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It’s the summer already ,
she can feel the heat in the air ,
the nature looks brighter
as if a five year old colored the whole place with crayons .
She inhaled deeply .
She wanted enough oxygen
to enter her lungs .
She believed that would make her feel lighter from inside .
But sad , that didn’t really work.
She still felt heavy at her chest .
She felt like something was stuck in her throat not letting her
breathe properly .
The scene flashes before her eyes
every now and then ,
making her shiver every time ,
making her palms go all sweaty
every time .
He , standing in front of her,
while she was seated on the desk ,
his beautiful hands folded in fists
pressed gently against her knees ,
his knuckles making her
knees feel tickled .
She was so
speechless and overwhelmed
with confusion ,
that her palms went all clammy ;
she was scared to look into his eyes ,
so she kept looking down .
His voice keeps ringing in her head ,
those words he had spoken
into her ears ,
in that moment _
“ You are MY girl ”
that is when she realized ,
she had been fooling herself -
the whole time - convincing herself that she was no guy’s
nothing anymore .
He had just shaken her up with
those words and she felt so foolish
for believing that-
after all this time she was still the same old narcissistic herself .
And , then she found her mind
telling her
in a loud voice -
“ You’re so stupid .
You had become HIS long ago
and you didn’t even seem to realize .”
He was her only lighthouse whenever she was lost in the middle of the endless sea of nothingness ,
but then again ,
he was the albatross on her shoulder,
weighing down her heart to sink into
an overwhelming
undeniable melancholy .
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