i found words spilling out of my mouth
and strangely enough
it was the first time i'd spoken them.
"my mother...
she suffered from depression.
i knew that
but i never understood.
when i was fifteen
she killed herself.
i was the one who found her body
in the bath.
i've hardly had a good night's sleep since."
i hadn't noticed my clenched fists
until Midori pulled them apart with her fingers.
she looked at me as if to say,
"what can i say?"
i looked down at our hands
and wished that we were somewhere else
in different circumstances
so that maybe i could appreciate it in a different way.
i glanced back at my painting
into my mother's eyes.
i still didn't understand.
and i didn't think i ever would.
but my father did-
he always had
always carried her pain with his own.
i wished i had done the same
then maybe the burden wouldn't have been so heavy
on her shoulders.
it was then that i felt myself crying for the first time in months.
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Through Viridian Seas
Short Story❝ the world has taken away who i really am. who i want to be. ❞ in which loneliness is washed away by a sea of blue-green beauty. ❄girlxgirl❄a cellphone novel❄complete❄ #152 in short story | 28/7/17 © 2017 salmonskinroll written 21/5 to 27/7/17