billie eilish imagines

thank u

listen its really late at night where i live, i dont even know what the fuck is this, there may be a ton of mistkes just try to figure it out im sorry im tired and bored and i wanna smoke but my mum is at home love u enjoy

y/n pov

ive been waking up everyday in the middle of the nightfor over two weeks now.
i opened my eyes to see that im not alone in my bed, my gf, billie is w me.

we have been dating almost 4 months now but she said i love u a month ago, i havent and i dont know if ill do it yet.

i rolled over my back looking at my phone screen reading 2 in the fucking morning again... i take it and start scrolling through tiktok, then instagram then tiktok again and so on.

an hour had passed and i knew i wasnt gonna go to sleep any tme soon so i decided to get up and go downstairs bcos im hungry.

i took my airpods and played dear society by maddison beer since im fucking obssesed w that song when i feelt arms hugging my waist scaring the living shit outta me.

"the fuck u doing? u almost gave me a heart attack" i exclame looking up at bils eyes frowning.

"morning u too" she said kissing y cheek.

"what r u doing awake bby" i ask.

"u are not very quiet when it comes to cooking mama" she says sitting on the closest chair.

"i cant cook u alredy know" i complain.

"u could have woke me up and i could have prepared smt for u" she teases.

"nah i woke up a lot ago" i explain.

"please tell me u didnt wake up at 3 am again" billie says worried.

"i didnt" i say truthfully "i woke up at 2" i mumble.

"we are going to the doctors" she exclaims standing up.

"no we are not" i say starting to get angry

"U have been a month sleeping less than 4 hours straight in one night y/n, i wasnt asking we are going" she warns walking towards me.

"im not going i said. Ill just ask ashley to sell me some pi-".

"u are not doing drugs i wont allow it" she shouts.

"u dont have to allow shit, its not your choice".

" i dont fucking care, why dont u wanna go to the fucking hospital".

pause, i never told yall that before girlfriends we were room mates and we are living in my grandmas house which is not small so billie thinks im rich, and im not. Its not like i have to work my ass off or help my mum pay the bills but we dont have a lot of money so my mum decided to stop paying for certain things. That sucks because ive never been in a hospital in my life. We could never afford it...

"i cant" i say sadly.

"but why baby?" Bil asks.

"i cant afford it" i confess.

ç"ill pa-" she tries but i cut her off.

"NO!" i snap, "no u are not, this is not a big deal, everything is fine, im fine, we are fine, u dont have to fix anything bcos anything is broken okay?" i yell and she looks at me with a worried look, "i have coffee".

"thats not healthy b i just care for u " she says w again a worried tone.

"ill just look for cheaper options okay" i tell her.

"as long as u dont get real sick i guess its okay" she says still fucking worried.

"billie i know u are used to take care of me but im fine okay? i promise" i reasure her then kiss her lips softly. she just licks her lips and nods.