Duality | Monsta X [√]

8: Swirling emotions

Even if you say I'm doing wrong or bad
This is the way I am

-Chase me,
Dreamcatcher

The next day, I hadn't slept properly as well.

I was in a daze the whole class and when it ended I wandered around the campus for a while, realizing that I didn't have to run back home this time so I could start working on the online translation.

It was still hard to fathom that I had actually gotten my non existent ass on to some criminal lord shit, just the thought had another sigh make it way out of my lungs.

There was nothing to do instead of studying so I headed over to the library. But if I knew I'd get to see two of the gang boys there too I would've rather went home.

But it was too late. When I was looking for a vacant seat I saw Minhyuk waving his hand frantically from afar, motioning me to come up to him.

Hesitantly, I went up to there and saw Shownu sitting beside him, a pile of paper and books before them. The platinum blonde gestured me to sit on the empty chair facing them, so I did with another incoherent sigh.

"Shownu hyung is working on his English," He whispered as if it was some top secret, Shownu sitting beside him wearing his glasses only gave me a small smile and a nod before he concentrated on the book on his hand again.

"And I'm taking care of our business. I have to deal with the financial management too," scrunching up his nose Minhyuk brought a hand closer to his face and told me, not before he had checked if anyone else was listening or not. "So you and I would have to work together from now on, you know."

Please give me a break already.

I only nodded with a blank look on my face.

Minhyuk gave me a close mouthed smile, his eyes observing my features and an amused look on his face. I was starting to get uncomfortable again and then he put a hand up on the table and propped his chin on it, his stare never leaving mine.

"You don't even question us, do you? Don't you have any objections, any answer you're looking for perhaps?" The amusement never left his raspy voice, his eyes glimmering.

I just didn't have any interest in any of these. "I figured that it didn't matter anyway."

Minhyuk didn't show any change of expression but Shownu looked up to me from his book.

It was silent for a second until Minhyuk opened his mouth again, "Actually you do have your own voice. We were gonna listen to it. We were very much ready to hear your protests."

"If you wanted me to beg for my life that's what I wouldn't do, ever in my life," I said and this time I got a reaction from Minhyuk. His eyes slowly went wide, Shownu just kept staring at me.

Soon the platinum blonde burst into a fit of laughter. When the other students from the library looked at our way, he quickly tried to stop himself. His large hands covering his face and him just shaking in his seat.

It took him some time to calm down. And then he looked up at me, "I'm sure Shownu hyung is really surprised but I actually knew you would be like this."

I blinked a few times, suddenly then I remembered what he had said to me before, while we were standing under the scorching sun of this very campus. "Like what?" I uttered in a small voice.

"You have an anger to yourself, you are filled with a lot of emotions. I really don't know why you work so hard supressing them," Minhyuk's eyes were glinting in pure glee.

"Weren't you so angry last night? Didn't you want to kill any of us right then and there?"

My heart did a loud beating. But I controlled the expression on my face.

"We all saw how furious you were, we could feet it, Daisy," The way my name rolled off his tongue made the hair on my neck stand up.

"That's why our only question is why you wouldn't speak up. Or at least say something," he continued. All this time Shownu said nothing and I noticed that he was concentrated on the Oxford English dictionary on his hand again.

It was silent.

I checked my wristwatch for no reason. "Excuse me," I said to myself standing up and taking my bag, I had nowhere to go as for the first time in my life I didn't have to run for time, but, right now, I wish I had to.

"Bye!" Minhyuk said in a chirpy voice waving his hand at me. "See you tonight. At work."

The pause in his sentence was mischievous. My feet had already carried me far from them to see if Shownu had waved me bye or said something too.

Minhyuk's words kept ringing in my head.

Because it suddenly came to me, I couldn't remember the last time I was genuinely angry and showed it before anyone like last night. I never even thought about it, and suddenly this didn't feel so good to me.

How I had started to make time only to think about these boys and let those thoughts propel my emotions since the very first time I met them.

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A/n: anyone wants to hop on and ride my monsta truck? Grind and feel our bodies together all night as if we are bonnie and Clyde.

Yeah I'm talking about my van not my non existent dick or anything haha