For the Empire (BWWM/HISTORICAL)

Sins Of The Father Pt.3

I grunted as i was roughly tossed at the foot of none other than Regulus Caesar. My former leader. My former mentor.  But that was before Namori. Before i knew whom I truly was, before i knew who he truly was. A man without  morals, without  compassion. A man with no conscious and not at all the sort of man i would ever want to  follow ever again

They tossed Namori's  deceased body beside me and i had to turn my face and squeeze my eyes shut at that excruciating  sight of it.  5 days had passed since they had killed my love, unborn child and overpowered me, before dragging us both here to be presented to the Caesar like sacrificial  lambs 

"Here they are i will take my pay now"  the stringy hair, fouled breathed male sneered. I assumed he was their leader since he was always the one issuing orders and demands. The others only ever stood aside and moved to action when commanded

Regulus Caesar carelessly tossed a bag full of coin his way. It smacked the male across the face, but still the man only grinned with glee when he surveyed the contents

Bowing dramatically they were soon gone leaving only the two men and the ghost of his love alone.

Nothing was said for a long while

"You disappoint me Titus" he said sighing heavily as though a parent to a child.  he strolled around me slowly; circling like a predator poised to attack

I frowned at him my face full of the disdain i no longer felt a reason to disguise

 "No more than I myself , I can assure you" I retorted spitefully

He spun to face me a sneer twisting his features

"YOU HAVE BETRAYED ME!!! AND FOR A SLAVE GIRL NO LESS!!!"

I cackled with madness i felt on the verge of

"She was no slave woman. You are you sadistic greed for power and dominance made her one. She was far more than that. Far more worthy of nobility  than you you will ever be!!" I spat hatefully

I said staring heartbrokenly  at the corpse of my love still round with my child. Unable to care about anything any longer i simply  wished he ceased speaking and end my torment. Unabashed tears had been flowing across my cheeks since i had discovered her body. I had naught to live for any longer, She was the other thing i ever desired for myself.

Being General was for my parents, to secure them a better life and the status they deserved. For the people of Rome, who needed a champion that genuinely cared about securing them a future full of security and prosperity But none of it was for me. Never for me. The glory of being more than a simple peasant was alluring at first, but the novelty quickly wore off once i recognized the obstructions accompanied with such a status. Until Namori did i feel whole again. Alive again

And now that was all gone. My hopes for a family. A future that i could find true contentment  within, withered away and dissipated like mere dust in the wind. Now all i wanted was to follow it. The anguish within was slowly killing me knowing that i would never hold her again. Never be privileged to taste her sweet kisses, or see my child born. 

It was all too much

I was the strongest general in generations, but even the strongest male would be weak in the face of such a devastating  tragedy

YOU WILL DIE FOR YOU TREACHERY!!!" He roared when i failed to respond as he had hoped. He clearly had hoped for my begging and pleading. He wanted to bask and gloat at my fear filled apologies and renewed pledges of loyalty

But he would get no such thing from me today or ever again. I was done fighting for this empire,  For him. The same male who had orchestrated the death of my love