Luck( A Niall Horan Fanfic)

Chapter 93

Brooke's POV

I was a few blocks away from where I was going. I had to see his tombstone, to remind myself that he is gone and never coming back...because I haven't let go of him yet, I still hold onto some hope that he is back but its impossible. I arrived at the gates and walked over to where his lay. I looked down at his name and couldn't help but feel tears welling up. I all of a sudden got a very weird feeling come over me, it was really odd but I often got it when I sensed something odd. I ignored it and went back to thinking of him. "Why am I seeing you Jayden? Are you angry at me for not being able to save you? Are you upset at how I couldn't go in and keep you alive? Because I'm sorry, I'm sorry I couldn't save you. I wanted to so desperately....I was your big sister, I was supposed to protect you from everything and anything...I failed at that and each day I wish it was me who had died and you who had lived, maybe then mum and dad wouldn't have left the way they did. I beat myself up about it everyday that I couldn't save my gorgeous little brother who lit up everyone's world with his beautiful eyes, contagious laugh and heartwarming smile. I know...I failed and I'm so sorry Jayden, every single day I wish I could go back to when it happened and stop it, and save my whole world....and mum and dad's worlds too. I'm just sorry that I wasn't good enough to save you" I said and held back the tears and I looked to mum's stone and said "I'm sorry I couldn't save your baby boy mum, I truly am" I still sensed something off but I again, ignored it. I stood there for a few more minutes then decided to slowly head back home. I took a deep breath before I walked in the door and it was dead silent. No one was in the lounge or kitchen so I'm guessing they all went out which is actually good. I couldn't think of anything to do so I just walked around the house and happened to stop outside the music room. It had a piano, guitars, microphones, drums and a lot more, but the piano caught my eyes. I went over to it and slowly glided my hand over it. I used to play piano al the time years ago, but haven't for a while. I wrote a song years ago and still remembered it so I decided to sit down and have a go at singing and playing it. I turned the microphone on and I put my hands on the keys and started playing while I sang into the mic,

Never, Never, Never, Oooohhhh

Yeh, Never, Never, Never, mmmmm

Let me tell you bout a girl that I used to be

Same name, same face but a different me

She didn't know what she was thinking, didn't know her world was sinking

Had her dreams written on a paper in her hand, head on tight but she didn't understand

The love and heart that she's replacing, all the past that she's erasing

We all get lost sometimes and we forget who we are,

And we forget who we are

Somewhere along the way, we're all running in a crazy race,

Never thinking about the hearts we break,

And as our home starts fading away

Things are never gonna be the same

Cause when your standing there all alone

Losing everything you've ever known,

You're staring at a different face,

Things are never gonna be the same

I wish that I could share a different point of view,

But the words coming out wouldn't speak the truth,

You wouldn't know what I was really thinking,