Dennise's POV
"I don't care if you are engaged, Dennise."
My breathe caught in my throat. Nawala ang ngiti sa labi ko, slowly, I pushed Alyssa so I could look on her face.
Para akong nabuhusan ng malamig na tubig.
"I mean, it's not that..."
"What are we doing?"
"Kissing?" She said, stating the obvious. "What? Talking?"
"Alyssa, we are in the bathroom, kissing."
"So?"
"And you reminded me that I am engage! Can't you see?"
"Yes, I can."
Mabilis ko siyang tinulak palayo saakin. I looked at my left hand and the ring glistened from the light. Nasilaw ako, kaya mabilis ko siyang tinanggal.
"I... we should stop kissing."
"But why?"
"Because I am engaged!"
"So, what?"
"What do you mean so what?!" I asked in disbelief. "Can't you get it? I am engaged, and I am kissing you!"
Alyssa groaned. Pumunta ako sa harapan ng salamin at siya naman ay naglakad patungo sa pintuan, she leaned against it.
"So what if we are kissing? It's not like we didn't kiss before?"
"Yes, we kissed before! But now, mali. I don't even know why I..."
"Kasi gusto mo? Kissing me feels right?"
Have I been feeling like I like the kisses? Have I been in my right mind pag naghahalikan kami?
I don't know. And if I know, I can't remember!
Tumitig ako sa sarili ko. "Is it too late to stop?"
"Stop what?"
"This!" I turned to face her. "I don't know! This thing we are doing! We should stop it!"
"Kissing? We rarely kiss. And yes, we can stop. If that's what you want." Sagot naman niya na parang wala lang.
Umayos ako ng tayo. The anger left my body and it turned out calm, but sad? Fuck. I am confused.
"Alyssa..."
"I don't know why you are mad all of a sudden." She said, "okay, I get it, bawal ka ng ikiss kasi engage ka. Stop na then."
"Right."
"Kissing lang naman meron tayo. You are just helping me to fulfill my bucket list, that's it. Wala ng iba, right?"
"Right." I whispered, again.
"I don't know why you are getting mad all of a sudden."
Tumingin ako sakanya. She shrugged with her arms crossed on her chest. Why am I so mad all of a sudden nga ba? Kiss lang naman yun!
"Forget it." I waved my hand to dismiss her. "Let's just forget it."
"There is nothing to forget, there's nothing to remember or to keep anyways."
"That's harsh!"
"It's reality!" She said rolling her eyes. "Every time we kiss, lagi mong sinasabi yan. Every time we fell into a situation like this, you always wanted me to forget. So, isn't it clear that it's just a kiss and meaningless shit?"
I looked at her, raising an eye brow. "Are you mad?"
"No. Just annoyed."
Bigla akong napasimangot. Okay, mahirap ang mataray to pasimangot! Moody ako, bakit ba?!
