LOVE is BLIND (ON GOING)

35

Jasmin

Pag labas ko ng kwarto, naabutan ko sila Rose na nagpeprepare ng breakfast. Where's Jina and friends?

"Good morning sis. Busog kana ba?" Bungad na tanong ni Irene sa akin.

"Bae, don't start with me. Baka marinig ka niya. Tsaka, nothing happened."

"Ang hina mo naman sis." Isa pa 'tong si Nayeon.

"Ikaw ang mahina. Sa susunod wag kana mag iinom ng madami kung hindi mo din naman kaya. Nakakahiya ka, halos sunggaban mo na si Jeong kagabi."

"OMG! I didn't do that. Wala ako maalala."

"Bes, what are you planning this time?" Seryosong tanong ni Rose. Ano nga bang plano ko?

"I... I don't know." Chineck ko muna kung naka'labas na ba ng kwarto si Lily bago ako mag kwento ulit.

"Nung naiwan kaming dalawa kagabi... Inamin niya sakin na sa tingin daw niya nagugustuhan na niya ako because I reminded her of Jam. Magagalit sana ako eh, kaso naalala ko ako nga din pala si Jam. In short, hindi pa siya nagkakapag'move on from me. I grabbed the chance na mapalapit ulit sa kanya, not as Jam but as Jasmin. I think I'm ready to tell her everything... kapag sa tingin ko na okay na ang lahat."

"Jas, I think you should tell her agad. Halos dalawang taon na din kasi, baka kapag pinatagal mo, lalo lang siya magalit or what." Irene said. May point naman siya, baka pag lalo ko pang pinatagal, baka lalo lang niya akong hindi patawarin.

After namin mag'breakfast, they decided to take a swim habang ako nag iimpake na because Manager oppa called me and said that the company wants to talk to me. Ano na naman ba kailangan nila sakin? I thought I'm on vacation. 🙄

"Knock, knock. May I come in?" Sumilip si Lily from my door.

"Silly. Of course you may." I was busy packing my things when she sat on the bed.

"Bakit hindi ka nagswi'swimming dun?" I asked her.

"Nah. Why are you leaving early? Did something came up?"

"Yeah, my manager called. The company wants to talk to me."

"Magkikita pa naman tayo diba?" I stopped what I'm doing and looked at Lily.

"Why asking me that as if I'm going somewhere? You can see me whenever you want."

Lily looked down and plays with her fingers. I don't know what's running in her mind. I sat beside her.

"Ano bang iniisip mo?"

"Nothing. It's just that... natatakot ako. I know I don't have the right to feel this way pero natatakot ako na baka hindi na kita makita. Ayoko na maulit yung nangyari samin ng ex ko. Kaya sabihin mo agad sakin kung hindi mo kayang mag'stay ha? Kasi hindi ko alam kung ano ba tayo. Are we friends? With benefits? Do you feel the same way?"

Naiinis ako sa sarili ko. Ako yung dahilan kung bakit natatakot na ulit mag mahal si Lily. I am that stupid.

"Hindi ko din alam kung ano nga ba tayo. All I know is that... I will never leave you again. You just have to trust me."

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Days have passed and everything's going smooth between me and Lily. Parang bumalik lang kami sa dati. Hindi kami mag'jowa pero parang ganun na nga. We don't date publicly because alam ng mga tao na I'm with Kai. I even ask the company if hindi pa ba matatapos yung pagpapanggap namin ni Kai. They said na they are planning something big pa daw. Psh, I don't need that.