Bio for 2019 - 2023 (finished)

So ....

Hi whoever is reading this if anyone is 

I hope you are all doing well and staying safe and healthy 

I have been struggling not with just staying in but going out when I have to go for shopping , I used to go out two times a month but not any more, my mum or my sister kat will do one lot of my shopping for me so I don't have to go outside. 

But it's not just going outside it's also staying in as well, I get nervous and unsettled needing to fidget a lot but i think it's my new meds the fidgeting anyways. I like grabbing peoples sleeves (people I know) and lightly rub it between my fingers not sure why but it seems to help when I'm home. did it to kat yesterday most of the day, she thought I was being weird but I couldn't help it. 

What else hm... I tried to write but nothing is coming to me so sorry if you read one of my books, I am trying but nothing is coming to me all I wanna do is criss cross's.

I haven't even been wanting to talk to anyone really. I can't even cook, it stresses me out a lot.

Hayden's birthday is next week, I miss him, can't wait to hug him and tickle him,can't wait for Scotland be off lock down even if it's just a little so I can see hayden and hug him and tickle him, he doesn't like it when I tickle him but it makes me laugh and happy so I will do it. I do it when he's on his tablet and say play with auntie lala . 

What else hm... was going throw hayden's books and dvd's and see which ones will stay at mum and dads and which ones we would take with me and kat. Haven't seen the house still so it's annoying me, I want to know what size the window is so I can get a curtain for it, I want it to be silver and I need to know how many light shades I need and other stuff like that but I can cause we can't go see the house but I can get food that will last a while like tins and rice, pasta's that kind of think sugar , salt , pepper , kitchen roll and so on.  

I have been watching crime shows on Netflix  and i got riddick on dvd all of riddick, I hope you all know who riddick is cause I love him, he is amazing haha but no one in my family has seen riddick, can't believe it not cool at all. I got some stuff off amazon as well some stuff for me and some stuff for kat for Christmas, yes I''m getting Christmas stuff cause soon I'll have a house to run so me and kat is getting as many as we can before moving out. Yes I like to think a head and try get stuff together were kat isn't lol we are different that way. 

After this is over I'll hopefully see the house and get moving, it will be hard been living here for 24 years but knowing Kat will be with me helps me, Kat and me will fight but we always have each other's back and help each other out. 

Well hopefully I will get some writing down at some point soon but I can't promise not until my heed is sortied out cause it needs it , I'm glad I have a doctor who knows me well and I don't need to go out and see him and I have a councilor who I can text when I need her but it's so much easier when we can talk in person again, hopefully it will be some time soon. Asha wants to see me go shopping the next time I do which of course keep out distance like we are meant to so hopefully she can come up with ways for me to go out without freaking.

 Well that's all I have to say so I'm going back to doing my criss cross and watching Luther on Netflix so bye if you wanna talk message and I'll try to talk back.

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