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Shanya's POV
I knock on the door to Kim's bedroom, but she doesn't answer.
"Kim," I call out to her and open the door.
She's sitting on the sofa crying, I close the door and walk over to her. I wrap my arms around her and let her cry.
"What's wrong hon?" I ask and she pulls away. I get up and grab some tissue from the nightstand and give it to her as I sit back beside her.
"Dane says if I don't marry him then we're over," she says.
"I thought you wanted to marry him," I'm confused.
"Yes but I don't think I'm ready yet," she says which further confuses me.
"I don't understand, you guys love each other, why are you having second thoughts? It can't be the dress because I got you the undergarment that is gentle on your incision but made to hold you in. You will look beautiful, I promise you so tell me what's wrong," I sigh.
"I was engaged once before, he was my high school boyfriend. We had our life planned out and everything was going great, I loved him deeply.
He was my first for everything and we were inseparable from seventh grade. When we graduated he proposed to me right before we went to sixth form. Our parents were ok with it because they all knew each other and we're both from good homes.
We were supposed to get married the summer before university, I was so excited that I spent months planning our wedding. One week before my wedding I found out that he was sleeping with my best friend.
Shan, I almost lost my mind, I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I started going crazy. My parents had to take me to the hospital and I spent weeks there on suicide watch.
I never saw it coming, I was caught off guard. Chrissy was my best friend, my sister, we did everything together from the day we met in primary school and for her to betray me like that, cuts deep. What Romaine did, hurt like hell, but it was her betrayal that pushed me over the edge.
When I came out of the hospital my parents sold our home and bought a house in Kingston, we packed up everything and moved from Mandeville. It took Mummy a while to get a teaching job but Daddy was able to transfer to the Kingston office and he held us down.
I took a year off before starting university and I decided that I wouldn't let anyone get close to me again. I stopped talking to everyone back home because it seems everyone knew what was going on. I focused on school and stayed away from people.
When I was in my second year I was walking on campus minding my business and this Mercedes Benz stopped at my foot. Dane was driving and he asked for my number.
I told him no, even though I found him attractive; I wasn't interested, the only thing left for me to do was join the convent.
That night, I got a text from a number that I didn't know. It was Dane and he knew my name and everything. Even now he won't tell me how he got my information.
He would message me sparingly and after a while, I started looking forward to his messages. He was witty, level headed and sweet. When I agreed to go on a date with him, he was the perfect gentleman. He waited on me too and I knew it must have been hard.
It took me six months to get to a place where I was comfortable opening myself up physically to another man. Our first time together was a mess, I had a fucking panic attack in the middle of it.
He didn't make me feel embarrassed about it, he showered me and put me to bed. I had to redeem myself the second time so that was lit," she chuckles and continues.
"Shan he proposed to me three years into our relationship, I told him I wasn't ready and he said ok. I get anxious thinking about a wedding, I love Dane more than anything else in this world. He's my happily ever after, I need him, he's my rock, he keeps me grounded. What I had with Romaine doesn't compare to what I have with him but the hurt lingers.
Dane has all the guys to stand with him, I don't have any friendships spanning years and it's embarrassing. I want to ask you to stand with me but I don't want to overstep with Leah because I know I'm not her favourite person.
I don't have enough people to match with the guys, I don't have anyone. As you know I wasn't blessed with sisters, I have two brothers and I don't feel right asking people I only associate with at the office to be in my bridal party," she starts crying.
"I don't want to plan a wedding, I just feel that something is going to go wrong. We are happy as is, I don't see why we have to get married," she cries and I hug her.
"Shhh shhh," I try to comfort her.
"Listen to me, you don't have to plan the wedding, Jess and I have everything under control. Kim, I know what past hurt feels like and it does linger but when you have someone like Dane to lean on and show you what selfless love is, trust me committing fully to him makes life so much better.
Friendship isn't about longevity, it's about the quality of the relationship regardless of the time that you've known someone. You are my friend and a very close and great one at that. I love you and you know this, I can't go a day without talking to you.
If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have gone ahead with being with Alex. I kept thinking about how we have different backgrounds and how I didn't fit in. You made me feel welcomed and you made me look at it differently.
Jess is stressing over getting everything right for your wedding just so you can rest. If she didn't love and care for you she wouldn't be doing that.
Yes, you and Leah have had your differences but if both of you should sit and talk you'd see how much you guys have in common, like seriously. Regardless of that, she doesn't hold grudges and she's selfless. She has your wedding menu all sorted and she's working out her schedule to ensure that everything is done on time.
We may not have years under our belt but we are more than friends, we're family and I will stand with you if you let me because you've always been there for me.
Everything will go great, I'll make sure of it but don't lose a good man to fear. He loves you and he wants to marry you so put him out of his misery and marry him," I wipe her tears and she smiles.
"What if we get married and I can't please him. I read so many things about C-sections and I'm scared that I won't be able to satisfy him," she confesses and I smile.
"No worry yuh self bout dat, focus on healing properly. When yuh ready fi dash out just tell mi and mi give yuh some tips, tie him dung fi life," I tell her and she laughs out loud.
"Thanks Shan," she says and I hug her again.
"Anytime, come, no mek Dane mad," I say and help her to stand.
She goes and washes her face before following me to my room. I open it and both Alex and Dane are lying on their backs on the bed with Daniel in between them.
They both sit up but Alex gets up, walks over and whispers in Kim's ear. She laughs and slaps his arm before hugging him.
"I'll marry you but I'll need thirty million upfront," she says and I'm fucking shocked.
"Ok, anything else?" he asks.
"I want a bigger house and another car, preferably a bigger one so that Daniel has more space," she says and he nods.
"Ok, I'll work it out," he agrees.
"Also, I'll need another baby in about two years, if you're not willing to accept this, I will not marry you," she says and I can't believe she's throwing down like that.
"Fine, we can have another baby," he says and Alex starts laughing, Kim joins in and they high five each other.
"Cho rassclaat, Alex yuh love ramp enuh and Kim yuh just as bad," he kisses his teeth and I shake my head and laugh.
"Joke aside, I'll marry you, Baby," she says and Dane gets up and walks over to hug her.
"You were really going to give me that much money?" She asks and Alex laughs.
"Mi woulda give yuh any fucking ting fi mek yuh stop stress mi out," he responds and she grins.
"Actually, yuh no av no ambition Kim, shoulda ask fi hundred," Alex says and laughs.
"Shut up no," Dane says and we all laugh.
"Talking bout money, Shan a gold mek dat deh bomboclaat frock deh?" He asks and I laugh out loud.
"Listen to me, is you rushing so you have to pay. The dress is being altered and rush work costs money. Like yuh figet seh a Sunday wi a lef. Oh and it's two dresses not one, stop gwaan like yuh cyaan afford it," I grin.
"Kim have money too enuh, it look like unu no know dat. Mi see Leah send mi a rass food bill not to mention Jess. Unu come fi bruk mi, unu try gimmie mi card, because mi no understand how living room wedding so expensive " he laughs.
"Mi like spend your money and even though it's a small wedding, I'm giving my girl the wedding of her dreams," I stick my tongue out at him.
"All mi a hear bout is Kim, so wi no need clothes fi wear too?" Alex asks.
"I booked your fitting for this afternoon, it's easy to find clothes for you guys so I'm not stressing," I respond.
"Mek sure it's not white enuh," Alex says and I roll my eyes.
"Alex ano your wedding so yuh no av a say," I smirk at him.
"Shanya no ramp wid mi enuh, mi do my fair share a white wearing pon wi honeymoon mi nah wear no more," he complains and I laugh.
"Yeah man a dat fi reach yuh fi d stunt wah yuh just pull," Dane says and Alex cuts his eyes at him.
"Alex mi nah do yuh dat, it's black," Kim says.
"Yes Kim, that's why mi affi love yuh enuh, yuh no wicked like Nya," he says and we laugh.
"Anyways, Jess and I have some things to go over so I'll see you guys later," I kiss Alex and exit the room to go finish planning the wedding.
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