𝖈𝖔𝖒𝖒𝖊𝖓𝖘𝖆𝖑𝖎𝖘𝖒 | d.f. |

🦋 dominic60 🦋

"trust me mama i've tried to talk him down from this. he's made his mind up."

it's her turn for her eyes to water.

"i wanna go with you?" she whines.

my heart rips into a million pieces as i listen to me break my little sisters heart.

it's not my intention.

i would rather not bring her around dangerous situations.

"hey, soraya's gonna watch you and you think she's the cool one," i try to soothe.

"she is the cool one," apple cries, "but you're my brother. my last brother. don't go!"

i hug her again.

i don't know what to say.

"i'm so sorry apple."

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[ 3:00 AM ]

i spin around in the swivel chair that's in the room i occupy.

i needed something to distract me.

i cant sleep and ray got in my head about the plan a little bit.

i still think it's good. great even. i can't give information if i don't know anything. besides, i just need the location and soraya's got my back.

it's a suicide mission for sure but i could see alex, and that's much more worth it then possibly dying.

i could see him. hear him. touch him.

i miss him a lot.

i'm doing this for apple.

i stop swiveling and see her knocked out on the bed after crying herself to sleep, dizziness setting in.

i want her to see her brother again.

so i can see him again.

wherever he is.

if they touched him i swear i'll-

knock knock

you awake?

i look at the door.

so you've come to have a late night rendezvous.

and i'm leaving.

please, don't. come in.

she opens the door and creeps in slowly.

"i don't think you'll wake her," i tell her. "how are you still up?"

the digital clock on the bedside table reads 3:02 AM.

"i can't have trouble sleeping?"

"you're worried about me," i smile, teasing her.

she rolls her eyes and sits on the floor. i decide to join her.

she sits hugging her knees.

i sit with my legs open on either side of her.

"if i tell you i'm worried about you, can you not make it a big deal?"

"you have my word."

"i can't stop playing the worst case scenario in my head. i've been witness to some fucked up shit. i really wouldn't know what to do without you," she says.