Run

Chapter 49

Amri's POV

~3 WEEKS LATER~

I woke up in my room to the cries of the boys and i fed them back to sleep. 

I took a quick shower and got dressed. 

''car seats boys time to go see your dad'' i said and slightly smiled. 

Adam and me have no communication. I have kira, andrew, or luke take the boys. I used to have levi but that didn't go well after the first time. 

I haven't talked to him since that day and i plan to keep it that way. 

I got the boys in the car seats and slowly rocked them to sleep and then i took them downstairs where the scent of someone hit my face. 

I looked up and i saw him and i put the boys down. 

''what are you doing here'' i said 

''wow five words in three weeks all at once thats a record'' he said 

I put the boys at his side and i walked away. 

''wait'' he said 

''im sorry'' he said and i turned to him and i waved my hand and threw him to the wall. 

''it's too late for that now get the hell out of this house'' i said and he got up and he picked up the boys. 

''amri i miss you'' he said and i flashed my eyes and grew my fangs. 

''i said get. out.'' i said and he walked out. 

I went back up to my room and i started crying. I was losing control of my emotions and i lost it. I started breaking things in my room and my magic was out of control i couldn't stop it. 

''AMRI!'' i heard and i saw luke and i threw him to the wall on accident. 

My magic stopped and i ran to him. 

''luke i am so sorry'' i said 

''its okay'' he groaned

I helped him up and i sat him on my bed. 

''what happened'' he said 

''i saw adam.'' i said 

''what'' he said 

''he came here before kira could take the boys'' i said 

''he said he was sorry and i threw him to the wall and told him to leave and he said he missed me and i told him to get out and i came up here and i lost control'' i said 

''amri this is the fourth time since that day that you have lost control'' he said 

''i know'' i said 

''im scared im going to hurt the boys luke'' i said and i started crying. 

He pulled me to him and i cried so hard. 

''you need to cry amri you haven't you need to let it out'' he said 

And so i did. I cried so hard his shirt was soaking wet. I felt like my tears could fill the ocean. 

''come on there is another way you can let this out'' he said and we got up and walked outside deep into the woods. 

''what are we doing here'' i said 

''do what you have been needing to do'' he said 

''which is'' i said 

''scream'' he said and i shook my head.

''amri scream its going to make you feel so much better okay'' he said and i sighed. 

I faced the other way and i took a deep breath and i screamed as loud as i could and it sent waves of magic. When i stopped luke was right i felt better. 

''how do you feel?'' he said 

''alot better'' i said 

''good now go talk to adam'' he said 

''what'' i said and i looked at him. 

''you and him need to get over your argument and get passed it'' he said 

''yes he said you were a bad parent but he was angry you knew he would be but you did what you had to do to keep those boys safe amri when you are angry you say things you mean in the moment not what you will mean forever'' he said 

''he said hurtful things yes but so did you now go over there and talk to him'' he said and i looked at him. 

''no'' i said and i transported back to the pack house. I cleaned up my mess and i layed down. 

I know luke was right but the point was that im just not ready to talk to adam just yet. What he said still hurts like a fresh wound. I wasn't ready yet and i don't think i will be for a while.

I took a nap and when i woke up i went downstairs to grab a snack. The house was empty and i heard literally no movement. 

''hello?'' i said 

''anyone here'' i said

Nothing. 

Then i heard someone walk up behind me and i turned around and saw adam. 

''what the hell do you want do you not get what i said'' i said 

''amri im so very sorry from the bottom of my heart you were right you are not a bad mother and i said those things to hurt you because i felt betrayed and hurt and so i tried to hurt you i know you did what you had to do to protect the boys and i understand that and seeing what you went through after that i am so fucking sorry amri nothing i do will ever change that but i don't want to be a co-parent i want us to be together i want us to be a family amri i love you so fucking much and i am sorry i hurt you please come home'' he said

I teared up but i knew right now still wasn't the time. 

''i can't do this'' i said 

I transported to my room and i packed a bag. I wrote luke a note and then i transported to a place where i needed to get away for a while. I just couldn't be anywhere within even the distance from hybrid pack to white oak. I needed to be farther where you had to cross an ocean to get to.....Paris.........