- B I L L I E -
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rae 💜
hii love
hiii
i miss you
i miss you too
what are u doing??
i'm abt to leave lorenzo's house
i'm so fucking scared around him
because of this
rae we don't have to do this you know
no bil i want to
i promise ill try to break up with
him soon
take your time rae it's okay
you don't have to break up with him
if you don't want to
i want to
i want to be with you billie and
i'm scared because i've never
felt this way before
come to my house and lemme help
you okay?
okay
i'll be there in twenty
okay be safe love
i will
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In real life
I honestly feel really bad for Aurelia.
I know this is a lot for her to find out who she truly is because for her entire life, she never liked girls. It's probably even scarier for her because of what she thinks her parents will think since they raised her to think liking girls was a bad thing.
She deserves so much better than that.
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"Hi, love." I hug Aurelia as soon as she comes inside. "Hi, Bil." Aurelia smiles and hugs me back. "How are you feeling?" I ask her. "Okay, I guess." She shrugs. "You wanna go upstairs?" I ask.
"Sure." She nods. The two of us walk up the stairs and go to my room. Aurelia and I sit down on my bed and she lays her head on my shoulder. "Bil?"
"Yeah, Rae?"
"Does it get better?" Rae asks. "Does what get better?" I furrow my eyebrows in confusion. "Feeling like this." She sighs. "What do you feel like?" I ask.
"I feel almost.. ashamed of myself, I guess? I feel like I shouldn't be like this, like I'm disgusted with myself. I'm sorry, I feel like that sounds rude."
"Aurelia, it's completely valid to feel that way. You're not being rude at all, either. When I realized I liked girls, I felt the same way. Honestly, I was just worried about what everyone else would think when it's none of their business who I wanna be with, you know?" I explain.
"I just always think I'm doing something wrong or someone's judging me. It'll definitely be different being seen with someone who's famous too." She says. "Wait, sorry, not that I mean we have to date or anything or, you know, um, I-"
"I get exactly what you mean." I laugh softly. "I'm a fucking mess." She covers her face with her hands and buries her head in my chest. "You're not, Rae, you're just going through some tough shit right now." I tell her. "Coming out and realizing that you like girls can be really hard to accept and that's perfectly okay."
"It is?" She asks. "Of course it is. It takes time, Rae. You don't have to settle on a sexuality or tell anyone if you're not ready, you can just be you." I smile.
"Thank you, B. You're seriously the best." She says with a small smile. She lays her head down on my chest and I run my fingers through her hair. "Um, Bil, can you help me with something else?" She asks.
"Yeah, what is it?"
"So, uh, I was wondering if you could maybe.. kiss me again? Just because I'm trying to figure out what I actually like." She says nervously. "If you wanted me to kiss you, you could've just asked normally." I laugh. "I- I just.. um, I wanted to... ugh, I don't know, okay?" She sighs, making me laugh harder.
"Shut up." She rolls her eyes and punches my arm lightly. "You're just so nervous and it's adorable." I chuckle. "Sorry." She says, looking sheepish. "You have nothing to be sorry for." I assure her. "Rae, if you want me to kiss you, I will."
She nods her head and I smirk. "Ask for it."
Her cheeks turn pink and I laugh. "Don't make me do this." She groans. "Ask or I'm not gonna kiss you." I shrug. "Fine." She sighs. "Can you kiss me?"
"Mhm." I smirk again and lean in to kiss her. I put my hand on her cheek and press my lips to hers. I feel her heart beating quickly, causing me to try to hold back a laugh.
I bite her bottom lip gently, making her moan quietly. Aurelia puts her hand on my waist and moves her body closer to mine.
I've never wanted anyone so fucking badly before.
Aurelia pulls away breathlessly and we both laugh softly. "Yeah, that definitely confirmed it for me." She chuckles. "That you like girls?" I ask. "Well, I haven't liked any other girls before, but I like you." She shrugs. "I like you too, Rae." I smile. "But can we take this slow? I mean, I'm still with Lorenzo." She sighs. "Rae, I told you, you don't have to break up with him if you don't want to." I say.
"No, Bil, I want to. I want to be with you, I mean.. that's if it's okay with you." She smiles shyly. "It's definitely okay with me." I laugh. "Aurelia, take your time. You don't have to rush everything. I know you're nervous about breaking up with Lorenzo and you honestly have every reason to be." I tell her.
"I'm just scared of what he'll do. Like, he said when you and Gigi were 'dating' that it was gross, but he didn't comment it because he said it was fine as long as it wasn't you and me." She looks down at her lap and fidgets with one of her rings on her hand.
"I'm sorry, baby." I frown. Aurelia looks up at me with a small smile, seeing her cheeks turn pink again. "What? You like when I call you that?" I smirk. "Yeah.." She chuckles nervously.
She mumbles something under her breath and I look up at her. "Say that again." I laugh. "I didn't say anything." She quickly denies. "You did. Say it again for me." I order.
"No, it was something stupid." She laughs and puts her head in her hands. I move her hands away from her face and tilt her chin up so she can look at me. "Aurelia, I told you to say it again."
"Ugh, why are you doing this to me?" She throws her head back and groans. "Get used to it. Now, say what you were saying." I laugh softly.
"Um, I said I'd like you calling me that better if you were moaning it." She bows her head, feeling embarrassed.
"You're not as innocent as you seem, huh?" I smirk. "You just found out you like girls and now you're being freaky with me."
"Leave me alone." She laughs. "I mean, if you really want to hear that, just say the word." I shrug.
"Bil, I'm not ready for that and you know that." She rolls her eyes. "I'm kidding, Rae. We're not doing anything you're not comfortable with." I tell her.
"Thank you. That means a lot to me, you know." She smiles. "I'd never force you into doing something you didn't want to do." I say. "That's not.. normal?" She asks.
"Oh, baby.." I sigh and hug her tightly in my arms. "You deserve so much better than that, okay? I'm gonna help you realize your worth and I'm gonna treat you the way you deserve to be treated. So many of the things that happen in your relationship with Lorenzo aren't normal and the fact you've had to adjust to that and think that they are isn't okay for him to do." I explain.
"I'm sorry." She whispers. "Stop apologizing when you've done nothing, Rae. You have absolutely nothing to be sorry for." I assure her, planting a kiss on her forehead.
"Okay." She nods and smiles softly. "Thank you, Billie. For everything."
"Of course." I smile.
She deserves so much better and I'm gonna treat her the way she deserves to be treated because she's fucking amazing.
It actually baffles me that someone as shitty as Lorenzo could pull someone as amazing Aurelia.
It's crazy.