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Harry's POV
I looked my older daughter and finished changing her diaper. She giggled and I smiled.
"You're gonna be so big girl. When you grow up, I bet you're gonna be smart and a good girl", I said and Lottie stood up. It was her and Edward's 1st birthday. In my dreams it would be a family day; cakes and presents and at night some private time to my husband. But no.
"Daddy cwis!" Lottie said sadly when she saw my tears. Where they came? I didn't even notice.
"Don't worry princess. I'm gonna be happy because it's your and Edward's day today!" I said as she wiped my wet cheeks to her little hands.
"Come here", I said and Lottie giggled. She ran to my open arms and I took her my tight hug.
"Daddy loves you", I whispered and kissed his light curls. She giggled again and started to jump.
"Daddy loow!" she shouted and laughed. I laughed too and then I showed my tumbs to her. Then Gemma, Edward and Darcy came to the room.
"Ewar!" Lottie giggled as she saw her brother. Edward looked cute with his t-shirt and jeans. He had those little converse what Louis had bought to him. I smiled and Gemma sat next to him.
"I didn't know that Edward have a converse! Harry, you spoil them!" Gemma laughed and I tried to look happy.
"Yeah, Louis bought them to him", I said. Suddenly I realized it. I remembered it. I remembered how Louis had came to home and he had those converse with him. I remembered how I kissed Louis and he gave those to Edward.
"Oh, really? When?" Gemma asked and she sobered a little.
"Actually I don't remember. I just remember that he bought them and I kissed him and-" I said but I was cutted by Edward's shout.
"Daddii! Lottwi twes!" Edward shouted and I looked the twins. Lottie was stroking Edward's hair and she giggled.
"Lottie, please stop if your brother doesn't like it", I said and Lottie looked sad as she let go her brother's hair.
"You have amazing kids", Gemma smiled and stroked Darcy's soft cheek.
"I know", I said but sighed.
"What's wrong?" Gemma asked. What's wrong? Yeah, it's over three months and I still can't stop thinking about Louis. His blue eyes, his smile, his body, his amazing- Oh stop! You can't just think of him all the time! I hate myself.
"It's Louis, isn't it?" my sister asked and I nodded my head. Of course it was! It was fucking distracting.
"I want him back", I whispered and looked down. That was the truth.
"I know. Harry, you have to forget him. It's almost six months when you left him. You. Need. To. Forget. Him", Gemma said and I felt guilty. Of course I have to. I just don't know how. Or why.
Then the doorbell rang and I stood up.
"It's propably mom. She said she's coming today", I said and walked towards the door. I opened it fast.
"Hi m-" I realized that it wasn't mom. It was Louis Tomlinson.
I almost fainted and I took a deep breath. What was he doing here?!
"Hi Harry", he said and I tried to answer. Say something! My head was empty. We just stood there before Louis spoke again.
"I just came to look my kids."
Of course! It wasn't you idiot! And I was really stupid. How I just thought that Louis would come here and come back? I was so stupid.
"O-okay", I said quietly and Louis stepped inside.
"Harry, who's there-Oh", Gemma came behind me and I sighed.
"What are you doing here?!" she snapped and I and Louis winced.
"I just-"
"You just come here and you confuse Harry's head! He's trying to get over you and that Brian! You can't-"
"Gemma!" I snapped and she went quiet. I sighed and took Darcy in her arms.
"Just go", I said and Gemma nodded. She looked Louis before she left.
"Here", I said and gave Darcy in Louis' arms. He smiled and I saw tears in his eyes. I felt bad. i wanted him back!
"You can come inside. Lottie and Edward are in livingroom", I said quietly again and Louis nodded.
"Lottie! Edward! Look who came!" I smiled to them in livingroom. Lottie and Edward looked Louis a few moments before Lottie screamed: "Daddyy!" and they both ran to him.
Louis sniffled and laughed at the same time.
"Daddy cwies! Anotwer daddy cwies too", Lottie said and wiped Louis tears away. I froze. Fuck. Did Lottie just say that?
"Why daddy cries, sweetheart?" Louis asked and looked me. I felt dizzy. Fuckfuckfuck.
"Daddy 's sad", Lottie said and I sighed.
"Really?" Louis asked and looked me again.
"Lottie! What if you and Edward go and get your presents?" I asked and tried to sound happy.
"Pwesent!" Edward giggled and they both ran away. The whole livingroom was a silent before Louis spoke.
"You really do miss me."
"Yes", I said and looked down. Darcy was still in restless sleep and Louis stood up. He sat down on the couch and sighed heavily.
I just stood there before I said: " I remembered today."
"What?" Louis asked and looked me confused.
"I remembered when you bought those converse to Edward", I answered and Louis looked me. Then he smiled and nodded.
"Yeah. I remember that too. You were really angry before I kissed you and-"
I froze and Louis stopped his sentence. I was so close to burst into tears. I swallowed heavily and looked Louis blue eyes.
"Come here", Louis whispered and pointed the couch. Who can say no to that?
I walked towards the couch and sat next to Louis.
He wrapped his arms around my waist and I couldn't do nothing but just buried my head against his chest. I let out my tears and they absorbed in his shirt. I took a shaky breath as Louis whispered: "I broke up with Brian."
I only buried my head more to his chest and Louis rested his chin in my curls.
"Daddwis hug!" I heard and I raised my head. I saw Lottie and Edward smiling to us and they had their presents.
"Oh look at those presents! Open it!" Louis smiled and Lottie giggled. She opened her present and screamed.
"Iw doll!" she giggled. I smiled as I looked how Lottie took a doll in her hug. Louis laughed and then Edward opened his own present. There was a new toy car and Edward giggled.
"Lottiw, look!" Edward shouted and showed a car to his sister.
"Edwaw look twis!" Lottie said and showed her doll to Edward. They both laughed and started to play with their new toys.
"They look happy", Louis smiled as he looked me. I nodded and tried to figure out what happened just a few minutes ago.
"Did you really come here just for the kids?" I asked and looked him.
"I don't know", he answered and I nodded. I didn't know what to say.
"I still miss you", he said and I looked him a little confused. Still? Has he missed me this all time?
"Still? You missed me?" I asked and blinked my eyes.
"What? Of course. You left me. I mean, I didn't want to break up", Louis said as it was some ordinary thing. I shocked. Really?
"I don't remember anything like that. I just remember that I saw you and, well, Brian in our bed and I was really angry", I whispered and Louis looked Darcy in his arms.
"I still don't know why I did that. I was so confused and scared, maybe? I don't know, but I'm really sorry, Haz", Louis said and I looked him. He was really sorry. I could tell that.
"What if I remember that day and I start to hate you again?" I asked and looked down.
"I don't know", Louis asked honestly and sighed.
"What happened to you and Brian?" I asked.
"Not now, Harry", he whispered and I nodded.
"Are you going back?" I asked.
"No. I booked a hotel-"
"You can stay here. I mean, if you want", I said quickly. Please say yes. Please.
"I can't. I don't really want to bother you-"
"You really think you bother us? You are their father, Lou", I said and smiled. Louis smiled too and looked me. His eyes were soft blue and I almost fell for them. But I couldn't. Not now.
"What about Gemma?" Louis asked and smiloed when he heard Lottie's and Edward's giggles.
"She can go home. She is really tired", I said and he nodded.
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An hour later Gemma was at home, the kids were asleep and I and Louis were sitting on the couch.
"We have to talk these things through", Louis said and I sighed.
"I know", I said and looked him. He had his extra large T-shirt and boxers. My eyes were burning all the time when I just looked him. He looked still so hot. And he was still fit.
"Harry Styles! Were you just checking me out?" Louis said a fake hurt voice.
"No!" I laughed and buried my head to my hands. Oh how embarrassing!
"It's okay. Yoy don't look bad for yourself, either", he said and chuckled. Wait. Did Louis just say I'm looking good? I really wasn't.
"So, what happened?" I asked and Louis sobered.
"Brian was... violent", he whispered and I froze. What? That fucking bastard hurted Louis? I felt how anger took a power of my body and I started to shaking.
"Hey, easy", Louis said and I finally snapped.
"What hell is wrong with that guy?! He's so unbelievabling stupid! I knew that there is something wrong with that guy! Ughh!" I said and tried to calm down. I took a deep breath.
"Calm down", Louis said and I nodded.
"So, three months ago, I got a panickattack-"
"What?!"
"Just listen, okay?"
"Okay."
"And he slapped me. It was propably an accident, but he continued it. He slapped me many times, and then, one night, when he was drunk, he... raped me."
I blinked. How in hell somebody wanted to do something bad to Louis? He was so sweet and lovely person. I wasn't even angry. I felt really bad.
"And it was enough for me. I left two weeks ago", Louis finished and I nodded.
"I hate him", Louis continued and I looked him.
"Of course you do. I can't believe what he did to you", I whispered and Louis nodded in agreement.
"Come here", I whispered and took Louis in my tight hug. Louis started to cry against my chest and I stroked his hair. He smelled so much like Louis. Just Louis.
"I really missed you", Louis said and I nodded.
"Yeah. Me too", he said and pulled back. He looked so tired and small right then.
"What if you just go to sleep now?" I asked and he nodded. He stood up and I did too.
"Where do I sleep?" he asked. I didn't know. All the rooms were full now. He has to sleep with me.
"Umm, you can sleep with me. Or in the couch", I said. Louis smiled and started to walk towards my bedroom.
"Okay", I whispered, even I knew he couldn't hear me anymore.
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