11:11 (Poem Book#2) [Trigger Warning]

normalcy

Nothing is going to be normal anymore
At least not for me.
I have 3 more years left here, and things are changing.
I would move out right after I graduate.
But sadly I'd only be 17. Another year I'd have to wait.
My house is split,
And forever so.
What I thought was love
I need to let go.
I'm losing friends,
I got my job back.
With mass amounts of energy I lack
Nothing feels the same anymore.
I feel nothing down to my core.
Except for all the feelings I dont want there.
Feelings that tell me that I still care.
I just want things to go back to normal before all of this occurred.
Because after all if this my visions of hope have blurred.