+double update in a day!
+i have everything all planned and what's only left is to write the chapters T_T
"breaking news! twenty one year old found dead, mutilated with multiple of stabs all over her body. the teenager was found out to be choi eunha, the suspect has yet to be found"
my eyes that were fixated on the tv widened as all of the words seems to be out of my reach, heart trashing inside me, i didn't know the right emotions to feel. my sister, the perfect girl among the choi twins was found dead. the perfect twin is dead, body cold and lifeless.
i had my eyes glued on the television as my emotions were in turmoil. what should i feel? should i feel grief? sorrow? pain? or should i feel happiness?
i sat frozen, i didn't know what to think and honestly even if we are blood related and we came from the same womb . . . i, i don't feel anything at all. am i the worst?
am i inhumane to feel nothing for her death?
her death - so many things flashed inside my mind, when she was still alive all she ever did to me was bring pain and sadness. eunha was the perfect twin and i was always the outcast, no one ever looked at my way and even the one person i thought that finally loved me . . . she took it all away, she took everything away.
i don't know what i should feel.
"haine -" father was about to mutter another word before my phone suddenly buzzed on my pocket.
INCOMING CALL
taeate 👽💀
ANSWER | DECLINE
"haine, the news did
you see the-"
"taehyung calm down and yes i saw the news"
"a-are you okay?"
"i'm-"
"choi haine - yah! jinnie, give me back my phone!"
"hello? tae?"
"haine?"
"jinnie?"
"listen, hai- jagi, hyung took my phone! -aish! taehyung, seriously shut up that mouth"
". . . um, guys "
"haine? you there?"
"oh! i'm here"
"meet us - yah! seriously taehyung - but i wanna talk with jagi! so effing freaking unfair! -kim taehyung, i swear"
this will never end, seriously.
"c-can i bring cloud along?"
"the pup? -bring the cutie haine! we'll play - fine, you can bring the puppy, but the group will be around and you have to-"
"to? to what, jin?"
his voice were soft and taehyung's voice suddenly dissipated in the background.
"you have to tell me about the tests and i have something to tell you about jeon"
;
"so, eunha is dead" jin stated the fact as all of us were finally inside the kim residence. we were in their balcony and for a meeting, we were sure looking like having some barbeque party. i was also glad that somehow taehyung and jin's house was somewhat on a private place and away from the others so we won't have any problem talking about this death of eunha in the open.
jin was currently grilling the meat while i stood beside him, waiting. mimi, taehyung and hoseok were playing with cloud while jimin, namjoon and yoongi helped with the cooking.
"yeah, so what? that bitch deserve-"
yoongi was just about to continue what he was supposed to say when jin stuffed a meat in his mouth "mff!" yoongi muffled, almost choking but managed to chew the food eventually. "damn that tastes good but, what the fuck is that jin mama?!"
jin shushed yoongi before speaking once more, "i know that we all hate her and as much as i want to, that doesn't mean we must be happy and celebrate now. if the police investigates further in this case . . . all of us might be interrogated and worse. . . "
jin suddenly stopped talking before finally meeting his eyes on me, i suddenly felt chills run down on my spine. what does he mean? "worse?" jimin echoed as he beat me to it.
"we know that eunha has a history with haine. so, haine is in danger right now"
"so what you're saying is?" jimin pressed again.
the atmosphere suddenly became gloomy, "to make things short, the twin's mother may frame up haine in this situation" namjoon continued.
terrified, i squeaked "but, i've ne-"
"we know you're innocent but now that the suspect is out in the open, you must be careful" jin muttered and i didn't know if i should feel scared or what but, i can't possibly be arrested. i can't, now that there is a growing being inside me.
"we might not even know if he is the suspect"
a frown painted my lips and i couldn't help but feel scared. i can't go to prison, i can't. i want to raise the baby with a good environment and if what namjoon said comes true then . . .then, "don't worry, we're all here for you" my train of thoughts burst into thin bubbles when i felt someone tapping my head.
looking to the side, i saw yoongi smiling warmly, "we won't let that happen and they'll have to cross me first before they get through my cute dongsaeng"
a small smile slowly spread across my lips and before i knew it the words just suddenly came out of my mouth, unconsciously, "i'm really glad that i have all of you now that i'm pregnant, i'll really need a lot of support!" my voice came out a little too loud for my own good and everyone just seemed to stop and snap their heads on my direction.
jimin's eyes widened as he dropped the vegetables he had in his hand, namjoon suddenly broke the kitchen tongs as it split into two, yoongi plastered me his eye burning gummy smile and at the back, we heard a loud thump, a muffled scream and an out of this world chants.
slowly spinning my head back -apparently, hoseok suddenly fainted, taehyung started to chant weird words while holding a voodoo doll and mimi run beside me, squealing. the only person who remained cool was jin.
"p-p-p-" mimi stuttered as she suddenly held my hands and i didn't know how to explain.
"pregnant?!" namjoon, jimin and mimi squeaked.
after the big revelation jin helped me explain the things, they didn't press who the father is but none had to ask anyway as it was already so obvious. the group said that they would be willing to help me and if they could, all of them would act as the father of the baby while mimi wanted to be the aunt. i was just glad that they supported me in my decision of keeping the baby.
i don't know but, the boys' reaction was really priceless. the moment me and jin finished explaining things, jimin suddenly rushed beside me and asked if he could touch my belly. i was really taken aback as i just found out about the growing being and i hadn't known how old it was but, nonetheless i agreed.
"you're going to grow muscles, be sexy as fuck and i'll make sure you will!"
i snickered and i heard jin mumble, "jimin, we don't even know if it's gonna be a girl or a boy"
"whatever gender it might be, i would still help. boy or girl, i'll make her grow into a sexy specimen!" jimin mumbled enthusiastically before hoseok suddenly pushed him.
"yah! hyung!" hoseok ignored the smaller boy.
"i'm going to teach you dance! daddy hoseok will make you laugh everyday and we will make the flowers bloom by just our smiles!" he flashed a smile before winking at me and i giggled once more.
"move over, horse"
"yah i'm not a horse, yoongi!"
"whatever" kneeling, yoongi bashfully touched my tummy, "i'm going to teach you how to spit fire someday and be sweg"
"seriously, he's going to be crazily smart" namjoon didn't touch my belly but he ruffled my hair.
"he?! again, we don't even know if its gonna be a boy or a girl so don't assume things. but! i know it's gonna be a girl, she'll be as beautiful as me beachez"
"shut up, mario. tae will be the one and only father. jagi belongs to me and the cutie inside her!"
i snickered at the memory as i walked on my way home, cloud on his leash. it was still quite early and as much as all of them wanted to bring me home i refused to, the sun was still up and i've got cloud by my side anyway.
walking idly down the street, cloud suddenly became hyped as his tail started waggling - nose sniffing and lips barking. despite being small, i realized that he had this unbelievable strength and he was able to get out of my grip.
"wait! cloud!" i followed suit and the dog was running, i was worried of the baby inside as i know that the first few weeks of the pregnancy are crucial but the moment cloud stopped infront of a hooded man, i felt relieved.
"cloud!" i called out to the pup, he looked briefly at me but immediately snapped his head towards the black - hooded boy. damn this puppy.
cloud barked as he hovered to the man, jumping and letting out small cries as his tail waggled. the man held cloud and i was intrigued, cloud was never a type to casually act this way unless it was me or him. the pup let this man touch him and that confused me, a lot.
i know it was dangerous as i didn't know the man but i slowly sat beside the stranger who was seated on the bench.
"cloud!" i murmured once more as i reached out to him, trying my best to catch his attention but the moment i called out to his name, the hooded boy faced me and my heart immediately dropped.
"i-"
my voice was caught up inside my throat as i saw him. him, who used to be the only ray of light in my life, my other half, may man - jeon jeongguk.
a lump was starting to form in the pits of my stomach as i suddenly felt as if all the oxygen around me was taken away, i couldn't help myself but feel weak.
our eyes met and i saw how miserable he looked. right, it was eunha's death - he must be terrified.
"i-" i squeaked only to see the way his eyes slowly became red, eyes glossing and tearing up. he looked so broken and i didn't know what to do. jeongguk looked so lost that even if i knew and swore that i should stay away from him to avoid heartbreak, i couldn't.
"h-haine?"
as much as i hate him, i don't want him seeing like this.
he shaked his head, chuckling bitterly "i-i must be dreaming" jeongguk muttered out of the blue, letting cloud rest on his lap as he cupped his face, continuously wiping the tears in his eyes, his body trembling terribly. "
y-you can't be here, i'm . . . i'm just imagining things" he murmured and it was enough to finally make my eyes pool with tears.
my body scooted closer to him and i just couldn't help it, he looked so fragile. i slowly wrapped my arms on his trembling body.
"this isn't a dream?"
"oh god, i - haine"
i felt him flinch and i was prepared of him pushing me but, the moment his arms slowly made its way on my waist i felt like this was right.
everything felt so right and i was in his arms after so long. right now he's here right beside me, this was what i've always wanted.
inside these arms is everything that i've ever wanted.
if only this would be forever and this would never end, i would gladly stay like this. i don't want to go back to the past, i just want to drown in his warmth. i want to be with him, i want him by my side. i just miss him so bad and i just wish, i wish he's just mine to keep.
i missed him- this warmth, this scent, this skin, this breath . . . everything. i want him so bad but i'm so scared.
no words were uttered between us and i was just so afraid that if i spoke, this would end and we would part ways once more. i felt the grip in his arms tighten and i just let him, his tears soaked my black crop top and it didn't matter.
"h-haine" my name still perfectly rolled in the tips of his lips and it felt so foreign. it made me feel so complete, i just missed him and this.
he nuzzled closer, burying his face on the crook of my neck. "haine. haine. haine" he uttered like a child as if seeking his mother and i couldn't help but give soothing caresses on his back.
"i'm scared, i'm scared. haine, i'm sorry, i'm sorry. i'm sorry" i wanted to say everything's going to be alright but there was a part of me that hesitated.
"i-i'm sorry" the boy slightly pulled away and let our foreheads link on each other. i missed this, i missed this so much and i wish i could just scream at him, i wish i could say that we get back together.
but, i'm the only one, it's only one sided. i'm the only one who needs the other, right?
"i-i'm sorry about eunha, jeongguk" i pulled away and as much as i loved the warmth from him, i must be rational.
his eyes widened before he suddenly fell speechless, ". . ."
"y-you would be able to make it through and i-" voice caught up in my throat and eyes widening. i was dumbfounded when he suddenly cupped my cheeks and let our lips touch.
no, don't do this. i can't refuse you, what must i do? i want to pull away but i- i missed this.
this is the last time, for the very last time - i want to feel the way his lips would weave against mine, how it could ignite and give me sparks. make the whole zoo roar, just for the very last time . . . let me be selfish.
lips parting, i wanted more of his touch but chose to stop myself. our eyes were linked and soon enough, his lips started moving once more, "mahal kita, mahal na mahal, haine."
at the mention of those words, a sob escaped his lips as i felt my heart being stabbed over and over - i still don't know what it meant and why he keeps on telling me those words. Why?
just what does it meant and why do i feel like returning the words back to him?
surprising me, jeongguk briefly pressed his nose against mine before immediately pulling away, leaving me speechless as i just watched his body running away.
04:38pm
I wanted to stop him from running away and from leaving me, but who am i to stop him?
;
walking my way to the living room, i found dad and he was a little acting weird. usually, when i come home he would be giddy and jumpy but right now i find him seated at the living room. "i'm home fa-"
"breaking news! the suspect of the death of choi eunha has been found! jeon jeongguk, 21 years old also known as the deceased woman's lover was confirmed to be the murderer of the said maiden. he turned himself in at exactly o4:45pm this afternoon. his motives has yet been found"
at the mention of those words, my heart broke into pieces, confusion filling my mind and everything suddenly went black. only father's worried voice was the last thing i heard.
i thought you loved her, why did you kill her?