To say I was freaking out a bit was an understatement. I was freaking out a lot. I didn’t know why but everything about tonight made me nervous. How nice I looked made me nervous, not knowing where he was bringing me was making me nervous and the idea of him kissing me at some point tonight brought me over the edge. I drew in a few deep breaths. What am I doing. I really like this guy I should be stoked about tonight. Just me and him, talking laughing and having a good time together. I couldn’t picture anything better.
At exactly 6 my doorbell rang. I grabbed my small purse and opened my door. Joey stood there looking really handsome. He had on a grey button up shirt with blue jean shorts and a light jacket over it. I smiled up at him and noticed his eye were moving up at down quickly before looking back into mine.
“Hey, you look great,” he quickly commented. I tried not to blush but I was a sucker for compliments.
“Thanks you do too, as always,” I said with a smile.
“Are you ready to go?” he asked. I nodded locking my door behind me and followed him to his car. He opened up the door for me and let me in gently shutting it behind me then went around to the driver’s side.
“So where are we going?’ I asked curiously as soon as he started back on the road. He gave me a small smile.
“Not telling it’s a surprise,” he said. I grumbled in protest. “You’ll like it though I swear,” he said chuckling a bit.
“Why don’t you just kidnap me while you’re at it,” I stated.
“Don’t tempt me,” he teased.
I laughed to myself looking out the window as he drove. I tried to figure out where we were going but only slightly recognized certain things. We chatted casually until I noticed us going uphill.
“This looks familiar,” I stated suspiciously remembering back to that first day we met, when he took me to the Hollywood hills to talk. Joey gave me a cute smile driving one.
Sure enough that’s where he took me. I got out of the car one of my hands holding my arm as he came up beside me. He took my hand with a smile and led the way. We came to a grassy area and I instantly noticed a few things placed on the grass. Only once I was standing right in front of it all did I realise what he did.
“You made a picnic?” I asked feeling my heart almost stop from being so happy and honored and spoiled and special all at the same time.
“Do you like it?’ Joey asked looking down at me with hopeful eyes. Everything was so perfect. The sun wasn’t too far from setting right in front of us. He had a large blanket with a basket and wine with two glasses, two paper plates beside them and even a vase with a rose was place right in the center held up by a fancy holder.
“Joey,” I gasped looking at everything. My eyes misted slightly. I didn’t want to cry in front of him but I was honestly so touched by what he had done. I placed my hand over my face. “You truly out did yourself,” I choked out.
I stepped away wanting to compose myself so I didn’t get all dramatic but Joey quickly took my hand in his.
“Hey, hey Jen what’s wrong?” he asked sounding so worried.
“Nothing, everything is so beautiful,” I told him honestly. He pulled me close to his body placing a hand on my face brushed away the tears.
“Then why are you crying?” he asked sadly. I smiled up at him hoping it would assure him that I wasn’t sad, far from it.
“This is the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me,” I admitted. Joey gave me a gentle smile and shrugged his shoulders slightly.
“I guess your ex boyfriends didn’t set the bar to high,” he spoke softly and I shook my head with a small laugh.
“You’re just my friend and you’ve already surpassed them,” I explained. Joey dropped his head slightly and I wondered if it was because I said friend.
“Listen Jen. I’m typically not very good at this sort of stuff,” he explained. I kept my eyes focused on his as he spoke. “To be honest I’m terrified right now,” he said only slightly louder than a whispered.
“It’s okay Joey I am too but in a weird way I sort of like it,” I explained. His eyes met mine.
“I feel the same,” he said. I smiled a bit.
“Should we just make this easier on each other?” I asked and he nodded slowly, swallowing hard before taking a deep breath.
“I just want to come right out and tell you everything, then we can eat,” he said smirking a bit at the end. I chuckled slightly and nodded. “I know we haven’t known each other long but I just can’t escape the feeling that there’s something.. more between us,” he explained pausing slightly. I nodded slowly.
“I’ve felt that too,” I assured him wanting nothing more than for him to feel less scared.
“We get on so well and you get along with my friends too.. you’re just perfect,” he explained. I turned my head slightly.
“I’m the farthest from perfect,” I stated. His hand turned my head back to him.
“Then you’re the most perfect imperfect girl I’ve ever met,” he explained and I smiled at that. “Look all I’ve said so far are just words but the most important have yet to come out,” he explained dropping his head slightly.
“Don’t be afraid Joey, I didn’t come out tonight to hurt you,” I explained. His eyes met mine and he nodded slowly taking another deep breath. With both my hands held in his tightly he smiled at me.
“I guess what I’m trying to tell you is that I like you.. more than a friend, much more actually,” he explained and instantly a smile spread across my lips.
‘You know when i donated that money over a month ago. I never in a million years expected to get to see you beyond that dinner but when I did I definitely didn’t think I’d tell you about my life. And even then when I did I didn’t expect you to accept me the broken mess that I was but you did,” I explained and he had a shy smile on his face as I spoke. “When we hungout I didn’t think we’d actually become friends, When we became friends I didn’t think we’d stay friends and when we stayed friends I didn’t think I’d fall for you. And when I didn’t I didn’t think I’d ever hear the same thing come out of your mouth,” I ranted and he smiled.
“You’re truly poetic,” he said with a small chuckled. I shrugged innocently. “You know I’m not as well put together as you may think,” he soon spoke. “I’ve been hurt, I’ve had personal turmoil building inside me all my life. In a way we both have our problems. Mine stemming from my lack of adequate parents and yours from losing them. There’s still a lot you have to learn about me are you sure you’re up to it?” he asked. I nodded my head quickly.
“I want to know everything. I know your guarded. I know your terrified but I’m not going to hurt you. I want to see you happy. I want to be the reason you’re happy. I just want to be there like how you were for me,” I explained. He nodded his head.
“It’s reassuring hearing you say that. You’re a good person one that I know I should trust and I want to trust you, you haven’t given me any reason not to and if you’ll except my yet to be discovered baggage then that there would make me very happy,” he explained. I nodded my head.
“I’ve already accepted anything you have to throw at me. I want to see you at your worst. In a way I have since I watch your vlogs but instead of being just some girl on the other side of the computer I want to be the one to whip your tears,” I explained. He smiled a bit with a nod.
“So, you be my girlfriend?” he asked finally. I smiled more nodding my head.
“Of course,” I answered without hesitation. Joey smiled more and placed his hand on my face. I giggled a bit and kept my eyes fixated on his as he leaned in. I bridge the gap and gently met my lips with his in our first official kiss.
