Y/N
I threw my backpack on the ground and laid on my bed.
"HOME SWEET HOME." I yelled and said at the same time.
"NO THIS ISN'T YOUR HOME THIS IS MY HOME!" Malachi yelled form the across the house.
"SHUT UP MALACHI LET ME BE!!"
I didn't hear any more yelling and I closed my eyes.
Mmm... Going to Paris was really... A trip.
I opened my eyes and put my back on my bed which made me face up to Alina's bed.
It was crazy you could say...
I put my pillow to my face and groaned.
My face was red at the memory... What the heck man...
Stop it! I don't like Levin! I don't like him! I only like him as a friend and period!
I'll wash my sheets and take a shower... And going to get my letter of the University of Scaleswind if I have passed or not...
But before I get it, I'm going to wash my sheets that I ruined and will then take a shower...
I sighed and got up.
I pulled out my pillow's sheets and of course my SHEETS!
I got them all on a big pile and kicked it to the washing machine.
"Alright let's see n-
As I was about to open it but, before I knew it, Levin's hand was on top of mine.
I blushed and backed away quickly.
"O-Oh haha.... Levin um y-you can do laundry first if you want!" I said nervously and gulped.
I averted my eyes somewhere else instead of Levin but extremely failed.
"W-We could do it together you know..." He said shrugging.
I faked coughed and laughed nervously. "Uh sure sure of c-course!"
Stop acting weird now he's going to think you're a ph-
WHY DO I CARE?!
Levin let me out my things first and put his next.
Oh I should really put my outfits here, too...
"H-Hey uh Levin. Can I quickly get my clothes...?" I asked him.
"S-Sure."
I went out of the room and caught my breath.
I touched my forehead and felt it wet.
Am I sweating?... Why would I sweat?!
I groaned and calmed down. I can't keep him waiting... He'll think I'm lying.. And then he won't like me anymore!
OH MY IRENE I'M BEING DRAMATIC!
I was like this in the past?! Why now?! Why... WHY AT ALL?!
I got all my outfits from the trip and put them in a big pile like I did with the sheets.
I pulled out my shirt and put on a new comfortable one.
I panted and panted.
W-Why am I being nervous?... Shouldn't I have felt like this with Bryan?.. No but he was a total jerk so I don't even know why..
Urg! I don't want feelings! I want to die!
I sighed and took a deep breath.
Calm down.. One day, I will lose these feelings and everything will be okay.
I will hang out with L- MY FRIENDS like usual and... and...
I went to the bathroom and splashed water onto my face.
I looked into the mirror and the face of the most pathetic girl ever...
"I want to live like I used to..." I sobbed and held my hands to my face.
"Why are you crying, Y/N?" I heard a girl younger than me speak.
I put my hands away from my face and opened my eyes. In the mirror, I could see a reflection of myself when I was 10 years old...
"H-Huh?..." I asked confused.
"Oh you didn't hear me? Hehe! You're so silly! I asked why are you crying?" She asked with worried eyes but still kept a smile.
My frown turned into a slight smile and shook my head side to side.
"N-Nothing.. You would not know about this stuff anyway. You're too young. You'll learn it when you get to at least my age." I smiled sadly.
"Why? Can't you tell me right now? Pleeeeeeeease!" She asked anxiously.
"Heh... Alright. Well, first, are you happy with your new friend?"
"He he! I'm so happy I met such a cool friend like Levin!" She said giggling happily.
Next thing I knew, I could see a 10 year old Levin next to my 10 year old self.
"Oh Levin! He he!"
I turned to my right nervously and saw the present Levin standing there with a smile on his face.
Levin and my 10 year old self wasn't seen anymore and could see my own present reflection.
Tears were dried and my nose was kinda red...
"Heh, what are you doing here?" He asked worried.
"N-Nothing just..-
I turned to Levin and our eyes met in place.
"W-Why..." I asked to him tearing up.
"Why what?.."
"..." I couldn't answer him and tears just came barging down my eyelids.
"Heh, y-you sure know how to make me nervous..." I said blushing but still having tears streaming down my face.
I don't know why but, my arms wrapped around him. I was the height to half of his head...
So, you could say I'm tall but he calls me short...
I could feel his heartbeat growing faster and faster. But the weird thing is...
...Same as me
Will he like me back?...
Will he love me forever?...
Or...
Will he end up with another girl like Bryan did?...
So many unanswered questions were going to my mind but...
All I wanted to do was hold him.
Like..
I will lose him...
But, I want to be with him forever...
Like my mom and dad..
But I can't, b-because I'm afraid of love. I'm afraid of getting hurt. I'm afraid of letting him go if he finds another person...
I'm sorry Levin, but, you deserve better...
...than this
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