CHIMERA XU
Matapos ang kasalan ay agad kaming dumeretso sa reception hotel. Nagsalo-salo, nagperform, nagbigay ng messages sa isa't isa, at tinignan kung paano in-entertain ni Sandy ang mga bisita.
"Pst," nakangiti kong sitsit kay Joshua na kasalukuyang nakikipag-usap sa mga tropa niyang nakailang balik na sa mga handa.
Kung itatara ko, nakalimang balik na si Seungcheol sa shanghai section, tirador naman ng fried chicken si Hoshi, si Seungkwan pabebe lang ang kain pero natikman niya na lahat ng mga nasa hapag kasama si Vernon. Binabantayan ko kanina si Jeonghan kasi baka matipuhan niyang maglagay na naman ng kakaibang bagay sa pagkain. Baka maturn off ang mga magulang ni Shua sa'kin kapag nakita nilang may laruang langaw sa niluto naming handa.
"Why? You missed me?" he hung his arms around my shoulders.
"May ibibigay ako sa'yo," hinigpitan ko ang kapit sa bagay na nasa likuran ko, bahagya siyang tumingin sa likuran ko pero agad akong lumayo para hindi niya makita.
"Kaso, baka hindi mo 'to magustuhan. Rush kasi, hindi ako makahanap ng magandang tiyempo para gawin siya. Sorry," nagkamot ako ng ulo sa hiya. Bakit ko pa ba 'to ibibigay, baka mabato niya lang.
"Ano ba kasi 'yan?" he impatiently asked me. I cleared my throat before giving him my present.
"I'm happy being your lawfully wedded wife," I looked away in embarrassment.
I gave him a portrait painting of him. I framed it for it contains a letter inside. Napakamot nalang ako ng ulo habang pinagmamasdan siyang suriin ang painting ko. I used his smiling face as my reference, the source of my cravings and weird likings back when I'm still pregnant with Sandy.
"Ang gwapo naman nito," he complimented, hindi ko alam kung pinupuri niya ang painting ko o ang mukha niya na pininta ko.
"Duh," I flipped my hair.
"I also have a present for you," he grabbed my hand and put something on it.
"It's not as expensive as your paint brushes and acrylic paints. But it's just a bonus for a whole package gift like me," I looked on what he gave me. It's a simple handmade bracelet.
Hindi niya alam, wala siyang kaalam-alam na kay tagal ko na siyang hinihintay na gawa'n din ako ng ganito. Noong huling tanong ko kasi sa kaniya, pinapabayad niya ako, ang pangit kabonding!
"I will keep it, I promise, I love you," I told him.
"As you should," he chuckled.
"I love you Jun," I pressed my lips after I saw his pissed face.
"Galit na galit, joke lang naman hehe. Ikabit mo nga sa'kin 'tong bracelet," I told him. He just heaved a deep sigh and put the bracelet on my hand. Saka ko nalang napansing may kaparehas pala itong nakakabit din sa kamay niya.
"Oh? Matchy pala tayo," I lifted his arm and leveled it to mine. I smiled while looking at the pair or bracelets on our hands.
"If it will break, I will gladly create another one for you," that's too sweet!
"Bakit ka ganiyan? Kapag nabasa mo 'yang painting ko hindi na kita ulit gagawan eh, baka sermonan pa kita at bigla akong mag-audit ng nagastos ko sa harapan mo," napakaunfair niyang magmahal.
"And I am so much willing to hear all of those," napatikom nalang ako ng bibig.
"In love ka nga," tumango-tango nalang ako.
It's too disappointing for me, I can't think of ways to reach his efforts. Napakaimposible lang niyang tapatan sa pagiging ganito. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula, kahit mahal na mahal ko rin naman siya, hindi ko magawang hindi isipin na bakit ako pa ang napili niya?
It feels like he doesn't deserve me at all. But I will never leave him now. I might not be deserving but I will make sure that there's no other girl that's more deserving than me.
Natapos na ang kasayahan at nagsimula nang mag-alisan ang mga bisita. Ang iba ay nagstay sa hotel, hinatid ko na rin si Sandy sa kwarto nila ng tito niya.
"Babalik ako, baby ha?" she nodded at saka tumakbo papalapit kay Minghao.
I took a deep sigh before turning back, but someone grabbed my wrist and pulled me inside the room next to Sandy's.
I gasped when I saw Joshua. He slowly locked the door and stared at my lips. The surrounding suddenly felt hot kahit na naka-on naman ang aircon.
"They said after wedding should be the most romantic event on being married," he told me with his husky sexy voice.
I gulped, "Pauso, sinong nagsabi?" I rolled my eyes. But I felt stiff when he travelled the tip of his finger on my exposed shoulder.
"Don't you want to do it again? With lights switched on?" Napaatras ako nang kaunti matapos niyang ilapit nang sobra ang mukha niya sa akin.
"I want to experience it, but with feelings involved. We did it last time without even knowing ourselves. We're complete strangers back then, but now we're married. Why don't we redo our first night?" He's still looking at my lips, completely ready to devour it anytime.
"J-joshua," I tried to push him away but he kissed me hungrily, I kissed him back.
As he let go, we're both out of air to breathe, "I want to hear your voice screaming my name, Rara. I want to wake up again seeing you with marks that indicate who do you belong to," he spoke with his gentle voice. His lips went low until it reached my neck.
"I promise to be gentle, gentle sexy," I totally felt his warm breath on my neck, I shivered.
He tried to kiss my lips again pero iniwas ko ang mukha ko, "T-teka lang,"
He clicked his tongue in annoyance, "If you're afraid, I'm telling you, I will control myself--"
"Joshua wait nga kasi!" hinawakan ko ang magkabilang balikat niya para ilayo ang mukha niya sa'kin.
"Ayaw mo ba?" naiirita siyang tumigil.
"H-hindi sa ayaw, ano kasi," I bit my lower lip, sasabihin ko ba?
"Ano?" mukha na siyang galit!
"May period ako, kanina ko lang din nalaman no'ng mag-CR ako pagkatapos ng kasal," nahihiya akong umiwas ng tingin sa kaniya.
He hissed, "What? Don't use lame excuses. Kung takot ka, I'll fuck you with distractions--"
"Seryoso nga! Silipin mo pa panty ko tignan mo may napkin. Tangina mo," naiirita kong sambit.
"Patingin nga," he tried to lift my gown, hinampas ko ang braso niya.
"Gago!"
"Puwede naman 'di ba kahit may period?" He asked.
I laughed sarcastically, "Naranasan mo na bang mangulangot habang nagnonosebleed ka?"
He winced in disgust, "That's uncomfortable, and gross,"
"Exactly! Nakakapaghintay ka naman siguro nang apat hanggang limang araw ano?" I tapped his shoulder.
He looked to disappointed, he really want to do it now, ngayon tuloy ay nagiguilty na ako. Bakit ngayon pa kasi?
"Hmp!" he just sulked and looked away with madness.
"Maligo ka na. Dito ko nalang papatulugin si Sandy," sambit ko.
"I was fully aroused with your wedding gown tapos matutulog lang pala tayo ngayong gabi? What a waste," natawa nalang ako nang tarayan niya ako. Cute.
"Sorry talaga," I apologized, kahit wala naman akong kasalanan at nasa timing lang talaga ang red season ko.
"Remember this. I'll ruin you in bed after that period of yours," he pointed me with his index finger.
I just smiled and pecked a kiss on his lips, "Alam kong pagod ka na ngayong araw na 'to, good job sa'yo, asawa ko," I put a thumbs up before leaving the room.
I held my chest for I felt my heart pumping too fast. Damn, he was serious when he told me that wanted me as a whole.
I can't hide my smile, nang makarating ako sa kwarto ni Sandy ay nagtaka si Minghao kung bakit ang lapad ng ngiti ko. Naligo muna ako't nagpalit bago bumalik sa room namin ni Joshua bitbit ang tulog na anak namin.
He's now laying at the bed, facing the wall. Nakaligo na rin siya at mukhang sinusubukan niya nang makatulog. I gently put Sandy at the bed beside his father. He's still facing his back on us.
Umupo ako sa kama't sinandal ang likuran sa headrest. I brushed his hair, "Don't touch me," tinabig niya ang kamay ko.
"E di 'wag," natatawa kong sambit at pinagmasdan nalang si Sandy habang natutulog.
"I love you," I told him.
I waited for seconds for him to respond, but I guess he's too disappointed because of my period being a hindrance to his agenda for this night.
I just sighed at saka humiga na rin katabi si Sandy. I hugged her, naramdaman kong gumalaw si Joshua. Nang idilat ko ang mga mata ko'y nakaharap na siya sa amin ni Sandy.
"I love you too," I simply smiled at his response.
I never expect him to love me. And never in my life that I expect myself to love him back.
He's just too pure and gentle. Kahit minsan ay hindi kami nagiging normal na magkapartner, hindi pa rin nawawala sa kaniya ang pagiging sweet niya.
He's always giving me a reason for me to depend on him.
I will forever depend my life on him, as what he wanted me to do. I will make sure that I will be the best wife for him, because he'd been the one and only best husband for me.
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[naglive siya gago😭💖 mamimiss kong mag-ud dito kapag magpopost lang si juswa ng selca HAHAHAH]