Ikot dito.
Ikot doon.
Nakatihaya.
Nakadapa.
Nakatagilid.
Obviously, lahat na ng posisyon sa pagtulog ay ginawa ko na pero hindi ako dalawin ng antok.
Tumingin ako sa wall clock.
12am
Argggh this is frustrating! 7am pa ang pasok ko mamaya!
Tumayo ako sa kama at dumiretso sa balcony.
Napapikit ako ng dumampi ang malamig na hangin sa balat ko.
I like you stupid!
This is a first time someone confessed to me.
"U-uh. . . " I stuttered.
F*ck. Hindi ko alam ang dapat kong sabihin.
"Nakakainis ka!" bulyaw niya at patakbong pumasok sa loob ng kotse.
I stayed for a couple of minutes before following her inside.
Pinakalma ko muna ang sarili ko. Hindi ko kasi alam kung bakit ang lakas ng kabog ng dibdib ko.
I tried to focus on driving.
But I can't help to steal a glance.
She was laying in the backseat. I don't know if she's sleeping or not.
Kakaapak ko pa lang sa brake ay biglang bumukas pinto ng kotse sa likod at tumatakbo siyang lumabas diretso sa loob ng bakuran nila.
Impernes ang bilis niyang tumakbo.
I sighed at the flashback.
Please, let me sleep.
Ring!
Ring!
Ring!
The alarm woke me up.
"Arghhh!" I groaned.
Sobrang bigat ng talukap ng mata ko. 3hours lang ata ang tulog ko at 6:30am na.
I have 30minutes to prepare for school.
Papikit pikit pa akong naglakad patungo sa banyo.
I hailed a cab. I texted Dom before I sleep last night that I won't be able to go to school with her. I said that she can use my car. Hindi ako pwedeng magdrivr ng ganito, feeling ko any moment makakatulog ako.
Sa sampung minutong biyahe ko, wala akong ginawa kundi ang humikab. Walang epekto ang cold bath, bwiset.
Sa mismong tapat ng gate ako bumaba.
Isang hikab pa ang pinakawalan ko bago ako maglakad. Wala akong pakialam na kung malate pa dahil sa bagal ng lakad ko.
Isang kamay humawak sa braso ko na nakapagpahinto sakin.
"Hey are you okay?" Rainee came into view. I blinked a few times. Pinaprocess pa ng utak ko ang sinabi niya.
Nang sasagot na ako ay isang kamay na naman ang humawak sa kabilang braso ko.
"Good morning!" isang pamilyar na boses ang muling nagpakaba sakin.
Tumitig lang ako sa kanya habang siya ay nakangiting nakatingin kay Rainee.
"We haven't formally introduced, I'm Sunny. Sky's suitor." she said grinning.
Nanlaki ang mata ko sa sinabi niya?
Seryoso ba siya?
Oh my golly, anong nangyayari sa mundo?
"And I hate to interrupt your chitchat but we have to go. We'll be late for our class. Bye Rainee." she said with a smile as she dragged me with her.
One word to describe what you are when you didn't get enough sleep.
Bangag.
Opo mga bes, bangag ako ngayon dahilan upang hindi ako agad makareact sa mga hindi inaasahang pangyayari ngayong umaga.
Binitawan niya ako ng makarating kami sa tapat ng pinto ng room namin.
Humarap siya sakin "Didn't get enough sleep?"
I just stared at her.
"Hmm me too and it's all your fault." she is blaming me but I can see a frown instead a smile
is plastered on her face.
"You were running on my mind all night." she added.
I blinked.
Is that a pick up line or what?
All of a sudden she giggled.
"We need to get inside." she hold my hand and dragge me again.
"You're late." Ms. Gatdula welcomed us.
"Sorry Ma'am. I had to wait for Sky and make sure she attend her classes. You know, suitor duties."
All of our jaw dropped.
Ilang beses ba akong masusorpresa ngayong araw?
And wait, did she just announced to the whole class this suitor thing?!
I looked at her in disbelief.
But she isn't paying attention to me. She just dragged me again with until we reached ours seats at the back.
"Ehem." Ma'am cleared her throat "I'll let you pass for now but I hope it won't happen again."
"Thank you Ma'am." Sunny answered.
"Now let's proceed to our lesson for today . . . . "
"Suitor huh?" Erika mumbled as I got to see her smirk towards her friend.
The latter gave a wide grin and shrugged as she listen to Ms. Gatdula.
Is my mind playing tricks on me? I swear I'll consume more than 8hours of sleep from now on.
"See you tomorrow class." - Ms. Gatdula.
Nagpulasan ang mga estudyante.
I turn to face thr girl beside me.
"Sunny, can we talk?"
She nodded.
"Kita nalang tayo sa room okay? Bye Sky." - Erika.
When all of them is gone
"What's with the suitor thing?" I started.
"I'm courting you." she said in a duh tone.
I sighed "Listen, you can't like me. Wag ako."
"Bakit hindi ikaw?"
"I had bad past. Magulo ang buhay ko. Hindi ako mabuting tao."
"Hindi mabuting tao? Sino yung nagligtas samin? Sino yung tanging stand up against bullying? Kung yan ang iniisip mo, fine but for me, you're a good person. One of the things I like about you."
"I can't let my past hurt you. I care about you and having deeper feelings for me will not do anything good to you so please just like someone else." I pleaded.
Umiling siya "If it can be that easy, you think I would be here? and I would court you? No, it's not that easy." she sighed "It's about her right? You still love her that's wh-----"
"No, of course not! It's about you. I just want you sa-----"
"Oh it's about me? Then I should decide what to do about it. I will court you and nothing can't stop me even you. Just . . . just let me do this. Let me express my feelings because it's hard to keep it all in here." she point a finger at her heart "Don't worry, if I got hurt the blame is on me." she smiled "See you later." and left.
Gusto ko lang siyang maging ligtas. Hindi ko mapapatawad ang sarili ko kapag may nangyaring masama sa kanya dahil sa mga bagay na nagawa ko noon.
I came here to finish my studies. Having friends was not on my list but they happened. It's not that I regret meeting them but I don't want to be dragged into my messed up life.
We were lucky when Terrence' group did a move on them. It was just luck because they were like five.
What if there were reinforcements? or more than five of them and I had to protect 3 of my friends?
We will not make it and luck is not always on our side.
Sumunod na rin agad ako pagkalabas niya. Nasa pinto na ako ng bigla akong nasilaw. May tumamang repleksyon ng ilaw sa mata ko. Parang kapag tinamaan ng ilaw ang salamin gets?
Weird.
Walang malapit na building dito sa
school or anything that have a mirror or glass. Nasa 4th floor kasi ako.
I tried to look around.
May ilang establishment. Halos mga restaurants, grocery store and a few houses.
I shrugged off the thought. Baka imagination. I really need to sleep. Kung ano ano ang naiisip ko but before that I need go to my class.
Isang buntong hininga ang pinakawalan ko.
"Lalim nun ah?"
"Ma'am . . ." usal ko.
Nakatambay ako ngayon sa isang park malapit sa school.
Umupo siya sa tabi ko.
"Tuwing nakikita kita lagi kang may problema."
Natawa ako.
"Now, I won't force you to tell me what is y-----"
"Ma'am, ang hirap palang maging maganda no?" biro ko
Tumaas ang kilay niya sabay smirk "So it's about those two girls huh?"
"Hmm sort of."
"Why?" she asked.
"Ma'am magulo ang buhay ko. Ayokong madamay sila sa. They're my friends and I care about them."
"Ano ba talagang problema mo? Sila o yang buhay mo?"
"Both?"
"Then fix what is needed to be fix first. Ano ba ang naging dahilan ng magulo mong buhay?"
Si Rainee.
"Kung sino o ano man yun, pag-usapan. Tapusin na ang dapat tapusin. Isarado na ang mga sugat ng kahapon. And I think from there you'll know what to do next. Don't let your past ruin your future. Wag mong ilayo ang mga bagay na makakapagpasaya sayo."
I need to talk to her.
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So it has come to my knowledge na kaya ko pala na makatapos ng isang chapter sa loob ng 3-4 hours. Sadyang tamad lang talaga ako at umaabot ng isang linggo hahahahahaha
Thank you for reading!