"See you around at school, love"
Hands tightly clutching the little blue piece of paper on my hand, I read the written encouraging words over and over as I carefully walked through the crowded campus of the university.
A small smile couldn't help but spread on my lips as I recalled what happened yesterday—I am sure the luckiest girl to ever have him by my side. Jeongguk was like an angel who mistakenly fell from the sky and he landed unto me.
I was looking forward in meeting him as I made my way on the rooftop, my body was feeling excited and the urge to meet him couldn't help but send butterflies on my stomach. I know that we met yesterday night but I just missed him already.
I was heading unto my first class when somebody pulled me out of the door.
"yah, what the fuck is wr—"
My lips stopped moving once I saw the blonde haired beauty that I haven't been seeing these past few days because of jeongguk.
"where the fuck were you for several days?!" the boy cut through me as I saw his eyes bloodshot and tired, I felt bad for being such a dense woman.
"tae—" once again, even before I could mutter more words, the boy pulled me out of the crowd's eyes and before I knew it we were inside professor Seokjin's office—specifically the drama club's practice room.
"explain it all at once, woman" the boy let go of my hand once we were inside the room.
"I'm sorry, tae—"
"I don't need your apology! What I need is an explanation! I've been worried sick, I've been searching for you for days! Whenever I look for you on dismissals, you were never there! I thought something happened to you! I thought your emotions got the best of you and y—" the boy's eyes started to get glossy. oh god, how would I explain everything to taehyung?
"I thought you were . . . gone" he breathed before letting the tears cascade on his cheeks and he was wiping the tears continuously.
"I thought the issue with jeongguk ate you and—"
"taehyung—"
"just where were you?" I found myself opening my lips before closing them, imitating what fishes do to breathe but in my case I felt all the oxygen from my body escape as I couldn't find the right words to explain every little thing to him.
Taehyung cared for me, he was worried sick while here I was feeling in cloud nine as I was with jeongguk every single time. Why did I? why am I so insensitive, this is all my fault. How could I say that I got together with the bunny boy within those days that we weren't able to meet even for just a second?
"i—" he was there when I needed someone the most, he was the one who picked me up when jeongguk left me how could I just break it to him that i—
I'm together with another boy.
Memories of his kindness flashed in my mind and I couldn't help but tear up, I can't do it. I can't. I can't break him, I can't possibly just say that while he was worried sick of me, I was out there in the arms of another man. I know that we were nothing but friends but I—I, I can't hurt him.
"oh my god, haine please don't cry" the boy cupped my cheeks and our eyes met. no, don't be this kind, don't be like this.
He wiped the tears that were falling from my eyes "I'm sorry for forcing you to speak up it was just—" stop it, why. just what did I do to deserve you?
I would only break your heart into pieces. "I'm . . . so sorry taehyung" I muttered as my eyes lingered on the ground, I'm about to speak of the truth.
"you don't have to apologize, I was jus—"
"I . . . I got together with jeongguk" hands dropping from my cheeks, my eyes that were fixated on the floor saw how his feet suddenly trembled.
"p—pardon?" I heard him speak and it was enough to make me feel so bad.
"taehyung i—"
"i—is this a joke?"
"i—"
Mustering up the courage to look up ahead, even before I could have do so he beat me to it "d—don't look please"
"tae—"
"this is ridiculous . ." I heard taehyung let out a sarcastic laugh as it was yet followed with a broken sob. "it's really funny"
"tae—"
"I feel like a fool"
"i—"
"I was a fool, I'm sorry. I—"
"taeh—"
"I've got to go, h—haine. See you around"
No, if I let him go then, he'll slip away from my grasp then, "taehyung please, I'm so sorry"
Stopping him and letting our skins touch, I grasped his arm to stop him from running away from my sight. The moment our eyes met and looking at him—eyes tear stricken, lips curled into frown and shivering hands I couldn't help but feel terribly bad.
Taehyung's eyes widened before he looked away anywhere but my eyes, "p—please let go of me"
As much as it conflicted me and as much as I wanted to give him what he wants, "no, if I let you go . . . If I let you go then, then I won't ever be able to talk to you again. You're my friend an—"
Heart hammering and eyes widening, I was caught off guard when he suddenly pulled his arm away from my grasp, "how insensitive can you be?!"
"i—"
"can't you get the idea that I don't just want to be your friend? I don't want us to be fucking freaking friends only! How many times do I have to make you understand that I love you! I like you and you're the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. I want you to be mine! I want you! how can you want us to be friends when I'm feeling this madly inlove with you?!"
"ta—"
"I was worried sick! I was worried sick for several days, thinking what could've happened to you. I was worried that you have even killed yourself! I was worried that eunha pushed you to your limit and I was losing my mind knowing and not seeing you for several days and now . . . now, I find out that you're together with another man and most of all the man who had hurt you over and over again?! What utter and complete bullshit life I have! Just what the hell did you see in that boy that I don't have?! What . . . why can't you look in my way even after everything I've done?" I didn't know what to do anymore, I couldn't speak and I couldn't find the right words myself.
Everything he said was the truth and I am really a fool to leave him without any notice, running off to the man who hurt me several times.
"why did my heart even have to beat for someone it can't have?" taehyung murmured the last words and it stroke me straight to the heart—the way his eyes pooled with tears and the way his voice sounded so broken couldn't help but make me pool with tears.
"i—I'm sorry. Taehyung, please don't do this" I whispered but it wasn't enough to stop his big frame from disappearing from my sight.
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All day, jeongguk wasn't around. I didn't have the courage to look for him as I still felt guilty about taehyung. I don't know what to feel anymore. My feet slowly strolled its way on the roof top, opening the door, the frown that painted my lips slowly deepened when my eyes landed on the boy who lay on the floor—eyes closed, face filled with bruises and arms patched up.
Could this day get any better?
"Jeongguk!?" at the mention of his name, I saw his body flinch as his eyes started to open. Shocked of his form, I found myself running to him as he slowly sat up.
Trembling, I let myself sit in-front of him before my eyes suddenly became glossy. Our eyes met as I couldn't help but whimper at how he looked, "j-jeongguk? wh-what--"
A sad smile spread across his lips "N-no. why i-jeongguk, y-you're c-"
"Baby, don't cry"
"No! Tell me what happened! Why, why are you bruised all over? We were together last night and-"
"This is nothing, really"
Tears cascaded down on my cheeks, "no, it's not. You're patched up everywhere-- your face has bruises, your arms have bandages and when you walk it. ." breathe hitching, I found my voice breaking before my hands made its way to cup his bruised face.
"I'm really fine—I'm not going to die with just this, don't worry, love" the boy spoke, leaning against my touch
As much as I should have felt assured, what I felt was otherwise "no. I'm. . I'm worried what if. . What if you disappeared, you're. . you're the only one i have"
Pulling my hand away, he linked our foreheads against one another, hands making its way on my little body before muttering, "Stop crying, haine"
"I can't help it, I'm . . . I'm so sad, you're wounded and i can't do anything"
"You know, i think i really love you for real right now."
Eyes almost popping out of my eye sockets and cheeks burning pink, I couldn't help but give him a light punch on his chest "aish, you bunny! Stop with that teasing! Can't you understand that I'm worried and pulling off that pick up line i—"
"For once, you admitted crying also not to mention my bonus hug and you admitting again that you are worried for me . . i couldn't really get happier"
"Aish! Stop it! How could I not worry?! I'm really worried you know! I don't know what will happen to me if you were to be gone and you're the only one i—"
Finger shushing my lips, the boy made me silent all at once before giving a sweet, chaste kiss on my lips "don't worry this bunny belongs to you only and no matter what happens, we'll be—"
"I hate you, you're always—"
"I swear Choi Haine, stop crying and shush that soft lips or I'll kiss you again"
"Stop teasing me and my eyes, my eyes they're just . . . jus—"
Lips touching once more, even before I could have finished what I was supposed to say the boy shut me off by stealing another kiss. Eyes flickering into shock, I puckered my lips into a thin line as I didn't want another surprise attack and to save myself from a heart attack.
The boy smiled smugly before letting out a mocking laughter "there, my baby stopped crying"
Cheeks blazing into a hot pink, my mouth quivered before speaking "y—you!"
"ahhhh . . . I really love it when your cheeks turn this bright pink and don't you know that you're so adorable right now?" the boy snickered again and I couldn't help but shy away.
"s—stop it, don't tease"
"that only makes me want to tease more"
"s—"
Once more, he claimed my lips and right when I thought it was only just going to be a sweet, chaste and innocent kiss, he begun to weave his lips unto mine and it felt like I was going to lose it.
The boy's hands made its way on the back of my body before pulling me closer, deepening the kiss. I couldn't help but clutch the fabric of his shirt as I couldn't help but just give in. I can't help but give myself to him.
We were so drawn into each other's affection that we didn't even notice the sound of the shutter and sensed the impending trouble ahead.
nn: i'm bacccccckkk!!!!!!