Ferocious Affection (COMPLETED)

11TH

Ysa's

"You feel cold?" tanong ko nang makita ko ang suot niya. He picked me up and he was wearing a white turtle neck with a poop-colored jacket, black jeans and white sneakers. Poop-colored things really is his thing, he has a weird taste.

We're on our way to a mall to fulfill his promise. The week of the midterms were already done and here we are, about to enjoy the weekend going out. Buti na lang at hindi nagbago ang isip niya tungkol sa paglibre sa akin ng burger na kinatatakam ko. He can control his mood swings after all.

"I wasn't informed it was spring," tugon niya matapos tingnan ang kabuuan ko. I was wearing a navy blue polka dot spaghetti strap dress and strappy sandals. Mukha ngang pupunta ako sa isang picnic, pero...

"We don't have spring in the Philippines, Brett," pigil-tawang tugon ko. Ayoko siyang tawanan dahil baka pababain ako nito at hindi na matuloy ang paglamon ko ng burger na ang tagal ko ng hinihintay. Instead, I just chuckled.

Natigilan siya ngunit agad na umirap. Wait, that's not offensive, right? Making him feel dumb? Hindi naman gaano, 'di ba? It's not yet offensive for me.

"But we do have spring in USA," ngumisi siya bago tumingin sa daan. He started the ignition and drove the car. Pikon lang, hindi niya matanggap na natalo ko siya sa asaran. Thank goodness he didn't tell me to get out of his car.

"Nakausap mo ba si Nico?" I asked. I don't know what exactly was going on there. Umalis na ako agad because I can't stand there watching them do their thing. It's disgusting, I've had enough view from people.

My heart was also aching for Folke. I knew how he felt, how it hurts to see someone cheating on you. He didn't deserve that, people don't deserve to be treated like that.

Meanwhile, I'm the one who's making people feel like trash. Gosh, I sounded like a holy person.

"Hindi ko siya kinausap tungkol doon," he said while keeping his eyes on the road. "If there's something that's going on between them, I have no right to interfere. I'm already an ex, anyway." at ngumisi siya. Mukha na naman siyang iritable.

"Bitter gourd," I commented.

"I'm just telling the truth."

"That you're bitter?" hindi siya sumagot at umirap lang muli. Para siyang babae kung umirap, minsan iniisip ko kung bakla ba siya. Kung oo, sayang naman ang mga bata.

"Tell me," humarap ako sa kanya. "Naka-move on ka na ba talaga sa kanya?"

I was just curious. You know, Syndy is not worth it. Kung mahal niya pa rin, well, she doesn't deserve it. She also cheated on him, she doesn't deserve a piece of affection from him.

"I told you, I already did." bakas ulit ang pagkairita sa boses niya. Tingin ko pinapaniwala lang niya ang sarili niya na naka-move on na siya kahit hindi pa. He always sound bitter whenever she's the subject. I also always see him very irritated whenever she's with someone else. He can't deny that with his expression.

"It doesn't seem like it is." he rolled his eyes once again.

"Believe what you want to believe. We all have different perspectives. You have yours, I have mine."