freedom
broken hearted freedom
i need you only when i'm alone and awake
i needed you
when i was so drunk i was shaking
i thought i would die
you left me heaped under the sink
i woke up in your bed
and i drained
like a deep
deep pool
when your anger took over
i thought you'd hit me rather than the wall
and the walls were shaking like
my shoulders as i turned away from you in a ball
sobbing at the realisation
that i was helpless and trapped
that i needed love and comfort
but you couldn't give me that
and you couldn't even explain
your reason was something mean
you should never be angry at a girl for these things
you say you treat me like a princess
but this isn't the 16th century
and i have the right to leave
to claim freedom with a heavy heart
i need you when it gets dark
and when the world sleeps
except you and me because you ruined everything we could have been
suddenly realising a void is filled by intimacy
but any stranger can give you love
but i needed you
past tense
