~{Emma's .P.O.V.}~
Dear Diary,
The truth?... I think about him more than I should... Max. I really missed what we had, him and me. Yeah I miss him, I miss him like an idiot misses the point. I miss us. I miss having to talk to him whenever I wanted. But I know I have to move on, because this is pointless. Honestly, I never knew I'd end up liking him this much.
I don't understand how I can hold myself together during the day, or how I can occupy myself with mindless tasks or sleep to escape it all. But at night is when I start to unravel and my eyes leak and my insides spill out and pool into my lap. I am struggling to keep my head above the water and it has always been too shallow to drown in but I think it's finally deep enough.
I Need Him. really. It's incredible how alone one person's absence can make you feel. I could be in a room surrounded by all my friends and family, but without him I might as well be standing on the surface of the moon.
I am so mad at myself. I feel like I hate myself instead of hating him for all the things he had did to me in the past like cheating and lying to me and I don't know if that is possible. I want to say I miss him but it wouldn't change anything so I'll just keep on pretending I don't, because I convinced myself that I was over him and now I know it was all pretend. I pretended that I didn't look at him and when he didn't notice I was. I pretended not to light up when he entered a room. I pretended not to get upset when we got into fights. I pretended I didn't look forward to seeing him everyday. I pretended that I wasn't hurt when he broke my heart. I pretended I didn't miss him when he didn't come along. Now all these lies have showed me is that I miss him so much more than I realized.
The truth? I hate to admit, I like Max, a lot and I haven't stopped liking him. I still have feelings for him. And no matter how many times I tell myself that I'm better off without him, a part of me just won't let go. I thought I could handle the pain from being apart from him, but I can't... Okay, I admit it. I MISS HIM so freakin much... He makes me happy. He makes me laugh. He's smart. He's different. He's a little crazy and awkward, and his smile alone can make my day.
I want you back Max... I wish I could copy and paste you in my bed. I hope you change your mind and my phone will chime or my Facebook chat will ping. You'll say hi and everything will be okay... Truth is, I'd give anything for us to go back to how things used to be...
Sincerely Emma Walters💜
~{Author's Note}~
Emma has feelings for Max again! She actually misses him. What will Emma do now? Will Emma talk to Max and mend their relationship? Will Max feel the same way about Emma? Will Emma leave Cameron for good? How will Cameron take it????????😳🙀😩🙃 So many questions!!!!!! ....
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Hi everyone, I hope you like the chapter. Sorry it is short, my bad. My head is just pounding very hard and I don't really feel like writing a lot, it just hurts to write and think at the same time. I promise I will make the next chapter longer. ❤😊 (p.s. Please check out my new fanfiction, it is called She Will Be Loved, a Klaus Mikaelson Lovestory)
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