Tears welled up in your eyes, making your vision extremely blurry as you opened your car's gate and got inside. Things were not going so easy as expected. It was hard. It was really hard knowing that once you take the papers from jimin, it will be the end of everything. It was definitely not supposed to hurt you, but you could feel your heart sinking down to your stomach the more you thought of it.
You ignited the engine and started driving to jimin's house, which is your house, of course. As the nauseas feeling was still taking over you, you opened the car window and let the cold yet fresh wind in. Your hairs flew back and tears trekked down heavily. All this time, you were silently crying, but now, it felt like the cries are begging to come out and you didn't realized when you suddenly started sobbing. Those little sobs turned into wails and eventually, you started crying miserably.
Time was about 7 am; and you had your plan fixed.
Taking the papers from jimin, you'll be heading back straight to your home and will wait for him until he arrives. The moment he will get back, you'll simply tell him about everything and tell him to sign them and end this 'beautiful' relationship. Telling his and your parents, and a happy life ever after, or maybe...not so happy life ever after.
You know, to him, this wouldn't probably hurt his heart like the way it stings yours. He'll be definitely happy to be finally free from this forced relationship. Even though you should be happy too, because this will bring justice to your soul and a tension-free life after, you just don't know why it pains you.
The every thought of him has always done, and always will.
-Jimin's House -7:28 am
Nothing but just the silence around the man sitting on the couch, he was staring at those divorce papers which just needs two signs to break this bond. He was patiently waiting for you to arrive and take them despite of the fact that he wanted to make things better between you and taehyung. He wanted him to be by your side, as his insides were still denying to believe that taehyung did something like that to you. He know what type of person his friend is, and he believes that there must be some reason if he would behave like a maniac.
But then again, it's your life, no one has the rights to stop you if you are fed with your husband.
The bell rang, and he immediately stood up to open the door and once he did that, he felt his heart ache out of guilt for something he never did. Your broken state was hurting him, you are his other half, after all.
"Come inside" he said and went inside.
You stepped inside the house and closed the door before going towards him and seating opposite to him on the couch.
"paper are on the table, you can have a look" with such coldness in his voice, he said and looked away from you to his phone. You needed someone to comfort you and help you, not someone to do a favor for you as if it's just a matter of money for him.
You took the papers in your hand and read through the details with a heavy heart. It just took a matter of seconds for you to break down in tears. You immediately kept the papers aside and started crying, not to show or pity him, but just to relief your heart.
You were so into your weeping that you didn't realized when you were pulled into a sudden hug from beside. You dropped yourself in his arms and started crying. It felt way too much, too much pain that your heart can take in. Your heart's storage was full, and you were just freeing some space.
It's okay y/n.." he softly said as the man itself felt weak watching you breaking like this. It was hard for him too, a part of him wanted to not let your and taehyung's bond breaking like the way it is but he couldn't force you for anything too. "I-I am okay..i-its j-just..." you tried speaking but that particular boiling sensation inside your abdomen never stopped, causing you to yelp in pain.
The sudden change in your behavior and noticing the physical painful expression on your face made him look at you, shocked. "Y/n? Are you-" before his hand could reach your shoulder, you instantly stood up from there and rushed to the bathroom.
His eyes widened and he too stood up, to probably look after you.
"y-y/n?" he peeked inside the bathroom and saw you sitting on the tiles with your hairs covering your face. He immediately came towards you and held you by your shoulders, only to find your cheeks stained with tears and fresh tears never stopping to roll down.
"j-jimin..."
"what happened to you y/n? are you-"
"i-its because of those c-chips...I shouldn't have eaten them..." his eyes softened and he stood up and helped you to stand up on your feet. "Don't give up y/n, we are going inside your room okay?" you weakly nodded and he proceeded to take you inside. He had laid you down on the bed after giving you a glass of water.
The nauseous feeling was never leaving, and how much you hated this, you only ended up feeling the urge to throw up. He stood near the door, with his hands holding his phone near his ears, he was probably talking to the doctor to come and look at you once. You assured him not to call the doctor, but after knowing that this was the second time you vomited, he didn't bothered listening to your shit and immediately called him.
"He'll be coming in 10 minutes, do you want to eat anything?" even the name of food makes you feel nauseated so you're definitely not gonna devour a single bite of food. Shaking your head, you denied his question. He just sighed and moved closer to you, feeling a certain question eating up his mind for so long.
"When are you going to tell mom and dad?"
"I- uhm... I'll tell myself, after all of this is over..."
"Don't you think that you should tell them first? I mean, what will be his parents reaction once they'll come to know you guys are already.. divorced?"
You looked away, not wanting the topic to go further that it will start disturbing your already disturbed mind.
The moment you opened your eyes, you felt your head throbbing inside because of the unbearable pain. "Mrs. kim?" a sudden unfamiliar voice made you look at the person beside you, standing in a white coat with glasses on. After good 5 seconds you came to realize that he is the doctor. You sighed and sit up straight but just ended up wincing in pain because of the severe headache.
"Are you better now?" he asked.
Better my foot!
"Y-yeah..I guess I am.." you awkwardly smiled but he just returned a genuine one. "So, you ate chips yesterday? Like, a lot of chips?" Your gaze fell down, not expecting the question. "y-yes...just n-not a lot..I think" the doctor seemed to have chuckled at your behavior. He shook his head but looked at you with a big smile.
"Don't worry, you are okay now. It was food poisoning.." he smiled wider, and you twitched your eyebrows in confusion. "you are pregnant, Mrs. Kim, congratulations.."
"Than- sorry, I think I misheard you.."
"You are pregnant Mrs. Kim.." his smile got even bigger the more he stated the truth.
He smiled, but yours faded.
For you, everything seemed to have just stopped. Your heart, you couldn't feel it beating it anymore though it was. Your lips parted as you tried saying something but nothing came out. You couldn't listen anything around, it all faded to your ears...
You've misheard him...no way it's the truth...
"I-..." you didn't realized how heavy your voice got in just a fraction of minutes. You gulped down the lump formed in your throat but just couldn't get a grip over your emotions. "Hey, Mrs. Kim?" his voice brought you back to reality and you looked down, feeling your eyes getting teary.
The man was shocked, ofc. When he expected you to have a surprised or a happy reaction, you had that empty yet painful one. As it was of nothing of his business and he felt like its better to not invade someone's privacy, he didn't minded teasing the topic further.
"Uhm, so yeah..you need to take care of yourself as well as the baby and-"
"I'm sorry, I would like to be alone right now..." after a second of thinking something, he nodded and packed his belongings. "And please don't say anything to jimin, I'll tell myself..." he nodded in agreement once again and after thanking you for something you don't know, he exited the room, leaving you alone in the dead silence of the room, along with your lingering thoughts.
How much you'll thank your fate, it will be always less.
Thick streams of tears heavily fell down your eyes to your thighs, soaking the fabric of your dress. Why? Just why when I was going to end everything and start a new life?! Words felt ringing in your mind and because of the extreme emotional pain you felt inside, sobs escaped your lips.
It's nothing new. Your heart has been shattered once again, something which you are used to.
You touched your belly and covered your mouth and tears poured down heavily. You couldn't help it. The pain which your heart felt that particular moment was far bearable. The more you thought of the fetus inside you, the harder you cried.
This time, you felt the pain. Not for you, but for the innocent unborn infant inside you. Do I really have to raise him without his father? You thought but sniffled harder, trying to suppress your cries in case jimin just hears them. You gripped your hair tightly from frustration, feeling your mind going blank because of the rush of adrenaline through your body. After suffering all the heartbreak you had, when you were ready to move on with your life, all this came up.
Should I just abort the child?
Your heart clenched when the disgusting thought passed your brain, it made you feel disgusted, disgusted of your own self. You shook your head but sighed, already feeling your head throbbing inside because of all the things eating your brain up.
Eventually, you caressed your invisible baby bump and smiled. "don't worry my baby. I will be your mumma, and I will be your dad.." you felt tears rolling down again but just let them, as you touched your belly with the most delicate touch ever, it had so much tenderness and love. The love a mother has for her child.
You wiped your tears but stood straight, you couldn't just always sit here anyways. You fixed your broken self up, not emotionally, but physically. Sighing, you went out of the room and saw the two men talking something adverting their gaze to you. "Oh my god y/n! You okay?" jimin said loudly and you closed your ears by your hands, causing him to roll his eyes at you but chuckle afterwards.
Even the slightest noise wad undoubtingly hammering your head.
"Let's go home.." you said in a monotone voice and handed him your car keys, indicating that he has to drive you home. "Ahh..okay, thank you so much..you can go now" he said to the doctor while he smiled at him, they looked like friends but you didn't minded asking anything since it's none of your business.
Jimin sat in the driver seat while you sat on the backseat because you just wanted to. The whole ride was awkward silence, none of you dared to say anything, maybe not exactly 'dared' but just didn't wanted to as both of your internal thoughts has been keeping you in deep thinking the whole way.
He dropped you home, which will not be 'your' home anymore whenever you want to. The mome you had stepped inside, you didn't felt all your strength being drained out that you didn't felt like devouring a glass of water after the heavy crying session you had, not more than half an hour ago.
You stepped inside the guest room, as reaching your own bedroom would take you eternity to climb up the stairs. Removing your sandals, you just laid down on the bed and covered yourself under the blankets, ready to drown yourself into the world of your own fantasies, away from the reality for some time.
- 8:39 pm -
He had rang the doorbell twice, but unexpectedly, you didn't came to open the door. Usually, you both come from office together only, but when sometimes he has more work, you leaves earlier than him. The thing is, he is used to be greeted by that roll of your eye, that sarcastic smile you give him when he says 'oh baby, I missed you so much.. He is unknowingly getting used to you, your annoying behavior and now, this makes him feel something missing.
He entered the house and hanged the spare key on the wall hook along with his car keys.
The house had a certain kind of silence, as if no one lives here. His eyes wandered around the vast living room, and to his surprise, he didn't found you inside the kitchen, cooking while vibing to your favorite boy band's songs. He plopped on the couch and heaved a long sigh of exhaustion. Since you weren't there today, he realized how much unfocused he was, he kept on messing up files. No doubt, in these past days, you had a really great impact on him. He just didn't realized it.
After a short while, he eventually stood up after drinking water and started heading upstairs when his gaze suddenly fell on the slightly opened door of the guest room. His eyes furrowed thinking that you are there? You barely go in other rooms and that kinda surprised him but whatever, he simply got himself towards the guest room.
Opening the door very slowly to not make that creepy creaking noise, he peeked inside the room only to be greeted by the dim lights igniting the room.
Oh, there you are..wrapped around the blankets like some sort of baby. He sighed but stepped inside with an unknown smile crept on his thin lips as he reached near you.
He unconsciously sat down on the floor but kept his head on the bed near your face, staring at you peacefully as only silence lingered between the two of you. He noticed your face looking so dull and pale, maybe because of your stomach ache. "Y/N..." he softly called, really not wanting to disturb your sleep but since you needed to take medicines, you need to wake up.
At the feeling of his finger poking your cheeks, your eyes fluttered opened and your tilted directly to his direction and you saw his smiling at you, the corners of his lips tugged up very slightly, forming a crescent shape, "you are a deep sleeper I must say" he said but you sat straight holding your head as you felt it aching once again. Once you folded your legs, he sat in front of you but looked at you, shocked.
"Oh my god y/n..look at your eyes, how much you cried?" he held your chin to examine your face. A certain pain he felt once he looked into your red and puffy eyes. "Is your stomach still hurting? I told you not to eat much chips, fatass.."
"Are you pitying me or insulting me?" you annoyingly exclaimed but he just laughed and shrugged it off. "Chill duh...I was just kidding..." you looked at him with poker face of yours, literally not showing any emotions externally but you could internally feel your heart shattering because of the pain you are going to face once you tell him that...
"Come, let's go and get your medicine.." he said calmly as he got up from the bed and stood in front of you with a confused expression. "Do you want to take you in my arms? Because you are too weak to stand up?" he wiggled his eyebrows teasingly but you just sighed. You couldn't take any of his silly jokes right now, you were too immersed in the negativity to laugh.
"Well...alright..I could have taken you seriously in my arms if you don't feel like-ok whatever.." he said as you stood right in front him, looking straight in his eyes. The sparkles in your eyes made him gulp, as he never felt like this way before you ever looked at him like that but this time, he got nervous about something he don't even know about.
"I have been feeling very sick lately, taehyung..." you said, and both of you stepped a step closer to each other, unintentionally.
"I vomited three times today..." you didn't knew why you were telling him all this, shouldn't you just tell him that you are pregnant with his child? You should. But you couldn't find the right words to say it.
"What happened y/n? Are you sure this is just because of chips? Are you really okay?" his voice was soothing and calming than ever, relaxing the nerves inside your body.
His slender fingers tugged a strand of your hair behind your ear, and he stared into those eyes of yours, while you felt like drowning in the depth of his alluring orbs.
"Y/N.."
"Taehyung..."
You both said in unison, then later on smiled at each other. Your hand automatically reached his left cheek and you gently stroked his soft skin with your skin, never breaking the relaxing eye contact. "I have to tell you something...tae..." you almost whispered as your voice seemed to fade in the dead silence of the room.
"Tell me y/n... I am listening.."
"Taehyung, I am pregnant.."
"H-Huh? I am pregnant?" he said, pointing at himself.
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