Love The Hurt Away

Crossroads (Let Go Let God)

“Lisa all money ain’t good money.”

“Yea but a struggle is no better.” Lisa retorted. “From someone like me who makes $9.78 an hour honey that sounds a lot better. From what you’ve come from it sounds like God is showing his hand over your life.

“What about Darryl if I took Delaney across the world and he found out it would be hell.”

“De that nigga lost his privilege to have a say so in how you raise her when he threw you out of your own house. Trifiling ass, I mean the nerve of him-…” Lisa stopped mid-sentence seeing the hurt on Dessiah’s face. With every word she was relieving the heartache caused by her husband and Lisa felt best to change the subject.

“Have you even heard from him?”

“Not since the last day we saw him.” She sad looking down at the table ashamed. The last day she had seen her husband was over a year and a half. When he put her and Delaney out in the rain with her belongings on the porch at least what his mistress didn’t want.

“I have to give Mr. Tiles an answer by tomorrow and I have no idea what to do. It felt like he was implying that I could lose my job if I don’t take the position and then boom I’ll be right back in what we just came out of struggling.” Tears rolled down Dessiah’s cheeks.

“Look at me De, don’t let your fear of returning back to what you’ve been delivered from be the reason you hold yourself back from success. This has been your dream and when you’ve been delivered from a situation or circumstance you can’t go back. Don’t let the Devil trick you into believing that because at the end of the day what’s for you is for you. At the end of the day God said in Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.I don’t have the answer as to what you should do but I believe if we pray God can show you which way to go.” Dessiah faintly smiled because Lisa was saying everything she needed to hear at this very moment. Taking each other’s hand they bowed their heads and Lisa began to pray.

“Father God, thank you for another day. Thank you for allowing us another moment to serve you. We ask that you forgive us for things we may have said and done or even thought that was not of you Lord Jesus. We come to you today lifting up my sister in Christ Lord asking you to show her the way in this situation. Father God she’s at a cross road and she doesn’t know which way to turn. Whether to go left or right she is unsure. Now everything she could want is on a platter in front of her but Lord we know that you are Jehovah Jira you are our provider Jesus. Granted all that is being offered may sound good but is it from you and if so then Lord give Dessiah peace about the situation. Make the decision for her because she would be traveling to a new land across the world. A true foreign place and we trust you to not leave her in the wilderness. You said to trust and acknowledge you in all thy way and lean not to our own understanding. Father God in Jesus name show us the way and most of all forgive us for being lost. We trust you to make the crooked path straight and to rebuke the devoe for our sake. So we ask that you have your way in this and we will give you the Glory and continue to pay our tithes, but most of all continue to serve you. Show Dessiah what you want her to do and let it be known that it was nobody but you. Give her peace about the situation and also give her daughter peace and joy about whatever you decide. In Jesus name we pray and give you the ultimate praise and Glory. Amen.

“Amen.” Dessiah said.

“Are they going to send you there by yourself?”

“No, Mr. Tiles will be going with me. Plus there’s an office already there in Japan that is still growing.”

“Well whatever God shows you, De don’t question it just do it. No doubt, no fear, no question, just take that leap and walk in hand with Jesus leading you baby.”

“I will Lis. I will.”

“Well let me get up I have to finish getting ready for work.” Lisa said standing from the table.

“Yea I should probably go get something to eat before I have to pick up Delaney.”

“Okay, tell my baby I miss her. I love you De and no matter what I got your back honey. Your never alone remember you got me and Jesus in your corner. And there may be times I disappoint because I’m human but we serve a God who never disappoints.” She said hugging Dessiah.

“I don’t know what I would do without you Lisa. I Love you so much now let me go before I start crying.”

“Girl yes, bye!” Lisa smiled as Dessiah walked out the door. “Call me and let me know how it goes.”

“I will bye.”Dessiah called out from down the stairs. Getting in her car she headed to the nearest IHOP to eat. It was amazing how much peace she had from that prayer. There is nothing like having a friend who has a heart for you and willing to pray for you when you don’t have the strength to pray for yourself. Lisa had been that way from the time they met.

    Lisa and Dessiah met at the motel 6 she had been staying at when she was homeless. Lisa was the overnight clerk and had noticed Dessiah with Delaney. For over two months Dessiah stayed there exhausting what little savings she had left or at least what her husband hadn’t taken. When she had run out of money the manager put them out of the room. Lisa thought she disappeared. Dessiah and Delaney would spend the day sitting in the nearby Arby’s and at night would sneak around the back entrance to sleep into the lobby bathroom.

   Dessiah had been forced to sit on a toilet in the smallest Handicap bathroom stall with her daughter in her arms and suitcases beside them. Resting her head against the stall wall she cried out to God for saving grace as Delaney laid in sleep with her head rested on Dessiahs chest. One day she didn’t even have money for a $5.00 pizza but saw a flyer about a food drive. She went and her life completely changed after that. A man had helped them and gave them a money clip full of money. Thinking back she didn’t even remember his name just his initials because Delaney still had the clip and carried it with her all the time. It reminded her of what God can do. When they came back to the motel to get a room for the night and their things Lisa happened to be there working someone’s early shift.

  They conversed and she offered them a room in her house. Her husband had died in a motorcycle accident two years prior.  So she had been alone in a three bedroom house. Dessiah stayed in the motel one more night giving Lisa tie to get ready for them. They moved together and Lisa would never accept money from Dessiah it was all from the heart. She wanted every penny used to help her get on her feet. Through that they quickly became more than friends but sisters. Delaney grew attached to Lisa and in a way after all that they had each lost, God gave them the family they each needed in one another. Dessiah smiled through her heavy tears because God consistently showed his presence in her life even in her greatest storms. Some she didn’t understand but he had a way of having his hand on her heart. Hopefully this time would be no different.

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DID YALL FEEL THAT? LISTEN IM GOINGTO WARN YOU, IF YOU THOUGHT UNTIL YOU COME BACK TO ME WAS EMOTIONAL THEN BRACE YOURSELF BECAUSE THIS ONE IS GOING TO GO ALL THE WAY THERE. GOD IS DEALING WITH ME ONS OME THINGS. THIS IS GONNA GO HARD I PROMISE JUST WAIT. NO THROWING PHONES CAUSE IF U BREAK IT NOT MY FAULT. SO NOW YOU HAVE A LITTLE BACK STORY ON DESSIAH, THATS DEEP HUH? YALL NOT READY!!! JUST KNOW THAT WHATEVER YOUVE BEEN DELIVERED FROM YOU CANT GO BACK UNLESS YOU CHOOSE TO. JESUS DELIEVERED YOU BABYAND  YOU ARE NEW IN CHRIST. NOTHING AND IME AN THERE IS NOTHING CAN SEND YOU BACK UNLESS YOU GO BACK. YOU ARE COVERED IN THE BLOOD OF JESUS. THAT PERSON STRUGGLING WITH LONELINESS, FINANCIALLY, SICKNESS,LOSS,HURT, JESUS HAS DELIVERED JUST WALK AND BE LEAD BY JESUS. HES DEALING WITH ME ON SOMETHINGS BECAUSE I GOT DISTRACTED I GOT OFF COURSE BUT GOD IS USING THIS STORY THIS MORNING . GOD IS ABLE. DO U HAVE A FRIEND LIKE LISA? If so SHOUT THEM OUT. VOTE AND COMMENT LOVE YOU. OH DO U WANT MORE?