The Heartbeat of Sky

Kabanata 16

Talk

"Millie, let's go.." Seth caught my attention. He's holding a pile of papers in his hands.

"May exam ba?"

"Yes.. kay Doc Hernan. I e-mailed you my notes last night."

Nasapo ko ang ulo ko dahil sa narinig. I forgot to checked it and I bet if I do so, hindi rin naman ako makakapag-aral.

"You failed last time Millie. I don't want to pressure you but you can't do it all the time. I told you I can tutor you. I'll just wait for your call"

Alam ko naman iyon. Med school is different. I appreciate his initiative but I can do it alone. I don't want to rely on someone again. The last time I did it, I broke into pieces. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin nakakabangon. I don't want to experience that kind of pain. Never again.

"Nakinig naman ako last time sa lesson. Let's go.." ngumiti ako.

It's been 2 months when the incident happened. Umalis na rin ako sa condo ko. I stayed with my Mom in our house. Kahit hassle dahil sa layo nito sa school ay kaya naman. I can't leave her alone dahil ilang beses nitong tinangkang wag nang mabuhay.

It hurts to see your Mom suffering because of your father. It's a different kind of pain especially when you also love the person who caused her to do that things. Lagi kang naiipit sa gitna. But I always remind myself that it was Daddy's fault. He needs to face his consequence.

Maging kay Ate Jas ay nakarating ang balita. Naging scandal iyon matapos maleaked ang video ng ginawa ko sa restaurant. She's angry and disappointed to our father. I heard she didn't return his call. She canceled him and cut his connection to him. Sa isang buwan ay uuwi na ito.

"How's Tita Miranda?" Seth asked in a calm voice.

Sa lahat ng mga nangyari ay ang tatlo lamang ang naging kasama ko. I appreciate how they protect me from rumors. Pero sa tuwing namamasyal at nakikita ang iba kakilala ay punong-puno ng pagtatanong ang mga mata ng mga ito.

It affects me. Hindi ko akalain na mararanasan ko ang bangungot na ito. I've always believed that my family is perfect. Maging ang aking buhay ay perpekto. Indeed, we can't have anything in life. Darating ang panahon na susubukin tayo nito.

"She's doing great..."

I remember when I saw her that night. Doon ako umuwi sa amin para puntahan ito. I know she already knew what I did to my Dad. Agad akong bumaba sa sasakyan ni Charlotte at nagpaalam sa mga ito.

Nakaupo ito sa aming front door at lumuluha. When she saw me, she hugged me tight at cry more.

"I was right all along! Dapat ay matagal ko na siyang iniwan. Pero mahal na mahal ko siya anak. Mahal na... mahal ko ang Daddy niyo...." patuloy lamang sa pag-iyak ito.

I cry on her shoulder too. Seeing her like this breaks me. Bakit may mga taong naghahanap pa ng iba gayong may mga taong nagmamahal sa kanila ng wagas?