+this is quite long, i'm sorry bub
"congratulations! your baby is about a five weeks old and is very healthy!" a short, black haired obstetrician - gynecologist beamed at haine, enthusiastically. haine finally had her very first visit to an expert after almost a month of being pregnant.
"your baby bump would most probably appear after the third month of conception. remember to be more careful from now on, the early months are the crucial period in pregnancy"
sighing, a breathtaking smile then curved in haine's lips and it was a sight that didn't go unnoticed by the doctor and the man who volunteered to come with her - taehyung.
at the sudden sight that unfold in his eyes, taehyung felt his heart do somersaults, he knew that being happy was an understatement for the girl. the man knew that haine was feeling very ecstatic about the condition of the gift inside her.
taehyung wanted to smile brightly but the thought of haine bearing the child of the man he grew to despise made his lips hesitate and thus only forming a half - hearted smile. the brunette haired man felt disgusted, he knew that he shouldn't harbor hard feelings to the baby but he can't help it.
the girl he loves is pregnant with another man's child, what even pains him is the fact that he knows that both of them still love one another.
i'm pathetic.
taehyung thought and before he could even think about more negative things, he felt a warm hand held his own cold ones.
"taehyung! the baby is healthy! miss yoobin confirmed that the baby is all healthy! i'm so happy! the baby is -" startled, taehyung couldn't formulate the right words to say when haine's face suddenly went very close to his. she was overflowing with happiness and he felt dumb for being such an asshole before.
how could i hate the baby? it isn't guilty, i would love it like my own child.
taehyung thought before finally deciding on brushing all the disgust and hatred he had for the baby. the man decided to bury all his worries seven feet to the ground, his lips unconsciously lifting into a contended and true smile as he fixed his gaze on the cheerful girl.
haine returned an even brighter smile before asking another thing to the doctor, "when will i be able to know the gender of the baby and when will i be able to come back? do i have anything which isn't allowed to eat? do you have anything to -" taehyung and miss yoobin giggled together at the brightness that haine emitted while asking, she was so excited and they could see it in her eyes.
"oh, um" haine momentarily stopped before finally realizing that she was being hyped way too much. cheeks flaming into a deep red, haine couldn't help but play with her fingers before speaking once more, "i-i really want to take care of the baby well . . . i'm sorry for being jumpy"
miss yoobin smiled as she held haine's hand, "no, it's okay. to be honest, it's quite refreshing to see someone this excited when having a baby. normally, all i ever see is the disappointed face of a woman wanting to have an abortion immediately. it's quite uplifting to see someone like you"
haine lifted her face to meet eye to eye with the beautiful doctor, "it makes me feel happy to have a patient like you. don't worry, we'll work together just to make your baby born into a healthy and nurtured kid! just be devoted in taking your vitamins, do your preggy exercises and stay positive hon" doctor yoobin assured haine before finally giving the pregnant woman final notes.
after giving the prescriptions to the two, doctor yoobin got up as she assisted the couple to the door. "oh! i almost forgot, you'll need a lot of support too, haine! mister kim taehyung please always stay by your wife's side!" at the mention of those words, the two became stoic and this didn't go unnoticed by the doctor.
"oh, you're not toge - i mean, my bad . . . i really thought you two were married because you two came together and well . . you see, i-oh my god, i'm really sorry, i'm bad at this things! i just want to tell you two that good luck in raising the baby and you two look good together so please just get married soon!" the doctor blabbered before finally bidding goodbye.
the two awkwardly walked out of the clinic and taehyung couldn't help but feel flustered as the words from the doctor echoed inside his head.
"you two look good together so just get married soon"
cheeks flaring, he couldn't help but feel in cloud nine. truth be told, taehyung has long planned to propose to the girl - he had wanted to be the one she would spend the eternity with. the moment he knew about the way haine broke her heart into two, he swore he would be the one to mend those into pieces again.
taehyung already had the rings but sadly, he didn't have it with him at the moment. the man was just finding the right moment when to drop the proposal. fingers fidgeting, taehyung couldn't help but giggle on himself, the man was just about to ask haine where they were supposed to go but the girl beat her to it.
"taetae?"
humming, he turned his head as he stared lovingly on the girl who stood beside him, "yes, jagi?"
their eyes met and an unrecognizable glint appeared in her eyes, he couldn't understand what she wanted to say but the moment her lips opened he never saw it coming from her.
"tae, i'm sorry but you have to go home first cause -" eyes widening he didn't let the girl finish her words, taehyung felt as if he was being pushed away.
anger slowly crept up in his veins. what do you even think of me, haine? "what?! you're kidding, right? i promised to take you home safe and how am i supposed to do that when you're asking me to leave?!" his voice suddenly went loud and it scared haine.
"y-you d-didn't let me finish, tae" the girl stuttered trying to voice out her thoughts. taehyung saw the frailty, terrified expression in haine and he softened. the man felt dumb for the second time of the day. why must i let my emotions overpower me?
"i-i'm sorry jagi, i was just - sorry, i didn't mean to scare you like that" taehyung muttered before embracing the trembling girl.
"i was kinda shy" taehyung heard the girl mutter in his arms and he slowly pulled away.
"shy?" scrunching his eyebrows, he echoed.
the girl kept her head hung low but taehyung could see the way her ears glowed into crimson red. confused, he was just about to ask but the girl beat her to it "i-i was going to buy my underwear and i'm kinda, still, um, - i -" oh, underwear. wait under-
cheeks blazing once more, his mind flashed a dirty thought. he cursed internally of how he could easily imagine nasty thoughts about the girl beside her, it made him bend easily and he stuttered. "o-okay, i, i guess we really have no choice" taehyung muttered before finally letting her go.
"b-but, i'll have to walk you there"
arriving at the mall, taehyung decided to leave haine on her own. taehyung made sure that haine would contact him the moment she came home, he felt a little uneasy about the idea of letting her alone but he didn't want to pressure haine and as much as it thrilled him to follow the girl secretly, he didn't want to make things awkward between them so he went home.
i'm sorry taehyung.
unbeknownst to taehyung's grasp, haine had other things to do rather than searching for a bunch of underwear - she lied.
making sure that taehyung was out of the area and she wouldn't be caught, haine hailed a taxi before making her way to the prison where jeongguk resided unto.
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"please follow me" haine heard a familiar voice echo and she stood up, following suit.
sighing, haine walked through the familiar path as she tightly clutched the rectangular object inside her pocket.
haine was anxious, there were so many things she wanted to tell jeonnguk. she wanted answers and she will make sure that today, she would get them – no matter what happens.
"t—tell him about the baby"
haine remembered yoongi's words and she was determined to tell it to him once and for all. he must know, no, he should know.
haine was determined to tell jeongguk now that she finally understand what he always wanted to say to her — mahal kita. the girl didn't care if the boy truly killed her sister or whatnot, all she cared about is the boy must know how much she still loves him.
"i know that i've already mentioned the rules to you since it's your second time visiting but, let me recall it once more" haine's eyes met with the cop infront of her before nodding.
"you only have one hour and you can only visit again after four weeks"
the man muttered before finally letting haine enter the room. breathing becoming ragged, heart hammering inside her chest, she tried so hard to keep a straight face when her eyes was met with the soulless brown orbs of the boy inside. sitting on the chair, her head was hung low as if all the words and confidence she used to have vanished into thin air.
what do i do now?
heart being eaten with nervousness, she didn't know where to start. she used to have the determination to tell about the baby but at that instant, hesitation crawled in her chest.
"t—tell him about the baby"
haine recalled once more. images of the baby in the ultrasound gave her hope. unconsciously, her left hand made its way to her tummy, massaging it. she tried to get some strength to the living being inside her – the boy must know about this gift inside her.
no, i must tell him.
lips opening and looking up to meet the face of the boy, she was just about to spill the beans before jeongguk suddenly spoke.
"y—you should leave"
heart shattering, the girl felt disheartened at the words that came out of jeongguk's lips. in a matter of a second, her eyes became glossy and the urge to cry killed her. tightly clutching the ipod on her right hand, she fought the urge to let a single tear, drop.
in her ears, jeongguk's voice was cold and merciless. it was as if he wanted haine out of his sight once and for all.
why are you doing this to me, jeongguk?
"i thought i made it clear that . . . i – i never wanted to see your face, again and –" haine's eyes couldn't stop the tears now.
why do you have to lie, why do you have to make everything so complicated? i know you love me and why would you always push me away?
cutting through his sentence, the girl punched the table as anger crept up inside her veins, "cut the bullshit, jeon jeongguk. you big fat liar!"
haine's action gained jeongguk's attention and he finally looked straight at the girl's eyes. jeongguk became stoic – oh how he missed those beautiful brown orbs. even if haine's eyes were red and tears on each corners, he missed how she looked.
she was still breathtakingly beautiful in his eyes and is the one and only who had ever made him feel so weak. oh, how he died because of the urge to just crawl and beg for her warmth. how he yearned to just have her by his side, away from this cruel situation he had.
"why must you always hurt me?" the girl spoke as her voice broke midway. at the sound of haine's frailty, jeongguk couldn't help but grew a lump inside his throat.
he wanted to scream, he wanted to embrace her but he knew he couldn't.
"why must you push me away?" the girl hung her head low once more as she wiped continuously of the waterfall tears in her eyes. he felt so bad for always hurting the girl he loves.
i'm so sorry, love.
he had wanted to speak but was too afraid of the consequences that would happen once he did voice out his thoughts.
"you're a liar, jeongguk" i know. i know that i'm a big fat liar. i lied not loving you, i lied saying that i never cared for you, i lied saying that i never wanted to see you. jeongguk could only look at her as he bit his inner lip until it bled to stop him from speaking.
but if you knew and if only i can say how much i love you, how much i care for you and how much i want to see you everyday, i would. you are my one and only world. my sun, my happiness and life but i'm nothing. i'm just the darkness that would give you malady.
his eyes savored the sight of her beloved girl before finally deciding to give her the final blow.
you deserve someone better, someone who would be able to give you the happiness that i could never ever give you.
goodbye, love.
"if you're not going to go, then i would" jeongguk stood up and haine was alarmed.
no, you can't go not unless i tell you the truth. not unless you knew how much i love you too, jeongguk.
"no! don't go, please! don't leave me!" she screamed on top of her lungs, begging him to stay, begging him to listen but jeongguk wouldn't budge as he walked closer to the door. haine was running out of time, she couldn't afford to lose him now.
"no! please! i beg you, i have something to tell you!" haine stood up, crying herself and letting out heavy sobs as she clung to the glass that separated them, jeongguk's back facing her. "please, kookie" haine let out a heavy breathe as she suddenly felt light-headed.
head suddenly spinning, she fought and brushed the pain away.
kookie. flinching, the tears that threatened to fall finally fell. he couldn't help but tear up as he missed the way she called him in his favorite pet name.
"i—i don't want to hear it and i – i'm not interested" he'd painfully dragged the words to say and haine felt herself weaken while her tummy ached.
"no, please. don't go, jeongguk. please, please i—" she'd tried once more, her voice almost faltering as she felt a wave nausea overwhelm her body.
jeongguk held the door knob as she cut through haine's statement, "i don't lov—" she knew what would come next out the boy's lips and even before jeongguk could finish, she cut him.
"mahal kita! mahal kita jeongguk!" she screamed, hoping that the boy would finally look and she succeeded.
seeing that he finally looked at her, a small smile crept up on her lips before everything suddenly became black in her eyes.
no, she – haine i—
jeongguk snapped his head to haine's direction but the moment he did so, a terrifying sight came before him.
"haine!" jeongguk screamed, an ear-piercing cry coming out of his lips as he punched the glass, eyes welling up with so much tears.
"no, why – i" going insane, heart going into turmoil, the boy couldn't formulate the right words to say as right in front of him, jeongguk saw haine lying on the floor – blood flowing through her legs as her face looked so pale, her nose bleeding and body shivering.
"help! my girlfriend! my girlfriend!"
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eyes flutter to open, haine found herself lying on her bed at home. She tried sitting up but struggled as she felt pain on her right hand, eyes shifting she saw an apparatus punctured to her hand and realized that it was connected to a pack of dextrose.
What happen –
Even before she could finish her words, a flashback of what happened appeared inside her head. She remembered her fainting. Worry creeping up inside her heart, she immediately checked her tummy. Tears pooling in her eyes, she was so afraid about the baby's condition.
What happened to the baby?
"you're finally awake" haine heard a familiar voice and she immediately snapped her head on the direction of where it came from.
"i—the baby, is the baby o—"
A slap. A thunderous slap met her cheek as her eyes widened and her hand traced her sore cheek. "fool! How could you?! how could you risk you and the baby's life by going into that stressful place! We were told so many times to stay away from negative thoughts and what did you do?! I trusted you . ." the voice of the person staggered as his knees wobbled before falling on haine's bed.
Tears pooling in his eyes, he wiped the tears continuously in his eyes.
"i—I'm sorry, taehyung"
Haine was just about to reach over to taehyung before another voice rang in her ears,
"you are never going back in that place, ever" haine flinched as taehyung soon composed himself and they both saw haine's father.
Haine felt alarmed, "no, why – I, no! please, you can't do this!" she screamed, tears wetting her cheeks immediately.
"pa! you can't do this to me, i—"
"I don't care! You are never going back in that place ever! You almost lost the baby inside you because of the stress. You endangered both you and the baby's life just because you wanted to . . ." the father's voice trailed before looking at taehyung.
"the baby's father is jeongguk" taehyung muttered weakly and it broke haine.
"i—I won't want to lose you again haine! so, even if you came to hate me you have nothing to do but obey me! my decision is final and nothing's going to make me change my mind!"
Haine was almost about to argue back before her father marched hastily towards her door and left the two.
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"please, take care of haine. I beg of you sir hyunsik"
the voice of a young and frail man echoed inside his ears. the old man who had whitening hair, slight wrinkles on his face and worried expression looked at the small box that the naïve, selfless and fool boy gave to him.
he remembered how he felt so shocked the moment jeongguk confessed how he was able to find him – he had never seen a boy in his age be devoted on a girl, even more for his frail daughter.
hyunsik could only feel regret eat up his heart as he recalled the way that jeongguk spoke the words he just came to understand what meant.
he could clearly remember how confused he was when jeongguk suddenly looked so serious as they were preparing food while waiting for haine to finally come back home.
"please, take care of haine. I beg of you sir hyunsik"
the man was taken aback, "of course, I would jeongguk. I have so many things to catch up with my daughter"
the younger boy smiled as he continued to mince the onions, "you know, you should make a move with my daughter. there's this random boy who's taking her int—"
"taehyung?"
"oh yes! That's his name, wait – how did you, how –"
"I broke up with haine, sir"
eyes widening and anger boiling up inside his veins, the man almost pounced on jeongguk but immediately softened when he suddenly saw the younger shed tear while he minced the garlics.
"jeon—"
the younger man touched his cheek, hyunsik saw how jeongguk became flustered all of a sudden at the slip of his tears. that was when he also realized that jeongguk had been crying unconsciously, "i—i'm sorry sir, i , i didn't know i was already –"
hyunsik felt sympathy to the boy, "just what happened and why are you crying"
"i—i love your daughter sir, but . . . i can't ever have her"
at the mention of those simple words, hyunsik never thought he could ever shed a tear so suddenly. jeongguk opened up about eunha and haine's past, hyunsik heard the wonderful and painful stories of his daughter's life in the eyes of the man who loved her dearly. he was clearly moved of the shimmer and glint that emitted on jeongguk's eyes when he spoke of haine's name but he also felt the same pain when jeongguk told him why he broke up with her.
"no, why must you think of this on your own? son, you could have talked about it with my daughter and –"
a small, painful smile spread across jeongguk's lips and it was enough to shut hyunsik into silence.
"haine is my life sir and I would do anything to make her happy and safe"
recalling the words that came out of jeongguk, hyunsik sighed. jeongguk was the very first boy who ever made him realize how pure and self-destructive love can be.
opening the box, he felt himself tearing up and it broke his heart how the young man could be so devoted to her daughter.
"why must you be a fool jeongguk?"
he asked whispering to no one in particular as he finally realized and everything finally came into pieces.
"you could have had the happy ending that both you and my daughter always wanted"
his eyes trailed on the wedding rings on the box and he knew for sure that it was something that jeongguk wished to make haine wear the moment they marry but now . . . it was just so impossible.
"in your arms, my daughter found happiness and security"