I slowly make my way to my dorm. My eyes scan the room, hoping no one has noticed me yet. I am looking behind me when I bump into Eon.
His eyes scan me, staring more than he should at the parts that our showing skin reminding me I am only wearing a long shirt. Slowly, his lips turn into a soft and gentle smile.
"Bella?" he whispers, too surprised to speak out loud. He's looking at me as if I just got a new haircut or went into one of those shows where they do a before and after. He's looking at me as if I just did a new makeover. "Who turned you?" There's a smile on his face.
My face contorts into a wince and I can't look at him for a second. "Leopold Zach," I say with disgust.
"You sound as if you hate Leopold," his tone is full of disbelief as if hating Leopold should be something impossible.
If I was honest with myself I should be in a state of rage like I was yesterday, but all of a sudden I can be mad at him, but the thought of hating him... Seems impossible.
"Why wouldn't I hate him now?" I ask with curiosity.
"Leo is your maker. He sired you. A bond forms when you create a vampire. You instantly become family. If you don't feel love for him instantly, the least you should be feeling for him right now is awe."
I find myself smiling as finally, I can understand why it was so easy to kiss Leopold, why it was so easy to forget what he did. That jackass was smart. I can see Eon is jealous.
"How do you know?"
"I turned my few shares of girls," he has the decency of looking embarrassed. "I turned a few girls against their will just to make the conquest easy." I glare at him in disgust. He kept talking looking embarrassed. "I ended up releasing them to cut down the bond. They... They got too clingy."
"What do you mean by releasing them?"
"I cut the bond, look at it this way. If you turn someone into a vampire because you see them as a sister or family. Then when you release them, it would be as disowning them. If you turn someone into a vampire for romantic reasons, well it would be like a breakup but a thousand percent more emotional."
"Doesn't that hurt?" I ask almost in a murmur.
All of a sudden I am not the most interesting Eon finds everything around him more interesting than me. "Yes... It actually depends on how big the feeling for the vampire that sires you is and vice-versa... For me, it didn't hurt that much-"
"And for them?" my voice is barely audible at this point. I never thought Eon was this big of a jerk.
"I never stayed with them to find out," Eon murmurs.
"Eon... That's awful. Just to have sex with a hard-to-get girl?"
He nods slowly. "I was-" He starts and I had enough of him. It was like the go-to excuse.
"Different. Yeah Yeah. You are a whole brand new vampire now," I say sarcastically.
"I know it sounds lame Isabella. But I have been a vampire for a long time. You are not perfect when you are first turned. Everything is new and exciting and you can do things you could never do as a human. You learn from your mistakes by doing them."
I feel sick. What if Leopold does the same? "Get out of my face Eon."
Eon leans against the wall as he grimaces, there's a plead behind the grimace. "Are you going to judge me for my past actions?"
"I can't answer right now. I just need to be alone."
Eon nods and starts to walk away towards his dorm. What he did to those girls was awful. I turn around and go back towards Leo's dorm. Talking to Eon has made something clear, he turns girls to get them to fall in love with him the cheap way. I wasn't even listening to Leopold yesterday and suddenly his you leave me no choice makes sense. He turned me into a vampire to force me to forgive him and he's going to admit that to my face!
I put a hand on Leo's doorknob when someone behind me clears their throat. I turn slowly leaning against the door with annoyance. Carmel gives me a crooked smile and is about to say something stupid no doubt when suddenly she does a double-take. Suddenly her eyes well up with unshed tears.
She leans towards me and takes a deep breath making me really uncomfortable. "Leo... Leo turned you?" She asks with pure disbelief her voice breaks and is laced with pain.
"Yes," my tone is wary.
Carmel looks like she's about to lose her mind. "Why?" She shakes her head in denial. This girl looks heartbroken. "He... He was supposed to kill you. He actually calls me here to help him kill you. We were supposed to leave together like we always did."
I stare at her with my lips pressed into a thin line. She's acting surprised as if this is the first time Leo has done something like this.
"Why are you telling me all of this? Why don't you confront the asshole."
Her face changed from pain to a murderous glare. "You'll learn that pretty soon yourself. But you are brand new. You can fight the bond, try to dig deep into your soul, and hate him again-"
"I can't," I say honestly. I can't make myself the girl I was yesterday-
"Leopold came to this school to kill you! Do you get that!" There's desperation in her tone as if I should grasp the information and do something about it.
"Oh come on, if that was true he would have killed me the first moment he saw me. Maybe Leopold is lying to you."
Carmel did not like that. The sparkling storm clouds right before the lighting hit were her eyes slowly transitioning to the color of blood. "So the fact that he murders your parents in front of you means squat because you can't fight the bond?"
I growl at her but I don't say anything because she's right for once. I am in deep shit and the fact that Leopold is my maker makes everything about hurting him a hundred percent impossible. "Why are you telling me this? Why don't you confront the asshole?"
"OMG, you are in love with him!" She laughs and it sounds crazy. "So that's it? You are not fighting the bond? Even to avenge your parents? Does their death mean anything to you?"
"Stop it!" I warn her. But Carmel ignored me. She looked hurt, broken. She wants me to hate Leopold. She is looking for a way where I would fight the bond. I can see it in her eyes.
"He killed both of your parents while you watched! Doesn't that mean anything to you? That kind of atrocity shouldn't change because he's your fucking sire!"
My fangs elongate and I bare them at her. After that horrible sentence, I can't think clearly, I can't see clearly all I see is red.
I slap her with the back of my hand and since she's not expecting it, my hand touches her cheek. Carmel hisses in pain as she flies backward until she hits the wall behind her. She is up fast and runs towards me, thanks to my reflex I can see her.
I punch her back in the face and she grabs my hand and twists it in an unusual way. Then she holds me in place and kicks me in the back. A grunt escapes my lips at the impact. I take that opportunity to move forward and leave her grasp.
I punch her again, but since I am a brand new baby at this, Carmel blocks the hit. As she blocks my hand, she twists it and kicks me again in the back, then she pulls me towards her arms as she holds a wooden stake. I throw my hands to the side and the stake touches my chest, and I smile. Carmel is going to give me what I want. Death.
But she can't plunge the stake into my dead heart. Leopold grabs Carmel by the hem of her dress and pulls her off me. She lands on her feet with a winning smile. I stand up slowly glaring at her.
"Carmel. My Dorm. NOW!" he growls at her. Carmel winks at me opens the door and walks in slamming the door without managing to break it. It's definitely a talent.
"Isa," Leo whispers, and tears slide down my cheek at the realization of what Leopold just talking to me does to my body.
"Did you turn me into a vampire to command me to forgive you?"
Leo's jaw drops, eyes widening in disbelief as if a sudden jolt of electricity had coursed through his veins leaving him momentarily stunned.
"I won't-"
"But that's the only reason you turned me?"
"Yes, you were in danger as a human but I could have protected you. But you said that you wanted me to kill you or if not you would go on a rampage at school. How can I protect you, when you make every vampire at the school hate you-"
"I don't know maybe kill the treat!"
"I can't kill you. You can't die-"
"Oh I can, and I will! You can't force me to stay alive!"
"I will and I can!" Leopold is no longer human.
"Watch me-" I turn to leave.
"Oh for fuck sake," he growls and grabs me by the arm closing his fist around it. If I was human my arm would have had a bruise tomorrow. He turns me towards him abruptly. "YOUR ROOM NOW."
My look towards him is full of defiance, but my body obeys him without a second thought, and without wanting I am walking into my dorm with tears sliding down my cheek fast. I open the door and lock it, walking softly towards my bed and throwing my body face down on it, letting the tears fall like I was holding down a backflow of a river.
If my human life sucked before, it was ten times worse now. I am Leo's puppet. He took my will away from me. I have lost myself. I can't be stubborn, I can't be rebellious. One word of Leopold and I have to obey. Well, Leopold is my maker, but I'll be damn if I give him my heart. That I will keep locked away in a safe, even if it tears me apart on the inside. Leo won't have anything from me unless he commands it out of me.
Thanks to Leopold Zach I now knew what hell felt and was like.