Broken and Beautiful [Kingx #2] [Wattys2018]

Chapter 7

I straighten my black dress one last time, my lips wobbling as I try my best to hold back my tears from falling.

The door bell rang again and I put on my brave face walking to the door, I open my door to see Chris, Josie and Esla standing there. Looking at me with sad eyes.

"I'm sorry for your loss" Esla and Josie said handling me flowers.

"I tried calling you but you did not pick up" Chris told me. The sight of him makes me feel a little bit bitter.

"I know I watch it ring"

They all watched me, looking like they want to laugh but didn't knowing it's not appropriate.

"Why not?" he asked.

I gave him a look that says 'isn't it obvious?'

"Because I don't want to"

"I understand Maya"

"But... Whose funeral are you organising?" Josie asks.

"Come here" I said, locking the door behind me then leading them outside to the back of the building. We were all quiet on our way.

Then I pointed at the small coffin I made out of card box.

"There"

"Huh?" Esla went ahead quickly to open before she jumps back, "Jesus! A spider? You are holding a funeral for a fucking spider!?"

"A wolf spider!" I said defensively.

"But I don't understand" Josie started, "You made it sound like a family member died in your email"

"Joylene is my family member!"

"We meant a human snookie" Chris inserts coming over to pat my shoulder.

"But I never claimed its species!"

Esla took out her phone and read my message, "  'Hello Esla Barnes. A very good morning to you. I hope you are doing great but unfortunately I am not. I just lost Joylene. I am feeling awfully sad because she is really important to me. I am in need of emotional support. I don't think I can do this alone. I am organising a funeral for her so can you please come over?'  See?" she gave me a pointed look.

"Well...fine!! I know you guys think this is stupid but it isn't for me okay? If you guys don't understand then just go. I'll do this alone" I told them angrily.

"Chill Girl" Esla started, "No one says it's stupid. It's just that we aren't expecting... this"

"How did it happen?" Josie asked.

"I- I....I did it" I confessed, tears blurring my eyes, "I'm a murderer. I accidentally stepped on it. She even carried eggs you know? I'm a horrible person. I killed her whole family"

"Come here" Chris said pulling me to him and hugging me, "You did not mean it. I am sure.... God understand that. He sees everything right?"

That made me think twice, "Right" I agreed.

If Killing Joylene did not sent me to hell this will because I am using this opportunity to feel Chris Morrison. I took deep breath smelling him. He smell like some expensive cologne.

"Are you smelling me, Snookie?"

"No. I am not. I am just taking in air, you know as in Nitrogen too since the percentage we take is more in than that of Oxygen, trying to stay alive" I rambled off, hoping he'll buy it if I give him full details.