My (Many) Problems

why do you make me sound like such a jerk?

I do believe that I am pretty mature, and you say it like its obviously not when I've been told that by many adults already, and none of us think your crazy, but we find it cringy when you say things like that, "oh, I didn't think you noticed/realized I was gone" (also, yes I read your book, thanks a lot for all the things you've said about me and my friends)

and I have accused you of being a bottom because the way you act, and I'm not the only one that thinks that.

also, I'm letting you know this beforehand, a lot of things you say, both in real life and online sounds a lot like a weeaboo and a wannabe edgy 11-year-old, you seem and sound like that wanna be abused person.

I think I know what I want, I DO KNOW WHAT I WANT unlike you I'm not confused, you say it like you know what I want but in reality, you know nothing about Me.

I hope you know that song called "I wish you were gay" by Billie Elish, the story behind that song is that she liked this boy and she confessed but he rejected her. she made that song because he wasn't into her, she wishes there was a reason (like that he was gay) that he didn't like her, I am that guy, I'm just not into you, when I confronted you the first thing I said was "I'm willing to give it a try" I wasn't into you but I was willing to give it a shot. later on, that guy did come out to being gay, I am pan but more into guys. I'm not saying that you're like Billie, she accepted it and tried to move on by saying that she wished he was gay even though he knew that he probably wasn't she just tried to make herself feel better by making up a reason that he didn't like her, while you think that you are the only one for me and won't let anyone else get close to me. I do know what I want and I can tell you this clearly, I know this 100% as a fact, its not you. It's the harsh reality, you may think 'oh he's so immature, he can't see that me and him would work perfectly for him! he can't see that! I'm like Saru and you like Yata, and they are perfect for each other! you're wrong.' ( also, practically forcing me to roleplay with you, good job, no I have lost trust in even texting you) I know for a fact that things aren't going to work out and you need to learn that because it's not me who needs to grow up. I't's you. and you can't just think you can keep me blocked off from anyone that might like me because I have a crush and you can't change my mind, you think that what you have for me is love when for a matter of fact you cant call it that, you don't know that, we are too fucking young for serious relationships you can't call that love because you can't compare it to anything else, I am just a crush, you may think 'no what I have feels more than a crush' how do you know know what a crush feels like? you may think 'i have had a crush before' but that's unlikely, wait till you have more and more crushed and get to know more people before you say you love me because that's just lying to your self, and you will see that in the future. don't try to kill yourself and say 'you don't know what I mean' when I do, I have had many crushes before because- " I'm a hormonal fuck boy." don't call me immature and hormonal when your way of dealing with your problems is being rude to all of us and trying to curse us out, talking under your breath when someone you don't like comes around, grow up and either deal with it or keep quiet.

also, the girlfriend you mentioned is not a girlfriend, it's a significant other and they have a good reason may be because you have been doing some bad things and Inappropriate things! shes have been trying to help him and he's been working on it, the reason he's not allowed to talk to you anymore is that you are a bad influence! he's been maturing but he can't if you're holding him back! don't call his girlfriend a flirty bitch or a slut because that is what you call a dedicated loyal and LOVING partner. and don't call them a slut, that's like calling a twig person fat. shes not restricting him from talking to his friends, shes saving him and protecting him from toxic people like you! 

also, why do you show me as a rude jerk in your book, I think I'm just a human in the eyes of an immature brat. also, don't say that your mother doesn't love you for taking you home after not hearing the phone, SHE WAS WORRIED ABOUT YOU. it may not look like that now but one day you'll see. it's sad but we know that a lot of friends that we make at a young age will one day. fun fact, don't call your mother and grandmother abusive because they are some of the better first-time parents than most, remember the significant other I mentioned, he parents do worry about her but the thing is they also neglected her a lot of times, not all the time, but sometimes.

and don't comment saying "fuck you" because those sex jokes and rape jokes you make all the time hurt me because as a person that has been sexually assaulted that hurts me more than anything you can EVER imagine.

 thank you and goodbye, I would say sorry but with the way you talk to me and to my real,  good friends... that's what makes me change my mind... (also the art above isn't mine, I just found it on google and I hope the owner don't mind....)