Who Do You Love?

SIETE

CHAPTER 7

HECTOR FELIPE

I am standing outside the school where Amar is working. Sinadya ko na siya dito , cause she's been on my mind for the past days pero hindi siya nagpapakita sa amin. Kahit kay Mama, ang sabi daw ni Amar ay sobrang busy niya. I don't believe her. Something could've happened kaya siya umiiwas, and that 'something' includes me.

Hindi ako pinanganak kahapon, kaya sigurado ako sa hinala ko. Last week I came to a party and went home really drunk. Ang alam ko nananaginip ako na nandoon si Amar sa kuwarto ko. I know we did the 'thing' , na hindi naman pala panaginip. Kasi put^ng kalasingan, akala ko wet dream iyon, but the blood stains on my bed cover says otherwise. I woke up the next morning with a big headache. Mas sumakit pa ang ulo ko nang makita ko ang ebidensya na hindi sa panaginip may nangyari sa amin. Wel,l wala si Amar nang magising ako, but I'm pretty sure she can tell me what was going on. Kaya kailangan ko siyang makausap.

Why was she in my room? On my bed! Almost naked! Fvck! Nababaliw na ako kakaisip. Sinadya niya ba iyon? Gusto niyang may mangyari?! But why? Girlfriend siya ng kapatid ko for pete's sake! Worse is it was her first time, well that's what I assume. Nakokonsensya ako and at the same time hindi talaga maalis sa isip ko ang mga nangyari sa amin.

Naiinip na ako, by this time dapat ay pauwi na siya. I asked some students a while ago ,at sabi nila ganitong oras ay pauwi na ang mga nasa faculty and office. Come to think of it, nasa 'discipline' pa siya niyan naka-assign! How ironic. Almost forty minutes na ako sa waiting shed na ito pero wala pang lumalabas na Amar. Hindi naman siguro mali ang school na sinabi ni Mama?! I even need to make excuses for her to give me the lady's details. Kapag si Henri naman kasi ang tinanong ko, baka siya magduda.

After the long wait that seemed like almost a decade, I saw Amar walking out of the school's gate. I immediately approached her.  " Amar.. "  She looked at me and her eyes grew bigger. Gulat na gulat siyang makita ako dito. Mas lalo akong naniniwala na may nangyari sa amin at hindi lang iyon guni-guni.  " Come with me. "  I grabbed her wrist and pulled her to my car,I parked just few meters away.

" Ah-m H-hex, wait lang… saan mo ba ako dadalhin?! "  She's trying hard to take her hand away from my grip.

" We need to talk. Sakay! "  I opened the passenger's side door for her. Tumitig lang siya sa akin, hindi sumasakay. What the…  " I said get in the car. "  I am trying so hard to keep my calm. Hindi parin siya gumagalaw.  " Amar.. "  I looked in her eyes and I showed her how dead serious I am.

" O-k-kay. "  That's when she stepped in the car. Tss.. gusto pa natitingnan ng masama.

I got in the car and started driving. All the while tahimik lang kaming dalawa. Hindi niya rin ako tinitingnan kahit kanina pa ako lingon ng lingon sa kaniya. I am looking at her lips. I know, I could remember how it felt against my lips. There's this want to taste those lips again. Mariin akong napapikit nang marealize ang mga naiisip. Dadagdagan ko na naman ba ang kasalanan ko?!

I took Amar to a small bungalow house that I own. It's located outside the Metro. I bought this house before for privacy purposes. Little did I know magagamit ko pala ngayon. No one has ever come to this place, except me and that someone. I parked the car in front of the gate and signaled Amar to come down. Sumunod naman siya kaagad.

" Sit down first Amar. "  I politely said when we got inside. She seems uncomfortable but she managed to sit on the couch.

" Hex, bakit mo ako dinala dito? "  Oh, didn't I tell her we have to talk? Yeah right, pinasakay ko na lang siya basta kanina.