"Why are you doing this Lauren,what am I going to do without you"
"Its the right thing to do Stevie,its time for me to move on and create a new life"
"You can create a new life here"
"But I cant"
"You sure as hell can Lauren please dont do this"
"I already did Stevie in sorry,"
"But Laur"the dark haired girl said tears in her eyes
"Dont cry babe you are welcome to visit every single day if you like"
"This isnt fair"
"Life isnt fair"
"Stop it you arent making things worse"
"Stop being a cry baby i swear ill call you everyday"
"I dont want to call i want to see you everyday"
"Come with me"the green eyes looking seriously with hope into the brown ones
"What?"
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Camilas POV
Ryan and I were on our way back from the Honeymoon.I was loved being with Ryan but I couldnt help not think about the green eyes that were a dark grey that night.
"Camila you okay?"
"Yeah just thinking about stuff"
"Is there something wrong?"
"No,..."
"Okay remember im your husband I can tell when you are worried about something"
"Have you talked to Lauren" i questioned not being able to hold my worry in
"Uhm not really why"
"She got really drunk at the wedding,I was just wondering how she was doing after all that mess"
"Its been 3 days im pretty sure shes fine by now"
"Yeah Hopefully,im just excited to see everybody"
"Yeah,me too i needed this time with you"
"Ofcourse it was super fun,im happy you had time to relax"
"Me too"he said as he kissed my cheek
"Remind me to text Lauren as soon as we get off I want to make sure she got to New York safely"
"New York?"
"Yeah shes probably almost there as well"
"What is she doing in New York"
"Remember how we got a place to expand the office in New York"
"Yeah"
"Well i wanted someone with experience that I could trust, to run things over there and who better than my sister"
"So shes only going to be there for days right?"i said as my heart began to raise
"Well,hopefully more than that if things go well she will probably be there for at least one year"
"Nobody else could do it?"the tone of my voice showing how i really felt
"She really wanted to do it,She said she needed it and I wanted her to stay but she said she was going either way"
"But.."
"Calm down baby im sure she'll come during holidays"
"Why didnt she tell anybody?"
"I knew,mom knew"
"Shes my.."
"I know she's like your best friend but she asked me not to tell you she really didnt want to burden you with this"
"So you hid it from me"
"Why are you so upset"
Maybe because just maybe im still in love with her,maybe because i know she left because of me,maybe because she will move on and i never will
"Its just Im really going to miss her"
"You can call her as soon as we get off"
"I dont know,"
"Im sure she'll be happy to talk to you"
"I dont think i can do it"
"Why?" i really was overreacting
"Its just i dont think ill be able to talk in too upset"
"Dont be upset baby im here" But i want her here..
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The dark skies bringing melancholy to my soul.I looked to my side and saw the other girls face,calm but her eyes showed fear.
"Are you okay"
"Yea,just never been to New York"
"Its alot i know lets get a cab?"
"Yeah, uhm yeah"she said obviously having alot to think about
"If you dont feel right you can go back ill pay your flight really Stevie its okay"
"No,I want to be here with you"she said as I didnt take it as anything else other than a strong friendship
"Thanks for coming,it really means alot" I said as we placed our bags into the trunk of the cab
"Anything for you"
I gave the cab driver the adress to the apartment that we would live in for the next year or so.I knew that moving far away would be the only way to heal my broken heart.Only distance could keep me away from her.
"Here we are"the older man said as he parked in front of the tall building
Stevie and I got out and took our bags from the cab i paid the cab driver as Stevie waited to step into the building.
I searched for the keys in my hand bag already having recieved the keys a week ago.
We took the elevator to the third floor and we walked until rwaching our apartment.I opened the door into the already furnished apartment.
"This is it"I said as i lay the keys on the counter.
"Its big"
"Yeah soecially for New York"
"Its beautiful"
"Cammie helped me pick most of the things out"
"Camila?"
"Noo,Cammie I have a meeting with her in about 20 minutes shes from the company"
"Youve met her already?"
"No but ive had many calls with her shes going to be my assistant while i get settled in"
"While we get settled in"
"Yeah sorry im just a bit drained"
"Mhm you should rest i could give u a massage if you like"
"Hard offer to reject but its business and it must be done plus im excited to finally see her face to face"
"Really Jauregui"
"What"
"You are going to have to lrave New York to run away from her too?Where are we off to next?"
"No i dont plan in falling in love for a while"
"Lauren one doesnt simply plan to fall in love you just do"
"I know but i really dont want to be with anybody"
"You are stuck with me though"
"Sadly"
"You punk"she said playfully slapping my hand
"Well settle yourself in choose whatever room you like"
"You leaving me already?"she said pouting
"Yes im sorry baby"i said closing the space between us as i kissed her forhead
"Dont be back too late"
"I wont ill text you once im there"
"Okay be safe"
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I walked into the Cafe and sat waiting for the other woman.I texted Stevie that i had arrived and noticed I had a missed Call from Ryan.Just as i was going to call him back i was interrupted.
"Hi Im Cammie,nice to finally meet you Lauren"she said placing a hand inbetween us her smile sparkling to the whole Cafe
I was starstruck.Her eyes mesmorized me.Blue with sparks of green.Green with sparks of blue.I didnt know how to explain the beauty they pertained.
"Uh Hi nice to meet you"i said as she awkwardly stared at me noticing i had been staring
"Sorry i just-"
"Its fine its a long ride from California"
"Sure is"
"How did you like the apartment?"
"I didnt get to see around much but you do have great taste and I trust you"
"Thats good to hear im going to need that trust right?"
"I dont see why you shouldnt have it"
"Youre too kind Lauren" she said her piercing eyes making mine seem like little kitten eyes
"I wasnt told my assistant was a model you know"
"Well,i dont think i wouldve gotten the job if i wasnt one"she stated smiling playfully
"I think you wouldve,you are more than capable of being an assistant"
"How would you know?"she said staring me down
"I,I uh read your resume and recent work ofcourse"
"Ofcourse" she said smiling looking down at the menu
"Are you two ladies ready to order"the young man asked interrupting our "talk"
"Uhm yeah,"I said shaking myself out of my "flirt" zone but I didnt know what this was, my flirtation just came through me not being able to control myself.I ordered a plain coffee with minimum sugar possible and she ordered an orange juice
"I can tell you are struggling to stay up"the blonde haired girl said
"Coffee keeps me from sleeping"
"I dont thinknits from the coffee"
"What do you mean?" i questioned more anxious thani should be
"You seem sad,those green eyes seem like they can sparkle more than they do at the moment"
"I,uh"i said shocked by her words which probably were more than true,it was scary how easily she could read me
"Sorry,thats none of my business its probably just the traveling"
"No,its fine i really have been thinking too much at night"
"Its fine you dont have to explain"
"Your coffee"the young man said interrupting our conversation "And for you beautiful your orange juice"he said winking at Cammie
I looked at thw other girl raising my eyebrows not impressed with the waitor
"What?"she said chuckling as she sipped her juice
"Someone has a crush on you"
"I come here often he is just a really nice guy"
"Thats cool i guess"i said as i drank almost half the coffe in sip
"Its not alcohol you dont have to down it like that"
"Yeah,its just ive been-"I stopped myself i couldnt tell her i had been getting piss drunk every night before and after the wedding
"Its been a tough day"
"I understand we should probably get going we have to be in the office early tomorrow"
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I decided to walk back to the apartment wanting to get some fresh air in.As i crossed the busy street i felt my phone ring.Ryan.
I hesitated to answer but i knew he would be worried if i didnt answer.
"Hello"
"Laur how was the trip"
"Harsh"
"I can tell you sound exhausted"
"I really am"
"Why didnt you reply to my texts Camila and I were really worried"
"You shouldve called Stevie she knew where i was at"
"Stevie is with you?"
"Yeah shes in New York with me,had to bring a bit of home with me"
"Thats good hopefully that will help"
"Im sure she will"
"Hey Camila wants to talk to you"
"Uhm"my heart sank and turned into flames hearing about the girl i didnt want to know anything about
"Lauren you there"
"Maybe tomorrow I,Im really tired"
"Itll be a couple of seconds shes really sad you left" She shouldnt have married you then if she would miss me so much
"Ryan I really-"
"Lauren" her voice cracking as she spoke
"Lauren please talk to me"
"I dont have anything to say to you Camila"
"Why didnt you tell me"
"You are noone to me I dont have why to explain anything to you"
"Lauren im-" I couldnt take it and I just hung up on her.I placed the phone in the pocket of my jacket and continued to walk as the fresh tears were blown down my cheeks by the icy air.I felt my phone vibrate a couple more times but I didnt answer.I didnt have the energy for apologies that didnt have a use.For a love that i had lost yet still had hope for even if i didnt want to admit it.