next door || nct. chensung

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[ chenle pov ]

as i sat down on the bus on the way to school, my hands started shaking again. it's been happening since two days ago, ever since jisung confessed. i put my earphones into my ears as i looked down.

"next stop sowoon school, sowoon school." the sound system of the bus announced. as soon as the bus stopped, i walked through the bus and went out, trying not to fall as i went through the other commuters in the bus.

"chenle!" a voice called out. i looked up and saw renjun with jaemin. "what you looking so sad for?" renjun said as they walked towards me.

"it's nothing, let's go?" i said. we walked together as jaemin and renjun started talking about some tv show. i continued walking, not joining their conversation.

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[ jisung pov ]

i shook my leg below my desk as i stared at the computer, looking at the script for the drama i was working for. but nothing was registering in my head.

"ugh, god damn it," i turned away from the computer as i swiveled away with my wheeled chair.

(a/n not the wheel chair for injured people but the wheel chair that has wheels below it lmao)

i closed my eyes as i rested my head in my hands. i should not have confessed, i just made matters worse. but why? why did chenle said not to follow him? he seemed like he had a sudden anxiety attack or something. i noticed his hands started shaking as he walked away trying to stop it. the way he held his shaking hand seemed like it happened before. i shook my head, maybe i was just overcomplicating things. maybe i should ask sicheng hyung for help.

"i can't take it anymore, i'm asking him," i said to myself. i stood up from my chair after closing my computer and walked over to his desk not far from mine.

"hey hyung, mind going for a break with me?" i said as i walked in front of his desk. he looked up and smiled, "alright, i need a break too."

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"here, what did you want to say?" sicheng hyung passed me my drink as we sat down on a table at starbucks.

i sipped my coffee as i asked, "is everything okay? as in chenle, is he okay?"

"he's... been really quiet lately, i'm not sure what happened though. his hand... it started shaking again." sicheng said.

"again? so it happened before? what happened before when it started shaking for the first time?"

"well, it's quite personal. what happened before isn't my story to tell you. i'm sorry jisung, but when he tells you, he tells you. i'm in no position to say it for him." sicheng explained. i nodded in understanding, i'll have to wait, but i'm willing to be patient. "well, we better get going now, shooting will start soon."

"which one?" i asked. i tried to recall the picture of schedule for today's date.

"commercial," sicheng hyung said as he stood up, "let's go."

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wasn't gonna let the truth out that quickly