•L O U I S•
I paced around the lounge room debating possibilities in my head. I knew I was frustrating Eleanor by pacing back and forth occasion cursing. But the thought of Tellie doing any form of self harming was eating me alive. There had to be a logical explanation for those blades... Maybe it wasn't blood, maybe it was painted.
Why would she paint with a blade?
It was stupid. Thinking it was paint, it was obvious it was blood and it wasn't an accident it was on there.
"Louis just text her-you've been going crazy about it for two days now. Text her if it bothers you that much." Eleanor said snapping me from my thoughts. I love Eleanor, but somehow it just made me sick she wasn't as worried as I was. How can she be damn calm with the idea of Tellie cutting there?
"I'm not texting her." I replied. "We both know she won't give me a proper answer."
"There's gotta be some explanation."
"Yeah there is. She freaking cuts herself!"
"You don't know that."
"It's not hard to figure out. You found freaking blades hidden all over her room, there was the blood in the bathroom the other month-"
"What blood?" Eleanor cut in.
"It was the other month, I went into her bathroom and there was a trail of blood. I thought she cut herself when she was shaving her legs or something."
"Tellie doesn't shaver her legs. She uses those wax sheets."
I stared at Eleanor in confusion. "Then why does she keep buying razors?"
"To break them..." Eleanor whispered. The knot in my stomach tightened as I stopped pacing. Here we were. Me and Eleanor saying how we think Tellie cuts. I stayed silent and looked at the ground. It sickened me to my core. Tellie was twelve. She couldn't be cutting. There was no reason why she would cut herself...was there...?
I need to find out something.
"What do I do?" I muttered as I sat on the lounge. "I don't know what I'm supposed to do if she is..."
"Neither... We don't even know they're her's yet. Maybe she's hiding them for a friend or something?" Eleanor suggested.
"I have a feeling Tellie wouldn't sprawl them across her room if she was hiding them for someone else."
"True... But come on do you really think Tellie would do what we're saying?"
Tellie was a mystery. She never failed to amaze me with the stuff she did. It wouldn't be that shocking if this was just one of those things that she did not really understanding what she was doing. But even if that was the case, I never thought she'd be that stupid.
"If she really felt the need to I think she would..." I admitted. "If she is, she probably doesn't realize what she's doing to herself..."
Silence ached through the room as I stood not looking anywhere really. Just standing. The thought made me sick. Thinking of my daughter holding a blade over her wrist and cutting down into herself. It would make any one sick.
"I don't think she would..." Eleanor said softly. "There's no reason for her to..."
I agreed with Eleanor. There was no reason for Tellie to cut herself. At least no reason either of us knew of.
"...Is he actually agreeing to this?" I asked almost laughing at Liam's plan. Just the thought of him trying to set Harry up on a date was enough to make me crack up with laughter. We all knew Harry was still holding on to Carly four years later. He could move houses and hide the photographs but he could never remove her from his mind. He never could forget her. And he shouldn't have to. He should be able to move on with his life without holding on to Carly.
"He doesn't know really..." Liam replied. "He thinks it's we're all going out together, like band thing or something. He just doesn't know Niall and Chantelle are gonna bail, Zayn's not back yet, Corey's going to text Destiny that something happened to Spence, and you... I don't know what's happening to you and El yet, any suggestions?"
"How about we found blood covered blades hidden in Tellie's room?" I said bitterly.
"A little to out there but it'll work..."
"Yeah it will work. Wanna know why it'll work? 'Cause it actually happened."
Liam stared at me as if waiting for me to laugh and say I was joking. But I wasn't. As badly as I wished I was joking I wasn't. I'd seen those blades in Eleanor's hand all of them with blood dripped along them as if they'd cut into someone.
"Why would Tellie have blades in her room...?" He asked finally realizing I wasn't adding anything to my statement.
"I don't know... But the theory's aren't exactly pretty..." I replied looking at the tiles underneath me. I couldn't remember why me and Liam had even come in here. But I knew we were obviously going to stay here, standing in the kitchen in silence.
"What are the theories...?"
I swallowed the lump in my throat drumming my hands on the counter before answering. "Self harm..."
"You think Tellie-Tellie who has a fear of blood-is cutting herself?"
"Since when is she afraid of blood?"
"Since always-remember when she broke her arm and you said she didn't want to go back to the hospital to get it off because she didn't want to see blood?"
I nodded. I did remember that. But surely something she said when she was six wasn't going to make a difference now.
"El doesn't she would...cut... She thinks there's gonna be a reasonable explanation for the blades that doesn't involving Tellie using them to..." I trailed off.
"There will be though." Liam replied. "I mean, Tellie and self harm do not go in the same sentence."
"Yeah... I just... I can't think of anything."
"Did she take her dairy with her?"
"No."
"So it's upstairs in her room?"
"Yeah-why?"
"Lou you know she writes everything in her diary?"
"Yeah why does that matter?"
"If she is she'll have something about it written on something in her diary."
"Liam I'm not going to read her diary." I snapped bluntly.
"I get it, you wanna give her her privacy but this is literally a life or death situation." He replied. I sighed and chewed on my lip. Was it bad if I read her diary? Of course it was. But it was the only logical thing that had been suggested all week.
"No." I replied bluntly. "I'm not reading her diary, it'll only make things worse."
I bit my lip as Liam just nodded, not saying a single word.
If Tellie didn't give me a good explanation for those blades, god help me.
(A/N
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SO I HOPE THAT HELPS ANSWER SOME QUESTIONS
SORRY IF I HAVENT REPLIED TO SOME COMMENTS I'VE BEEN WRITING THIS CHAPTER. I WROTE IT FIVE TIMES AND EVERYTIME I WENT TO PUBLISH FIREFOX STOPPED WORKING AND HAD TO RESTART THEREFORE DELETING ALL MY WORK
SO DON'T BLAME ME THAT IT TOOK LONG
BLAME FIREFOX ;)
THOUGHTS ON THE NEW COVER???
THOUGHTS ON STORY LINE?? i GOT TOLD IT WAS CRAP SO I'M JUST CURIOUS IF ANYONE ELSE HAS A PROBLEM WITH IT...
OH AND DOES ANYBODY KNOW HOW SCHOOLING WORKS IN UK? I'M TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT YEAR TELLIE WOULD BE IN BUT UK SCHOOLING DIFFERNT TO AUSTRALIAN
IDK IN SAW SOMEWHERE IN UK HIGH SCHOOL STARTS WHEN YOU'RE 11...
COZ TELLIE'S 13 AND BY AUSTRALIAN SCHHOLING SHE'D BE IN YEAR 7 BUT IDK IN UK SO IF YOU KNOW AND CAN HELP ME YOU ARE LITERALLY A LIFE SAVER :)
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