i have good days and i have bad days
and i have two whole moods: drunk or sad
sometimes both at once and that's fun
sometimes i'll sleep all day in my own bed
or i'll stay up all night in someone elses
but either way i feel dead
i don't know what people think of me
are you into my kindness or my body
are you laughing with me or at me
i don't know if some people even see me
or if they stare at me like a ghost
and follow me like a dream
lying on my bed with gentle music
high but conscious and feeling
and wanting to die so badly
