I realized something today as I was coming back from eating breakfast at the Clubhouse (we're camping at K.Q. right now). I was thinking about how I get/am depressed & why that is & I just started listing off reasons why & I came up with several reasons but what I ended with was the fact that even though I'm 18, no one treats me like I'm an adult or respects my feelings or opinions & I don't feel like I get a say in anything. So when I sit down to think through my problems, I don't actually focus on them because 1) I can't seem to focus & 2) I don't take myself seriously. I'm like, "oh whatever, I'm young & stupid & don't know any better & I'll change so why should I even bother with an opinion?" Everyone is getting to me & I don't know how to rise above all of the fakeness and the play acting. I'm having a bit of a crisis here.
-Rane C.