11:11 (Poem Book#2) [Trigger Warning]

mistake

My lungs compress
"Mistake"
I do a double take.
My heart starts to break into even tinier peices than before, after I just picked them to up off the floor, I cant take it anymore it just hurts too much. My shirt a clutch, tears rolling down my face my heart starts to race as I pace back and fourth in the room. My thoughts still loom, will this be my doom?
Mistake.
I wasn't good enough, even thought life was rough I though I could try, I ask myself why I couldn't be the guy that was planned out to be the one. The perfect daughter, the perfect son. But I was a mistake. "Tricked into having me" why couldn't I see, I stumble blindly in the darkness of "mistake"
No wonder I was never enough for anyone else from the start because in my heart I knew I was never supposed to be apart of this world.
Events unfurled and my fingers are curled around my hair. I'm the only one there. My breath starts to speed up but my mind is not freed up, and I'm about ready to give up but I just have to stop...
Mistake.
When will I be enough...