~Nefelibata~ [COMPLETED]

My Poor Baby... I'm So Sorry...

You know... My heart hurts when my friends are like this. It hurts me too. However I'm too nice so thats why I'm making this... I'm always to kind and blind to my friends since they try to tell me or show me something important, but I never listen. I'm too busy in anime to realize. But this is different. You never said anything. You wanted to hide it. This makes me want to be with you even more... I want to shower you with hugs. Hopefully that will cheer you up... I just want you to know that your not lonely. Even if you do think that your lonely. Your not because I'm here. I will always be here. For you. Anytime you want. If you need to talk. I'm here. If you need someone to let your feelings out on. I'm here for you and I will listen to you. I hope you would do the same because I'm crying now. I wouldn' t get tired or bored when I talk to you. I promise. I'm already crying so much for you. Damn... I just dont know what to say... I'm sorry for everything that you've gone through and I know you dont deserve this. You deserve so much more happiness. I'm just heartbroken and suprised about this situation. I'm losing my online best friend that I've never met. Well the one that I knew. The cheerful one that was always so supportive and I guarantee that you are still like that. Just not as cheerful anymore, but I will always see you as the kindhearted girl on the otherside of the screen. Your kind comments are so enlightening to my soul. They make me smile all the time. But you may think that I'm doing this to change you and your current personality, but I'm not. I'm making this because I'm nice enough and care about you enough to let out my feelings about you. I just want you to know that you were and still are a dear friend of mine. Even if we never met before (Or have Idk). I'm here for you and you dont need to go down this path alone. Nicole-heart or _Toruuu_ Idk anymore. I'm going to stick with Nicole because thats how I knew you. If you dont want me to I'll change it, but Nicole sounds so cute to me. And you seem like a cute girl that got left behind by everyone. But you'll catch up. You'll be okay. In the future. I hope you see this. Because you need to know that your not the only lonely person here. I'm also lonely with only like 3 friends in real life. Well theres a bit more, but I feel like they aren't true friends. They dont even talk to me and I still call them "Friends". I've been so lonely since first grade, and I always put on a fake smile for everyone. That changed of course when I met Saarah_Chan in third grade. I still feel like I'm lonely but I can trust Saarah to cheer me up. Like how she cheered me up when my Grandma died recently. Thats for another time though. This is about you not me. I was so excited because you updated and I always get excited when you update, but then I read the upload... I started tearing up so much. I really didnt want to believe it but it was true. I also knew that I couldnt change you because:
1. I dont even know you in real life
2. This is your problems, not mine and I shouldnt meddle in your life
3. This is your choices and as your friend I should respect them

I also want to say thank you to Dragneeel_Twins for making your challenges. Without them, I wouldnt have met Nicole. Thats how I found out about her and her art skills even though she wasn't the best at it. You inspired me so much. Thank you. Thank you so much, all three of you. I hope we can text each other soon Nicole or when you want to. We can discuss about anime, anything you want. I'll listen. Byee! And one last Thank you to send you away. Thank you! <3 <3 <3
        From your dear online friend, Constella

P.S: "You dont die for your friends! You live for them!"- Natsu Dragneel, Fairy Tail