These doubts in my mind,
I need to leave behind,
They tell me I'm falling
And I can't hear you...
I want to feel safe
Like I did before
Am I exaggerating?
It's like I don't know You.
I don't work for it,
But then I do.
I think it's a leap,
To get to You.
My brain says fallen,
But it knows the truth.
Then I realize I'm fighting,
Just to get to You.
If I feel hell,
Will I still believe?
That this is no
Trick in my sleeve?
If I feel pain,
Will I be okay?
And still believe,
Though skies are gray?
But isn't it true,
It was hell before,
And You know,
I knocked on Your door.
But I'm a liar,
You hate,
Despise.
Cause these cries were evil,
These cries were lies.
God know the real me,
Even though its filthy,
From the depths of hiding,
I know I'm nothing.
Remove my evil heart
That's keeps on lying.
I'm a liar,
And I know it.
To the One who knows all,
To me was not All-knowing
And I question,
Am I sorry?
When I try to ask,
It's like I don't mean it.
God, help me.
Force me,
Break me,
Because I'm stubborn
And don't give up easily.
Prove to me.
Prove my mind
That You're real.
Even though I know You are,
It's not what I feel.
I know I see You work,
But God, it's me...
Am I the one Real?
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War Underneath
PoetryWords and thoughts about things that are fought within the heart, soul, and mind. The flesh is weak, but the spirit is willing; And the dog you choose to feed will win. ~~~~~ Author Note: I will warn you that words can wield just like a sword and t...
