Hey guys its not the update you wanted but one of the reader wantrd an english version of Hoor's letter so I am updating this part.
All thanks to the pretty reader Sania Zufikaar..
Love you loads girl or even more...
Thanks for the comments you gave and also for this favour.
treacherous19 is the one who translated this and I am truly grateful to you girl for the kind act love :) :) :)
I wanted to write the whole letter in urdu so did I but some of u are nit getting it. The people who understand urdu can only get what and why I wrote it in urdu.
Because urdu is the language in which some of the emotions can be explained in a better way. I guess...
The difference is in front of you guys...
So here you go...
Dana9bm...
I hope for a vote and lot more comments from you...
I am not able to translate the whole book but you can ask me if you didn't get any point...
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Hussain Asif's POV
"I love you hussain.
There's nothing new in it. You know about this afterall you have read my diary.
You shouldn't have read my personal diary hussain. Now that you know about it so let me tell you everything.
I really love you. Maybe since when i saw you for the time.
I didn't met you but i saw you. At that time i felt that i wouldn't be able to see anyone ever again. After seeing you these eyes couldn't focus on anything else.
What do we call it,yeah ,love at first sight.
But then i didnt knew my feelings. What had happened with me.
I was really young but hussain i fell in love with you.
You couldnt have fallen in love with me. I was not your type.
How can someone love me and why would someone love me.
Who will love a nerd or an aunty type like me I am not beautiful like other girls.
I do not have that fashion sense. I can not wear clothes like them. I do not style my hair like they do and i do not parlor every month.
I didnt focus on myself because i thought allah had created everything perfect and allah had created me so i will be be perfect too.
But i was wrong.
I am not perfect. I am a nerd. A bookworm. I didnt got time from studies to look after myself. I only wanted to fulfil my fathers wish.
Look after fulfiling his wish where am i now. I fulfiled his wish but i am incomplete.
All my dreams are incomplete. All of them. I didnt knew wearing glasses was a crime. These glases helped me when i used to see you hiding from being caught.
Yes i used to watch you from the window and seeing you like this became my habbit.
First you used to come everyday but then you started coming on weekends only.
I used to wait for you and when you didnt come my heart felt like it was broken.
When shehry bro used to come alone i met him. But i never had the power to meet you. Whenever i used to picture myself infront of you it felt like life was draining from me. I felt like i would die if i come infront of you.
Hussain you have read my diary.
And if you havent i allow you to read it because secrets are of people who are alive......but if someone is not alive he doesnt have any secrets.
I survived the incident that happened 10 years back but i can not survive this.
Hussain i didnt need love as charity.
10 years back i was rejected and now you have rejected me once again. You have rejected me 2 times.
Hussain i feel like a begger and you are giving me this love in charity.
I dont need this charity because im not a begger.
You deserve a better girl than me. So dont sacrifice your love for me.
This is my last wish hussain.
You will fulfil this wish ?
Marry the girl you deserve.
You are understanding right.
I dont need charity.
First i wanted to go far away from youall where no one can find me but now i am going far way from my life. I dont want this life .
I am feeling suffocated.
I am tired of being hurt. I can not walk around with this weight.
No more now....
You dont worry i have not shed a single tear because my eyes are dry. Tears have also left me.
I will go away from this world smiling.
And yes you will not be the reason of my death.
I am deciding this for me in my senses.
I WANT TO END MY LIFE....
I am tired of myself. Tired of this heart. Tired of this life.
I am taking your one favour with me. These two days i have lived my life. These two days are my life. My love is my life.
This favor will stay with me. I will not be able to return this favor so please forgive me.
You will get this letter when im gone.
I hope so.....
I want so.....
I have no more strength in me. I am not able to face you.
I can not tolerate your pitiful eyes for me.
But before going i have to say something.
Listen to this....
No read this...
Okay, we have admited
You don't love
We don't remember you
You don't remeber me
Just turn aroud once
And look at me
Okay, we have admited
You don't love
Okay, I have admited that I didn't see
That mole of your shoulder
Okay, I have admited
My heart has not been broken by your hands
Those conversations of summer
Didn't pass under your shadow
Those nights of winter
Didn't pass into your arms
Okay, we have admited
You don't love me
You don't remember me
We don't remember you
Goodbye forever,
Remember me in.....
This is the tenth time I am reading this letter. At the end of her letter there was a straight line which shows that she must have broken the pen in rage or pain.
I hate you Hoor.
My face soaked with tears and I was continuously sitting outside the OT. She is inside.
Doctor said " She is completely un concious and we are trying our best. We have washed her stomach but she have already her stomach empty when she ate those sleeping pills. And this is more than dangerous for her. Thank God you take her a little early other wise five minutes more delay or she was dead."
I was scared listening to what doctor was saying.
"Doctor how much chances of her survival?" I asked and doctor looked ar me with concern asking me.
"Who is she to you?"
"She is my wife and we came after our wedding reception. I don't know why she attempted suicide." I stated all sadly even an unknowing tear slipped from my left eye.
"Your love is powerful man and I hope for the best. I am honestly speaking there is only 25 percent chances of her survival. But don't loose hope my child. We are already done with her surgery."
He said and patted my shoulder turning back to the operation theature. Suddenly he turned back and said " Next twenty four hours are really difficult for her. If she survives in these twenty four hours then there is a good hope that she'll be recovering soon."
Shehryaar Asif's POV
"Sherry I would have never forced her into this marriage. We people have made a great mistake doing so. I am the reason. She is in this condition just because of me."
Its the hundredth time he is saying this same sentence and I looked at his hope less face.
There was only pain on his face.
Pain of loosing his loved once. I am help less. I wanted to wipe that pain away from his face but how.
Its all because of me and again because of my stupid plan. Hussain never wanted to marry her forcefully but I forced him.
No one knows about Hoor at home even Hareem don't know any thing about this.
I got a call from Hussain when I was about to sleep. Its almost 2 am. I was too shocked that why he'll be calling me.
I was confused but I came out in the balcony to receive his call and then he told me everything about what Hoor did a few moments ago?
Is she out of her mind.
I thought Hoor is a clever girl but she has done a big mistake. I have never expected this from a girl like Hoor. I mean suicide is not her type of thing. I know she was going through a bad time attempting suicide is not a solution.
Its Haram in Islam.
"Hussain she'll be fine bro. Just pray for her good health. And after that tell her every thing. She might be taking you as a wrong person."
I kept my hand over his shoulder calming her down and he at once hugged me.
He was crying like a child over my shoulder. I patted his back in a try to calm him down.
"Get up. You are crying like a child. Get and go pray for her. Ask for Allah's mercy and blessing on her. She'll be fine soon if it is destined so. "
I helped him getting up and he actually got up leaving to pray.
I peeked through the glass to have a look of her. Her body covered with different types of tubes connected with different machines.
Her face pale and her breathing abnormal. There was a doctor checking all the machines and noting the readings down.
" Doctor hows she now? I need to know about her." I went in the room and asked the doctor about her condition.
"Hey I am Dr. Sharma and I am handling her case. She is not fine. She has taken an over dose of sleeping pills. Thanks God your brother take her here early. Other wise it was too late for her to survive."
He spoke all sadly and I looked at him. Tension evident from my face.
"What do you mean by too late. Is she out of danger now?" I asked to which he replied
"No she is not out of danger yet.I lied to your brother so he'll relax but I doubt if she won't survive..."
His sentence was not complete yet when the machine beep started giving alarms.
Alarms of danger.
Hoor was now breathing heavily. Doctor nodded me to leave the room and started checking her.
I came out from the room standing out like a stachue. What Hussain will do if Hoor will not survive???
To be continued...
I hope you get that right now.....
For the furthur update I need one more day so I'll be giving you a better thing.
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