Crush me, back

Chapter Twenty-nine

Chapter Twenty-nine

Napaupo si Mommy sa couch habang sapo niya ang muka niya. Tila nag-iisip ng gagawin. While Daddy is standing there, still looking at our tv. The house helpers are also around us, looking for an answer why we all look devastated here.

"Dad." my voice broke.

Parang ngayon lang sila natauhan na kanina pa ako nakatayo dito. I sobbed as I ran to him and hug him. I don't want to be a burden, I wanna help in any way I can para hindi nakasuhan si Daddy. But I know with a little thing I know, there's no way out of this.

"Sweetheart go to your room. Mom and I will fix this okay?" he cupped my face.

"No dad. I want to be here." I said firmly.

"Samantha please! Go to your room, you are not part of this." Mom said.

"But I'm a family too! I'm supposed to be here!" I raised.

"Go to your room." her voice echoed in the living room making me tremble.

I ran upstairs and cry. My dad is a good man at hindi niya magagawa ang paratang sakanya. Maybe it's just a misunderstanding. O kaya inako lang ni Daddy 'yung ginawa ng ibang doctor sa hospital. Or he's framed up! I know the wrong doings of our governor, at alam kong kaya niyang gawin 'yun!

I walk back and forth. Hoping to find answers. But nothing came. I am thinking for the possible outcome of this situation. Dad will be sued, at damay pati ang hospital. Mom will represent him, And if she failed, Dad will go to jail then what happens next?

I feel so dumb. Bakit hindi ako nagtanong kung ano ang nangyari, edi sana nakatulong ako. Why did I let this happen? When in the first place I can help and avoid the uncertain.

Masyado akong naging abala sa sarili at hindi ko nagawang kamustahin sila. Sa bawat pag-alis nila, sa pagmamadali, at maski sa sandali naming pagkikita sa hapag. I was to blinded in my own pain that I forgot to care about others. I'm so selfish.

My phone rang, at alam kong galing kila Ria ang tawag na iyon. Malamang ay alam na rin nila ang nangyari. Nahihiya akong humarap sakanila. They might be thinking I'm a useless daughter for letting this happen.

The moment I woke up the next day, I can't move.. like my brain and body is paralyzed. Sobrang bigat ng katawan ko at hindi din ako nakatulog ng maayos kagabi.

Ayaw ko man bumangon at lumiban ng pasok, ay hindi pwede. First day of second sem namin ngayon at kailangang ng attendance. I unwilling took a bath, put myself in our uniform and put on some make up to cover all of my worries and problems.

Bumaba ako para mag-breakfast at gaya ng inaasahan ko, umalis ang mga magulang ko and the food was left untouched.

"Magandang umaga iha. Kumain kana." salubong sakin ni Manang Rose.

Dahil sa nabutan ko, nawalan na akong gana kumain at dumiretso nalang sa eskwelahan. Sobra ang pasasalamat ko dahil puro pakilala lang ang unang araw ng second sem at walang ibang ginawa kung hindi umupo.

Puno ang utak ko ng problema namin. I'm also aware that, my mental health is at risk right now. Ilang beses tinatawag nila Ava ang pangalan ko bago ako tumungon. They asked if I'm okay, I just gave them a weak smile, at hindi na sila nagtatanong pa.

It is a tiring school day. Dumiretso ako ng uwi para makapag-pahinga at makabawi ng tulog. I need to gather myself up and be strong for my family. Sa problema namin ngayon, hindi na nila kailangan ng isa pang pabigat.

I opened our door and I was shocked to see my friends there. Sitting on our sofa, being chaotic like they always do.

"Sam!" agad silang lumapit sakin at yinakap ako.