the journal

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-Ame pov-

I was shaking in bed, I dont think I'll
Ever be able to sleep peacefully again.
I cant sleep so I get my phone out and play on it, hopefully it will make me feel better. it didn't, there is just this
Messed up feeling in my gut. I open Instagram to see funny things and stuff like that, I just remembered something.
Canada had a journal (dairy probably)
That he let his feelings out on to, wonder were it is? I go over to dig through his stuff, I know this is disrespectful but I have to. I found weird things like razors, alcohol and pictures of Germany??? That's bad he was 14 but I cant talk, I drink under age too, the razor... why? Why cut yourself, what's the point? Either way the weirdest thing was Germanys pictures,
Were they just friends? Oh I found the journal! I open it to the first page, should I be reading this or should this be secret? Ehhh hes dead so I bet Canada won't mind, I start to read."entry one 4- 6 -19. Well I guess it's time to use this thing it has been sitting in my closet for over what, 3 years now? Hmmm what to write about.. what to write about.? Oh I
Know! I talked with Germany today, we talked about if you could flavor air. I know that sounds weird but just imagine, you take like lemonade flavor
Then drop it into the air and take a bite.
Then we parted ways when the bell rung. I don't show it but, I hate school every person seems to hate me except Germany. My brother likes to trip me
When his friends are watching, Japan and south Korea take me away from every one and beat me up. Oh well..." that's the first chapter the other chapters are like that until chapter 5,
That chapter reads. "Entry five 14- 6- 19.
Every thing hurts.... I want to die, jesus
Why did he have to beat me so hard?!
Dad hates me, for being bi... hes very
Religious, I'm getting my tears on the paper I'm sorry. Today dad beat me until he was tired, I guess it was my own doing to attempt not get beat today. As dad Pulled me away I tried to get America to come with us, he nicely told me no thanks. Dad smiled at that, I learned my lesson but god this hurts. I don't want to move in any way, I just want to drink my pain away but that's not healthy. So I'm going to sleep." Wow I didn't know just.... jeez I feel guilty, I go to 27-6-19, The day he committed suicide. The chapter read. "Last entry 27-6-19. I cant take this anymore, I'm leaving this world once and for all. That's all goodbye." That was... abrupt? It's in dads handwriting. Its weird, sketchy and suspicious, I'll put the pieces together... so in my dream I was Canada and dad was aggressive towards me and raised a knife above my head, now this journal has Canadas writing in it but the day he committed
Suicide it was in dads handwriting, THEN the day I walked in on the dead body it looked more to be stabbed then
Shot.... oh well I think my theory is random, dad would never do this.
Wait there's..... more to the note book,
It reads. "Entry 12. I awoke after a while
This will not be the last anyone hears of
Me. :)." Okay weird there another one, it reads. "Entry whatever, today I'll make my presence known, but I'm not stopping there.. oooohhhh no, definitely not done. Theres still lots of work to do, and I'm just getting started..." when I read that a chill went up my spine, I felt uneasy like I just wanted to cry in fear,
But I wont that's not something I would do. I put the journal back and go to my phone to play, I swear tomorrow is going to be something else...

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Soon... very soon...
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Heya guys, hope you like this, a little funny story from the bus that happened
3 days ago. So some kid had a big bandage and were tall enough to reach the camera on our buses, so he decided that he was going to put a bandage on the camera! And he did I have picture.

 So some kid had a big bandage and were tall enough to reach the camera on our buses, so he decided that he was going to put a bandage on the camera! And he did I have picture

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Sorry its sideways, have a good day love
You all be safe.

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