Not Your Girl:
*Second person pov*
There was a lot going on in your life lately from work to friend drama. You spent so much time trying to work things out between people who were furious at one another, not wanting rifts in your friend group. It felt like your life was just filled to the max and you were racing around constantly. Someone you thought would understand was Lee Seunghyun, whom always let you rant to him, or used to.
Was he your boyfriend? Not exactly. Things between you were complicated, but you didn't mind. It was nice, not having any sort of label to your guys relationships and just being together. There were some lines, obviously, but lately things just seemed blurred. He was beyond frustrating with the things he said and with the things he did. You had been expecting for months now that he would officially ask you to be his, but it wasn't coming. It made you doubt the last year with him, or whatever it was.
You had already been starting to want to break things off with him. The two of you were both busy and you felt like you wanted an actual boyfriend, someone who you could see daily or would at least dote on you.
"Hey (Y/N), come here." your close friend Hyun-si entered your room. A look of sadness was plastered onto her face, her phone in hand. Your stomach felt like it dropped, expecting not good news to be on its way.
"What's wrong?"
Hyun-si made her way over to you, sitting right down on your bed. She handed you her phone and looked down towards the floor. Your eyes scanned over the article from Dispatch. There were multiple pictures of Seungri out with another girl. It looked like they were having a nice time, laughing and she was even holding on to his arm at one point. You felt like all your fears about the idol were finally coming to light. There wasn't a way to describe the heart break you were experiencing in that moment, something you had never known until now. It hurt.
"There might be an explanation?" your friend stated, "could she be related to him?"
"N-no, I've actually met a lot of his family.." you said sadly. A part of you hoped this was something small like Hyun-si said. Though deep down a gut feeling was telling you it wasn't.
"Maybe this is it (Y/N).. you've been looking for more of a reason to end things."
"I don't want to seem like a dramatic girlfriend if it's not actually anything I-"
Hyun-si took your hands into hers. She hated seeing you like this, knowing this was hurting you. She was never a fan of how things were between you and the star, "but are you his actual girlfriend?"
"No..." that was the sick reality of it, you didn't have the right to say he couldn't hangout with a girl like that- though in a technical way you did.
"Next time he's around, have a serious talk with him about this."
"We haven't talked in awhile though. I'm not sure when I'll be seeing him next."
"Look I don't want to tell you what to do but, I think you should ignore him for awhile. Maybe if you do that then he'll see what he's been missing?"
You pursed your lips. It wasn't a horrible idea, but you weren't sure if it would be a plan you could actually go through with. It seemed rather harsh, "how long?"
"Months?"
"Months!!!" you shook your head, "that's far too extreme."
"Ah true. That may make things worse..."
Your friend left the room to leave you to your thoughts. There was a lot to think about and no right way to go about it. You were scared of all you'd lose regarding relationships with the rest of Big Bang, Seungri.. but just maybe there could be a lot to gain.
***
It had been a few days since Seungri's newest scandal and you were just working on putting it behind you. It was odd how you never once received a single message from him, with him attempting to explain what was going on- as usual. Going onto a week, you were able to think more reasonably without emotion clouding your judgment. You started to feel a tiny bit better.
Suddenly whilst you stood waiting for your coffee a man backed up into you.
"God I'm so sorry." he was a few inches taller than you and had light dusted brown hair. He smiled.
"Oh you're ok."
He took a place right besides you waiting as well. It was unbelievably awkward as names were called out to collect their drinks. You had no clue what to say or do and you were scared that you looked like a mess. He was a pretty cute guy at that.
"Names Hanuel." the boy suddenly turned to you saying.
"(Y/N)." you replied with a smile.
***
The air was stiff between you and Seungri. Neither had any words to say as you two sat on the couch in your study. It had been a good month since you last saw him, since the scandal. Now you had basically forgotten about that girl, not on how he was treating you. You felt vulnerable as he sat there with his normal confidence almost eating up your form with his eyes.
He had tried to make a few advances since he walked through your door and you dodged every one; from hugs to even a kiss. It pained you to do so, but it pained you even more to say you're sure you've moved on.
"It's been awhile.." his voice sounded strained as he broke the silence. You could tell he was getting upset with each passing moment.
"It has."
You weren't expecting it entirely, but Seungri suddenly leaned forwards. You quickly reacted avoiding his lips knowing it would happen again, and pushed him away. He shot you an annoyed look before speaking,
"What's gotten into you?"
You frowned feeling the anger begin to bubble in your chest, "with me? How about with you."
"What are you talking about?"
"First I have to see pictures of you and a girl and then you don't talk to me for a month.." you didn't say it rudely, more quiet and sad sounding that he left you in the blue.
"(Y/N), I'm so sorry..."
"It's okay Seunghyun, I'm really not upset anymore?"
A glimmer of hope appeared in his eyes, "oh good," he went to place his lips onto yours once more. Seungri was shocked again as you pushed him away, "what?"
"I'm not interested..."
"Not interested in what?"
You took a deep breath, trying not to break down. For awhile you had given him your heart and now you were taking it back, "In you."
"H-how?! Is it because of that girl that? You know I don't look at anyone the way I do towards you... You're-"
"Seunghyun stop. If you really cared about what we had you would've asked me to be your actual girlfriend long ago. You know it's true no matter what excuses or arguments you have to say."
He stayed quiet. He knew you were right, he really did. Seungri was just scared to commit when he was always so busy, always screwing up. But you did matter a lot to him, even if he didn't show it well enough.. in fact he fucked up all the time when it came to you, and he was so used to you forgiving him and being there. He couldn't imagine you not loving him anymore.
"You should go." your voice pierced his ears making tears start to prick at his eyes, realizing how serious you were being.
"Please (Y/N)... I-Is there someone else?" there couldn't be, but he had to be sure.
"Seunghyun..."
You were quiet and by your body language he knew there was. Seungri stood up angrily from the couch and began to pace, "There is, isn't there?!" his chest felt heavy and he didn't know what to do.
"We met a little while ago, he's nice-"
"Is he better than me?" Seungri said dangerously with a gleam in his eyes.
You allowed yourself to breathe, to think. Hanuel had been so kind since you met him. He didn't cancel on outings, he would actually respond to your texts, and overall he was so much more respectable, reliable. You really enjoyed that about him, never ceasing to have fun on 'dates'. Most of all you could actually leave a house during those times, something Seunghyun could never give you- since you were such a secret. Thinking through all their differences, you knew your answer.
"Yes. Yes he is."