Vennela's Point Of View
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I don't know what I'm supposed to do right now. Vibha needs me. On the other side I felt being accused for tearing apart a family. How much I tried to make Dr. Jay understand that what he's doing is completely wrong. He didn't hear me out once. He packed all our stuffs and even made me pack Vibha and Anand's clothes and other things, to shift it to our new house.
Seriously?
I can't believe that all these happened in a span of 24 hours? I tried to stop jay. But he looked so stubborn and angry at the point of time. I was scared just to approach him and say that what he's doing is wrong.
One thing I'm sure about is that, the one behind Vibha's miscarriage is not any of our family members. It's definitely an outsider. Dr.Jay believes that his mom did it. Although aunty had agreed it, I'm hundred percent sure that she said it out of anger and she isn't the one.
I questioned Lakshmi akka about this. After a while she started crying and sweared that she had been working here for the past seven years and she can't even think of doing such a thing. She only mentioned that someone from the courier service had come in the morning. Anand had ordered something for Vibha online and he left exactly after fifteen minutes.
I wanted to ring up Anand and talk to him about this, but Dr. Jay was furious and he wanted to move outside the house the next very second. I gave up. I didn't had any other option other than following him meekly.
He stuffed the car with our luggages. He didn't care to hear her out anyone of us for once. His parents also dispersed into their rooms. Divya Akka was sitting in the couch. She looked calm and she didn't speak anymore. I asked her to stop Dr. Jay. But she shook her head.
"Vennu, let him stay away from here for some days. It will calm him down for a while. Anand and vibha too needs a change. If they stay back here means, it won't be so easy for vibha to come back to life. Mom and dad is also angry on jay for bursting out so much. You need to be there with him right now Vennu. He needs a change. Just take him away from here"she said. I stood there like a statue.
I heard Dr. Jay's voice behind. I turned to face him. He walked towards us.
"I know you're angry with me"he said to Divya Akka. She smiled and slapped him playfully in his cheek.
"I believe that you always do the right thing jay. I'm not stopping you"she said to him
"I know I spoke too harshly with them akka. But I'm done faking it. I held it back for so many freaking years but not anymore"he said looking away from us
"Jay, I'm not blaming you. But at the end of the day, they are your parents. Just keep that in mind"she said. He looked at me and I lowered my eyes to the ground
"Let's go vennela?"he held my wrist. I looked at Divya Akka, who just nodded looking at me. We walked outside the house.
I don't know why suddenly I felt my chest heaving. I know I wasn't treated well by Dr. Jay's parents here. But I loved being here in this house. I know more than anyone, Dr. Jay is going to miss his house. But I'm not stopping him. I wonder if he ever try to learn more about his mom. She is not bad.
She's a mother too
He drove the car silently. I wanted to ask him where he's planning to go. But I kept mum. I felt his gaze on me quite few times. I didn't dare to make an eye contact with him
He stopped the car after half an hour. We'd come to an isolated place near a vast green meadow. The evening sky had been shaded with dark orange and faint red.
I turned to look at Dr. Jay. He was just staring at a distance with his eyes fixed across the end and his hand clutching the steering. A strange silence covered both of us. I decided to speak first
"Why are we here?"I asked slowly. He looked at me.
"I-Im sorry vennela. I think I lost it. I know I've already made you go through so much and-now I've dragged you outside our house despite your protests. I didn't knew what I could have done at the right moment. I-I felt so helpless for Anand and Vibha"he said. My face softened seeing his eyes welling up slightly
"I'm just so broken to handle myself Vennela"he said leaning himself towards the seat and closed his eyes. I held his hand and squeezed it. He slowly opened his eyes and our eyes locked
I felt him entwining his fingers with mine. My palms went cold with his touch. We looked at each other without saying anything.
"Dr. Jay.....can we just walk along for sometime?"I asked.
We got down from the car and quietly walked besides each other in a comfortable silence this time. Dry leaves crippled under our feets. The sun was going down. Dr. Jay stopped. He then sat down hanging his legs to the other end. He brushed off few dry leaves from the place with his hands and looked at me, asking me to sit. My lips curved into a smile. I sat besides him in a distance. We watched the sun together
"This place is so good. It looks so peaceful and enchanting"I said eyeing the meadows
"Yeah whenever work stressed me out, I used to come here. Coming here someway calms my mind as well. Actually Shraddha and I used to-"his voice dropped. I turned to look at him.
Did he mention someone's name?
"Sorry? Who?"I asked. He shook his head. Suddenly his face turned rigid. I sat there, cluelessly.
"Do you regret marrying me vennela?"he asked suddenly making me freeze. He looked at me and watched my expression. I felt my heart pounding
"Why are you asking this now? We already chose not to drag this topic again. It's all decided Dr. Jay"I diverted my eyes
"First of all, can you stop calling me like that?"he asked
"Why? I thought you wanted me to call you that"I said
"Yeah but not anymore. Call my name, that's better"he said. I nodded silently.
"So-you didn't answer my question"he said. I wished he never asked that.
"Jay"
"Hm sounds good"
I smiled looking at him. He looked at me as well. His mouth curled into a smile. The sun had reflected it's shades in his cheek.
"You're a wonderful human being who values your family. As far as I know about you, you always gave priority to your family members. You chased the dreams what your parents had for you. You studied and topped for them. You always gave value to your father's dreams. You worked hard for them. Even you got married to me on their insistence Jay-"I stopped and drew a breath. I diverted my eyes from him.
"From the time we met, the first thing I noticed in you is your limitless love for Anand. You cared for him so much. After we got married, you gave the equal importance to Vibha. You treated her like how you did to Divya akka. You had problems with me because you and I- we both were not happy with the sudden marriage. You're a perfect man that any girl would dream of Jay"I stopped as I felt tears brimming in my eyes. I didn't dare to look at him.
"I don't regret marrying you. I wanted to give us a chance. But the moment you said that our marriage can never work, everything ended there. I don't think we need to dig it and take it out. Vibha and Anand had even lost their baby, for the sake of which we both agreed to get married. I think we can end our marriage soon"my voice stucked in my throat. I felt chocking. There was complete silence from his side.
"I'm sorry vennela. I wish I could have treated you like the way you deserved. But I always ended up hurting you"his voice dropped. I turned to look at him. He had tears in his eyes. I regret for making him feel like that.
"We can't undo the past Jay. I think we should leave now"I wiped my tears and quickly got up. He held my wrist and stopped me. I looked at him. He got up as well and stood in front of me. He looked into my eyes making me feel something weird, budding inside my stomach
"Can I hug you?"he asked. I felt deaf for a moment. He waited for me to answer while I felt my limbs numbing with shock.
"Please vennela"he said. I blinked my eyes in surprise.
He stepped closer to me, so closer to me. His breath touched my face. He then wrapped his hand around my waist and swiftly pulled me closer to him. I felt the warmth of his body. I rested my head in his broad shoulder while he did the same. His hand tugged my back. I closed my eyes feeling my body shivering. I didn't hug him back but I leaned closer to him. My tears must have wet his shoulder. I felt elated. I felt wanted.
It's not the first time we hugged. But last few times, we did it absent mindedly. But this time it felt bliss. Pure bliss.
"Vennela, I don't think nobody had ever learned me this deep. You were there besides me watching each step of mine, admiring me, respecting me. Despite treating you so harshly you forgave me. You dreamt of making our marriage work. Me on the other side kept slipping away from you. I wanted to get rid of you. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry"he hugged me more tighter that even air won't pass in between us. I couldn't believe my ears. I stood like statue in his embrace
"I want to give us a chance. Let's not take any decision in a hurry. I had a very bad past vennela. I need some time but I promise that I'll treat like you deserve from now on. Please give me one chance"he said and broke the hug. I looked into his eyes. Night had fallen yet I could see his eyes sparkling with tears like a diamond. I cupped his cheeks
"Jay, I didn't say that to make you regret"I said
"But I frankly regret for everything I've did to you. Just tell me once that you've forgiven me complete. Let's start it afresh vennela. Please"he said holding my hand which rested in his cheeks. I smiled at him.
"I forgive you Jay"I said. He smiled and hugged me tightly again.
I gasped when he slightly lifted me off the ground. I wrapped my hands around his neck and hugged him back. I don't know how long we stood like that. I felt butterflies bursting inside my tummy.
We broke the hug when his phone rang, making us come back to our senses. We parted away. I tried pacifying my shivering heart and body while he picked the call.
"Hello Anand?"he took the call. I looked at him. His featured starting getting tensed. My heart pounded again as I was reminded about Vibha.
"You don't worry. We're coming there in few minutes. Nothing will happen to her da. Trust me. Stop worrying. Yeah! We'll reach there soon. Bye"he dropped the call. I looked at him, tensed as ever
"Is everything alright?"I asked.
"We need to get back to the hospital. Vibha's health had worsened"he said.
Anand's Point Of View
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I was sitting besides Vibha, watching her silently. She was still in sleep. I held her hand and kissed it. I wonder why god had made us go through so much within such a short time. The baby happened. It was slip from our side. But it was made out of love and not need. The baby inside her, brought us closer when we decided to break our relationship. I got Vibha only because of the baby. It became a part of us. But now we'd lost it. We'd lost our child.
I leaned in and kissed her stomach so many times. I wished the baby was still inside her.
Everything collapsed in seconds. I wish I never left her alone there. Else all these must have never happened. I regret for not being there by her side when she needed me the most.
My heart is just numbing with pain from the time I've come here. I met Vibha's mother outside her room. She didn't speak anything to me. But I know she must be hating me so much for spoiling her daughter's life. I skipped my food and sat outside the room till noon. By evening Vibha's mom left telling me that she'll be back in one hour. She also told me to take care of Vibha. She didn't sound angry, but broken
The worst part of the day came by evening five. I was informed by Dr. Sana that Vibha can never be a mother again. Hot tears rolled down my eyes. I don't know how I'm going to relay this to her. Heck, she won't even like to see my face. Why we had to go through this? I couldn't help but to shed painful tears
I don't know who had done this to her. I doubted mom. But my heart argued that she can never do it. I don't know what else I'm supposed to do.
Yesterday things went out of my hands. I drank senselessly. But I'm sure that it wasn't me, but them because of which a fight took place outside the bar. I regretted a thousand times for making Anna feel so wretched. He was angry on me for drinking although he didn't show it outside.
Divya akka called me few minutes before saying that Anna and Vadina had left the house after having a big fight with dad and mom. I didn't knew what to say. I feel tired of going through so much.
Just then I was lost in my thoughts I saw Vibha's eyes blinking in the light. My heart started pounding. I wondered if I should stay right here with her or go without disturbing her. But I guess I was already late. Her eyes fell on me.
There was silence for few minutes. Her eyes examined my face. I guess she'd noticed my wounds. There was concern in her eyes. Then it changed to fear and the anger. She jerked my hand away from her and sat on the bed.
"Baby-"she cut me off in between
"What the hell are you doing here Anand? I told you not to show your face in front of me ever again. I don't want to see you. Just go"she shouted, but not loud enough. Her voice was too broken and tears rolled down her eyes. I was hurted again.
"Vibha I didn't come here to make you feel dejected again. But I know you need me the most now. That's why I'm here. Baby please trust me. I didn't do it. I can't even think of hurting you and our baby"I said trying to hold back my tears
"It's enough Anand. I don't want to listen to your craps anymore. I've lost my baby. Nothing can give it back to me. Stop sinking so low in front of me again"she said. I shut my eyes
"Vibha I beg you. Please give me one chance to prove myself. Just one chance. I've not done it. Please trust me"I said
"Not again Anand. I've already done a big mistake by trusting you. I did it because I-I loved you. I loved you so much Anand. Do you know that?"she cried. I lowered my head
"I wish I never met you. Falling in love was the biggest mistake I did. Because of you and me my mother went through so much. I put my sister's life at stake. She was never happy in that house. I will never forgive you Anand. Please go away. I don't want to see you"she said turning her face away
"Vibha please-"
"I said GO!"she shouted and her body shook vigourously. Her eyelids dropped and she collapsed into the bed. I quickly held her in my arms and patted her cheeks
"Vibha open your eyes"I tensing up.
"Doctor....nurse...."I shouted. Soon enough they came running inside the room.
"Anand please wait outside"Dr.sana said
"Doctor is she-is she fine?"I asked breathlessly
"See her body is very weak and she had bled a lot during her abortion. She will need time to come back to life. Please be patient and wait outside. I'll update you about her health"she said. I walked outside the room and sat on the bench, lifelessly
I bit my lips as I recalled her words and suddenly a gasp escaped my mouth. Soon enough I was crying. I cried like a toddler.
"Anand"I heard Anna's voice. I looked up and saw him and Vadina walking towards me with tensed faces. I got up and rushed towards them. I hugged Anna tightly and cried
"What happened da? Why are you crying?"he asked tensed.
"Anand what is it? Is Vibha alright?"vadina asked touching my shoulder
"I hurted her. She don't want to see my face Anna. She hates me. I didn't do it. I didn't"I said. Anna broke the hug and wiped my tears with his fingers
"Look at you! You grown up monkey, crying like a kid. She's alright da. I told you not to force her for anything. We'll talk to her once her health is stable. Till then have patience da"Anna said
"She-hates me Anna"I said wiping my face with my palms.
"She can't hate you Anand. It's just that she's broken. We'll talk to her da. You please stop worrying"Vadina made me sit in the chair. She sat next to me.
"I'll go and check on Vibha"Anna said and walked inside the room
"You skipped your food didn't you? I'll get something for you"Vadina said
"No I'm alright Vadina. Please be here with me"I said. She held my hand.
"Everything will be alright for us someday Anand"
I hope so.
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Precap : I lay there eyeing the stars. I felt vennela shuffling besides me. I guess she's uncomfortable with us, lying this close to each other.
Some jay - vennela scenes coming up in the next chapter 💕 sorry for the delay
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