individually packaged needles
soapy water and salt
SMACK
like i've been punched in the head
self-done puncture of ear cartilage on the edge of the bed
and toss the bloodied needle on the floor
so the red will mix with the mud and the dust
the red dripping down my neck will mix with the cotton and polyester blend
of my worn down band shirt and turn the colour to rust
individually wrapped
bite-sized pain
30g of the finest tobacco a tenner can buy
tap out the ash in one out of the ten dirty mugs piled high
could i use this £1 clipper to burn out my insides
and let my soul be sterilised
maybe a warm salt water solution would do the trick
if i drink enough i'll either drown or be sick
all over the toilet seat, on the bathroom floor
and we'll have to paint the room in bleach
you show up at my door with supermarket own brand vodka
70cl of the strongest spirit a tenner can buy
a taste you can feel in your eyes
surgical spirit to treat my insides
i want to be poisoned and to die
a gift-wrapped suicide in a bottle
dance with me, hug my body tight, look at me!
freshly bleached hair, new shampoo, squeaky clean
sanitized hands, estrogen and progesterone pumped system
pass me the needle
pass me the condom
pass me paracetamol and a plaster - there's blood everywhere!
