August 12, 2005
Dave and I got married on August 2, 2003 and things where going pretty good. After about a year of being married we started trying for a baby. We had been trying for about a year and I was doubtful it would ever happen. After we celebrated our second wedding anniversary we said we would keep trying but not as actively as we had before. Taylor and Abby where now married and trying to start a family themselves. The guys where on tour for their new record In Your Honor. I had left the tour to come home to see my aunt who wasn't doing so good since Carlos left her. Since I had known I was going to be in town I had scheduled a doctors appointment. I was on my way out the door to go to my aunt's when the phone rang.
"Hello," I said after I picked it up.
"Hi is Brittany Lane there?" the girl on the other end asked.
"Speaking," I replied.
"Hey there this is Dr. Jones's office. We got your test results in and I'm just calling to see if you can come in today at 3?" the girl asked. I told her I could be there and then headed over to my aunts. I let myself in and found her sitting on the couch completely out of it and staring at the wall.
"Hey aunt Jane. How are you doing?" I asked as I sat down beside her. She turned her head to look at me and then smiled momentarily.
"My perfect little Penny is here. How are you my dear?" she asked me, ignoring what I said.
"I'm ok. How are you though? You look tired," I replied. Aunt Jane grabbed my hands and just heled them as she looked at me.
"Oh I'm fine. Do you want some pills sweetie? They make everything feel good," she asked as she reached over to the coffee table.
"Uh no I'm good and I think you are too. Aunt Jane I love you and I really think you should not take anymore of those," I said as she knocked a stack of papers over as she grabbed the pill bottle. I noticed a mirror with a decent sized pile of cocaine on it and decided I needed to get her out of here.
"Just one more baby. I just want to be numb. You wouldn't understand Penny. You're happily married to the man of your dreams," Jane said in response.
"I do know what it's like aunt Jane. Dave broke my heart a few times before we finally got it right. Carlos is a moron for leaving you. Hey why don't you go take a nap instead of that pill. I can stay here while you nap and maybe clean up a bit before I get you up. You can come to the doctors with me if you want. I could use someone since everyone is still on tour," I said. I took the pill bottle from her and she didn't put up a fight which surprised me.
"Are you okay? Are you dying sweetie?" Jane asked me. She looked about as worried as she could with the state she was in.
"As far as I know I'm fine. I had my yearly physical and then she asked me come back in today after running some tests," I responded with.
"Ok well I got an idea. Why don't I do some of that over there and then we'll clean for an hour. Then we'll go see if you're okay. I don't need to lose you too," my aunt said.
I watched as she leaned over and pulled the mirror over to her. I got up and started picking up the beer and wine bottles as she did a couple of lines. We cleaned for an hour before my aunt went to shower and get ready. She seemed a little more normal now but I knew that was just the coke. When she came down the stairs she looked like the old Jane but just more clumsy and paler. I still couldn't believe that Carlos, who had adored my aunt more than anything, left her for someone younger. If I ever saw him again I'd probably kill him or at least yell at him. We headed to the doctors and got there a few minutes before three. We were brought into her office and we waited for her. My aunt couldn't sit still and kept bouncing her knee, tapping her foot or biting her nails. When the doctor came in I was relieved because my aunt was driving me nuts.
After the doctors appointment my aunt couldn't shut up and I begged her not to say anything until I talked to Dave. She promised and then we went shopping. My aunt seemed like her old old self after and I got an idea. After shopping we went to out to dinner and then my aunt came and stayed with me. When the phone rang I was sitting in bed reading.
"Hello," I said.
"Hey how's my favorite girl doing?" Dave asked. I closed the book and smiled.
"I'm really good. How's my favorite guy?" I asked back.
"Tired and missing you. You feeling any better?" Dave asked back and I rolled my eyes
"Uh ya I guess. Hey babe would you be mad if I brought my aunt with me for a few dates?" I asked.
"Not really but why? Are things okay?" he asked, sounding worried.
"I guess but I'm just scared I'm going to get a call saying she's overdosed or something," I replied.
"Oh ya it's fine if she comes for a few dates just not the whole tour. We'd both go nuts if she stayed," Dave said in response. The door to my room opened and my aunt popped her head in.
"Ya I know. I'll see you the day after tomorrow Dave. I love you," I said.
"Bye beautiful. I love you too," Dave said and then we hung up.
"Hey sweetie sorry to interrupt but do you want to watch a movie with me?" my aunt asked once she came into the room.
"Sure but as long as we stay in this bed," I replied with.
My aunt said ok and then came and got into bed with me and we watched Homeward Bound. I asked her if she wanted to come on tour with us for awhile and she said ok to that too. When I woke up the next morning my aunt was gone but I found her in the kitchen talking on the phone. After she hung up she told me to pack and that we were leaving today to surprise Dave. I did as she told me and we were in Toronto that night thanks to my aunt and her one of her many friends. My aunt got a room at the hotel the guys would be staying at tonight and I couldn't wait to surprise Dave. I had called Abby and told her we were flying in so she told me she'd get the guys in the hotel bar after the concert and to wait for her call. When the phone rang sometime around midnight my aunt answered and then smiled at me. I left the room and headed downstairs. I was nervous but I just wanted to see my guy. When I walked into the bar I saw the guys with Gisele and Abby. Dave had his back to me as I walked over to them. I saw Taylor was about to say something so I put a finger to my mouth.
"Guys I'm tired. I just want to go upstairs and call Britt," Dave said. I put my hands over his eyes and he said what the fuck.
"Guess who," I said. Dave removed my hands from his eyes and turned to look at me. He then stood up and picked me up in a hug and spun around a few times before putting me back on the ground.
"What are you doing here? I thought you weren't coming until tomorrow," Dave said after he gave me a kiss.
"My aunt worked some of her magic and we managed to catch a flight this morning," I responded with.
I then said hi to everyone else and hugged my girls and Taylor. The waitress came by and the guys ordered another round. She asked if I wanted anything and I said a gingerale would be fine. Dave gave me a look so I told him I wasn't in a drinking mood and he let it slide. Dave finished the round and then we headed upstairs. We got my bag from Jane's room, said good ngiht and headed off down the hall to Dave's room. When we got inside I ran and jumped onto the bed, landing on my back.
"Oh I like where your mind is at," Dave said. By the time I sat up Dave had his shirt off and was right in front of me.
"Not yet I have something to tell you," I said as he pushed me gently and I fell back down.
"It can wait. It's been a few days since I've seen you. We need to try but not really try to have a baby," Dave said as he started undoing my pants.
"But it involves the trying but not really trying Dave," I responded with. Dave stopped what he was doing and pulled me up before sitting beside me.
"Ok I'm ready," he said as he looked at me. His eyes were full of hope and I smiled before I let my little secret out.
"I'm pregnant," I said. Dave put both of his hands on my cheeks and pulled me in for a kiss. After he pulled me into a hug and fell sideways onto the bed.
"I love you but I had a feeling. Since when are you not in a drinking mood," Dave commented as we laid there looking at each other.
"Since yesterday and I love you too. Oh I have a sonogram and also my aunt knows. I brought her with me when the doctor asked me to come in and she got all happy. She cried and said she was going to try and do better. Remind me to punch Carlos if I ever see him again. Dave she was bad when I got to her place," I said. I had gotten off the bed and grabbed the picture from my purse and rejoined Dave on the bed. We sat there with our backs to the head board for a minute before he spoke.
"Maybe you should talk her into going into a treatment facility. I don't need you losing any more family just when we're adding to it. Let me see that picture," Dave said. He took the picture from me and looked at it while smiling. After awhile he looked up at me with tears in his eyes.
"Did I tell you I love you?" Dave asked.
"You did but I'm going to say no so I can hear it again," I replied with a wink. Dave pulled me closer to him and put his forehead against mine.
"I love you and I'll say it over and over it again," Dave said. I then pulled away and started giving him a bunch of kisses all over his face.
"I love you too. I have a good feeling about this one," I said.
"Good now where was I?" Dave asked. We spent the rest of the night celebrating the beginning of our little family.
