**SOPHIA'S POV**
~~1 week later
"Of course I wanna have a family and settle down someday," Four says.
"Someday?" I question.
"Well yeah. I mean I don't know if I'm ready right now," he replies. "What about you?"
I take a second to think about it. I see myself waking up to a couple of beautiful children and then I walk into the kitchen smelling eggs and bacon. I see a muscular man and when he turns around I see steel gray eyes and a smile. His neck and forearm tattoos stand out from the lack of clothing on his body. His hair glistens from what seems to be a fairly recent shower. That's when I realize it's Eric.
"Yeah. I'd like a family," I nod my head, being very vague on purpose.
"Like, someday? Or maybe pretty soon?" I swing my head to look at him in shock.
Is he thinking about starting a family with me???
It's a fairly reasonable question. I mean what's the point of a relationship if you don't think about the future. I'm sure he wants something much more.
"Well," I giggle a little thrown off, "I definitely want to be married first before anything happens but I don't know. I mean, I'll know when I know, ya know?" I laugh at how confusing that sounded.
Four chuckles and nods in understanding, "I actually think I do, Sophia." His face goes a little more serious. "I know you and Eric were engaged. What did you think about that?"
I'm a little speechless at this. Do I respond truthfully? Or do I respond to make him feel better?
"Well I think it was more of an in the moment kind of thing and I was just excited that I thought my first relationship worked out. It's silly," I lie out. I can't help it. I know I don't want to lie to Four but if I tell myself it was real and I didn't want to end it, I'll end up right back at Eric.
He nods his head. It's one of those moments where both people realize it's a lie but no one says anything about it.
"Do you still love him?" He questions.
I look down at my hands and shake my head, "I don't know," is all I can manage to say.
From the corner of my eye I can see him nod his head again and an awkward silence sits in the air.
"I know you two don't like each other and all, but today, he asked me if we could still be friends..." I trail off.
His eyes hold a little bit of anger, "What did you say?" He spits out.
"I told him you don't really like him so it'd probably be really hard."
He nods his head, "Sounds about right." My eyes fall in sadness. There is nothing more I want than to be back with him or even just around him but that just confirmed a no.
I think he notices my sadness and pulls me into a hug and kisses the side of my head. "I'm sorry Sophia, I don't want to dictate who you hang out with. That's up to you to decide. It's just, I don't trust him. All the times he made you cry, hurt you, cheated you. He never was good for you and I don't want to see you get hurt anymore."
I furrow my eyebrows in anger at his comment. "You are missing all the times he loved me and cared for me and protected me. All the times he made me feel wanted. Eric helped me through my beginning here at Dauntless and all you can see is the bad in him just like everybody else!" I screamed in rage. By the time I finished I had shoved his arms off of me and I was standing up.
He instantly stood up next to me. "Because all I knew were the times you had come to me crying and telling me what a jerk he is! You don't think I notice that every damn time you come across him that at some point, you have tears in your eyes?! I see it Sophia! I do! And it pisses me off because you deserve so much better! So much better," he calmed down towards the end and I didn't know what to say. It seems that every time I get in an argument with someone I lose.
"What do you want me to do then?!" I shout back not knowing what else to say.
"Marry me," he blurts out.
"What?" I'm taken aback.
"Yeah," he says like he's confirming it in his head. He gets down on one knee, "Sophia Crooner, marry me." He smiles.
This isn't how it's suppose to go. It's suppose to be sweet and romantic.
"Four, I, I," I stutter.
"Please. We are young and we can start that life that we want, that family. I want to give you what you deserve. Please, just marry me."
"Four, we are young and I don't want to make another mistake," or maybe I just don't feel the same.
"Sophia, life here in Dauntless is about living life. You need to put yourself out there and trust your gut and do the crazy things that scare you. We don't have to get married right away. We can wait a little bit but I'm committed to this if you are," he gestures between us.
He looks like a little kid in a candy shop so excited that I wouldn't be able to turn him down. So I nod my head, "Of course, Four. I will marry you," I force a smile. Maybe if I get my mind set on a life with Four, I can get Eric off of my mind.
"I love you, Sophia," he kisses me.
"I love you, too."
I can only imagine what Eric will think of me getting engaged to Four, only after 2 and a half weeks.
~~
"Which one do you like?" Four asks me excitedly.
I try to focus on anything but Eric, even though this process felt better with him than it does with Four.
"That one is gorgeous," I gawk at a beautiful silver ring that had a simple but elegant pattern on the band and a beautiful ruby red diamond on top. The worker pulls the ring out of the case and hands it to Four who takes my left hand and slowly pushes it onto my ring finger. "It's a perfect fit," I smile at him.
He bends down onto one knee again, and repeats the words he did two nights ago. "Will you marry me, Sophia?"
"Yes, of course, yes, yes, I will!" With each word I got more confident more so to convince myself than Four.
He turned toward the worker to confirm we were going to get this ring. When he turned back to me, he pulled me into a hug and kissed my temple. I rested my head on his shoulder to help myself relax. I took this time to just melt into his grip and feel safe for the first time in a while.
"I love you," he whispered into my hair.
"I love you too."
~~
"You want to go out tonight? I have a few things in mind." Four suggests.
"I don't know. I was thinking about talking to Anna and Jake about ya know..." I trailed off.
"I'm sure it'll be just fine," he reassures me and kisses my hair, his arm that hangs around me rubs my shoulder comfortingly.
"I'm hope so."
"Well if you go now, I bet you can catch one of them at work. And then maybe we can still go out."
"Yeah, I guess."
"Ya nervous?" He asks.
All I can do is nod my head.
"You shouldn't be. A real friend stays by you no matter what. So if she really wants to make things better, she'll respond positively and do something about it. If not, so what? Find some new friends."
"Easy for you to say, 'Mr. Brick Wall'," I say sarcastically.
"What's that suppose to mean?" He chuckles.
"It means you don't care what anybody thinks about you. I don't know how you do it but I envy you for it," I smile at him.
"You wanna know my secret?" I nod and he motions for me to come closer with the slightest movement of his finger. I tilt my head to the side and come closer to hear. He leans forward a little bit and whispers, "I have someone I focus on more than I do anyone else." His hot breathe tickles my neck and all I want is for him to say one thing.
"And who is that?" I whisper back. I turned my body just enough to look at his face for his answer. His eyes flicker to my lips as I bite it, waiting for him to answer so I can smash my lips to his.
"Well my doctor has helped shape me to become the man I am today," he gives me a stupid smirk and I shove his chest.
"Wooooww. You totally ruined that," I say getting up. I turn back around and decide to tease him. I bite my lower lip again and say, "And to think I was going to give you a sweet treat." With that I turn around smirking and walking towards his kitchen, swaying my hips.
I know what's to come, so I brace myself for his big body to impact my little one with his love. I decide just to sit on the counter next to the fridge and wait for him.
Sure enough he comes walking through the door, smirking at me. I smile innocently and wait for him to wrap his arms around mine... but they never do. He just continues to the fridge and proceeds to open a beer. He tosses the top in the trash and walks right back out. I sit there confused, my eyebrows furrowed together.
What just happened?
I jump down from the counter and walk through the swinging door, back into the living room and sit next to Four, but he won't meet my gaze. He just stares at the newspaper on his lap.
It's when I see the corners of his lips twitch that I realize he's playing with me. He's trying not to break so to help he bites his lip which turns me on a little bit.
I push the newspaper out of his hands but he still doesn't look at me. I climb onto his lap and straddle him. "Come ooonn, Four," I whine. I try to grab his face and force him to look at me but every time I move my head to look at his eyes, he turns his head the other way. "Humph," I cross my arms in front of my chest.
I smile as an idea comes to mind. I put my left hand on his cheek and my right on his chest. I put my lips to his jaw and kiss it tenderly. I can hear him take a deep breath.
"I know you're playing with me, but feel free to join in at any point," I mumble against his skin. I hear him put down his beer and within seconds his hands go down to my waist. He rubs up and down my waist as I continue to smother him in kisses.
He moves his hands up my body and to my face and pulls me up to him and kisses my lips ever so gently.
Mmmm. He tastes familiar...like alcohol... so I try to focus on something else.
Once our lips start to move in sync his hands go right back to my hips where his rough hands hold me firmly.
Between the pressure in my hips and the deep kiss I moan which only makes him give a low moan.
He swipes his tongue along my lower lip and I gladly give him entry. With the kiss getting deeper I can feel myself somehow relax and enjoy it.
Four's growl brings me out of my thoughts and I start to feel him gently biting at my lower lip. I moan, louder this time.
Four's lips break contact with mine, but continue to kiss down my jaw and to my neck where he finds my sweet spot. I grip his hair in my hands to pull him closer but it seems like he's never close enough. These small actions had my mouth flooding with moans of ecstasy. I try to rock my hips against him but his grip keeps me stuck in place.
I can feel Four smile against my skin, knowing he's doing good.
I moves my hands down and under his shirt to feel his toned torso. It only makes me want him more but I know it's not the right time. That thought is pushed away though because my judgement is being clouded with a smoking hot man who is kissing me like crazy.
He finally moves his hands from my waist and up my back, so now I can rock my hips into him. It takes .01 seconds to make him groan. I feel his heat start to press into my thigh.
Four makes his way back up my neck and hovers over my lips. "That, my friend," His lips brush mine with every soft, slow word he speaks, "was a sweet, treat."
Once he finished we both cracked a small smile at each other but it wasn't long until my lips were right back on his.
It is moments like this where I think I'll be just fine without Eric.
Hello, it's me. ;) I know it was short but it was kind of just a filler chapter so that there isn't drama after drama after drama. Plus I wanted to give you guys a new chapter before I go back to school. BTW Happy New Year!! I hope for a great year for you all! Please vote, comment, and share! Thanks!!