I looked down.
The doctor unwrapped the towel from my arm. I looked at it and it was gross.
My whole skin was torn apart.
"You need stitches, Im going to get a needle and a thread." She said
And she walked away.
Im feeling so sick and dizzy , my arm is still bleeding.
"Does getting stitches hurt?" I asked looking up to Cameron and Jacob.
"It hurts a little but if I see your arm it wont hurt compared to what you did to yourself" He said kinda annoyed.
"Cam shut up man" Jacob said while hitting his arm.
The doctor came back and grabbed my arm.
She stitched it up and it fucking hurts. She also put bandage around my arm.
"You can leave now, but you have to rest, you lost a lot of blood and you can get sick very easy right now, and watch out for cats." She said winking.
I sat up and tried to stand up.
I just want to go home.
"Here let me help you" Cameron said while giving me his hand.
I reached for it and leaned on his hand.
I tried to walk but I was swinging like an idiot.
Cameron lifted me up and carried me. I laid my head on his shoulder and wrapped my arms around his neck. We reached the car and I sat in the back with Jacob again. Im so tired.
I rest my head on Jacob and close my eyes. Before I know it im drifting of to sleep..
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"Noah wake up" "Noah" "Noah dinner is ready wake up" someone said while shaking me.
I sat up and whiped my eyes.
I look to the left to see Shawn.
"What time is it?" I asked confused.
"Its 7pm, dinner is ready so I had to wake you up Im sorry"
"Its okay" I said while standing up.
"Are you okay? youre so pale" Shawn said worried.
"Im fine. " I said feeling numb.
I walked downstairs and went to the living room, since everyone was in the kitchen. Yes. Im avoiding them. Ofcourse I am.
They will ask me stupid questions and Im actually not in the mood for talking. Im feeling sick.
I laid down on the couch watching Disney Channel when someone covered my eyes with his hands.
I grabbed the hands and tried to take them of.
"Dont fucking touch me!" I yelled.
I stood up and turned around to face Shawn.
"I.. Im really sorry.. Shawn.." I said
"Its okay you were just scared "
I nodded
"But come we are going to eat"
I sighed.
Do you know those days when youre just feeling sick and annoyed and dont want to eat or do anything, well today was a day like that for me.
We walked in to the kitchen and all eyes were on me.
I sat next to Jacob and Aaron.
Everyone started eating and I just stared at my food and played with it.
"Noah dont play with your food" Cameron said. Bruh. Dont you get that Im fucking sick. I threw my fork in my plate and leaned back in my chair. "Im not hungry" I said
Everybody stared at me.
I put my head in my hands and started crying.
Aaron stood up and dragged me to the living room.
We sat down on the couch.
"Im sorry.. Im just feeling really sick" I sobbed.
"Its okay , lay down on the couch, watch some tv or sleep.. And dont worry, we dont hate you" he said winking at me.
I laughed.
"Aah there is that beautiful smile and your cute laugh" he said
He stood up and went to a draw next to the TV.
He came back with some blankets.
He covered me in the blankets and kissed my forhead.
"Get some sleep, you must be tired after today"
I gave him a small smile and closed my eyes.
After a couple minutes I fell asleep.
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A/N
IM SO SORRY THIS CHAPTER TOTALLY SUCK.
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- Iris