Untamed Series #1: Nicholov Gallen

Chapter Eighteen

"Sigurado ka na ba?" tanong ni Gon sa akin.

Tumango naman ako. Gon's usually quiet. He doesn't talk much. But when he talk, it always has a point. "It will be better for the both of us to grow apart. I did nothing but to hurt her, Gon. Ni hindi ko na nga naipaparamdam sa kanya na mahalaga siya sa akin, na mahal na mahal ko siya kasi paano ko ipaparamdam iyon? Laging na kay Addison iyong atensyon ko. Laging si Addison itong kasama ko. Nasasaktan ko lang si Shiloh." my voice cracked.

Hindi naman ako ganito eh. Hindi naman ako iyakin. Pero pagdating kay Shiloh, ewan ko ba. Nagiging ibang tao ako.

"Love isn't always about rainbows. It has storms as well, but shouldn't you expect that the rainbow will be there again tomorrow? Personally, for me, I learned so much from my relationship with Sydney. She taught me so many things that I didn't know before. I didn't know that I could let go of someone who really meant so much to me. I learned that if it's for the better- either for your dreams, for your family, or for anything- then maybe it is better to let go and grow apart." he sighed.

Tumingin naman ako sa kanya. "But I don't want to lose her." it was almost a whisper.

"Nicholov, you already lost her." he tapped my back. "You already lost her the moment you chose Addison to be your priority. You have to let her go and let her be happy. If she really loves you, babalik naman siya sayo. Babalik din kayo sa dati sa tamang panahon. Sometimes, it's better to grow apart than to grow toxic together. Your relationship isn't healthy for the both of you anymore. Don't make it hard for yourself and for her. Let go, Gallen. Let her go."

Kinabukasan ay maaga akong pumunta sa set for today's shooting. "Are you okay? Natulog ka ba? Oh my gosh, Nico. Someone fix Nicholov's look? Hindi pwedeng ganito ang itsura mo, Nicholov!" sita sa akin ng manager ko. Tumango na lang ako at sumunod sa gusto niya. Inayusan ako at medyo makapal na make-up ang iniligay to cover the dark circles under my eyes.

"Are you okay?" tanong ni Leane, ang make-up artist ko. Dinilat ko naman ang isang mata ko at tumingin sa kanya. "Hmm. Do I look not okay?" tanong ko pabalik sa kanya. Ngumiti naman siya ng maliit atsaka bumuntong hininga.

"Is it a love problem?" tanong niya na ikinakunot ng noo ko.

"Is it that obvious?"

"Marami na akong kilalang artista na kinailangan makipag-break sa mga non-showbiz girlfriend nila dahil parte iyon ng kontrata nila. Ma-swerte ka nga at wala sa kontrata mo na kailangan ay wala kang non-showbiz girlfriend." she said as she put a lipbalm on my lips.

"But it's hard. Siya iyong nahihirapan bago pa man ako maging actor." sabi ko naman.

"Love is really complicated. Pero nasa sa inyo naman na iyon kung paano niyo iha-handle iyong relasyon niyong dalawa. Oo, mahirap magkaroon ng boyfriend na nasa ganitong industry dahil oras na malaman ng mga fans mo na mayroon kang non-showbiz girlfriend ay iba-bash nila iyong girlfriend mo na iyon lalo na kung hindi naman ito pasok sa standards nila."

"Shiloh, my girlfriend, she's beautiful. She's really, really beautiful. No one can compare to her beauty." I smiled as I thought of Shiloh's beautiful face.

Nakita ko naman ang pagngiti ni Leane. "In love ka na talaga 'no?"

"I am. I really love her." sabi ko naman. "I can't imagine my life without her. Ang corny pero iyon ang totoo. Hindi ko talaga kaya na wala si Shiloh sa akin." I can't believe I'm saying this things. Hindi naman ako corny na tao. I hate saying corny stuffs pero pagdating kay Shiloh, kahit ang corny ng dating sa akin ginagawa at sinasabi ko pa rin. Siya lang ang nakapag-paramdam sa akin ng ganito. Binabaliw ako ni Shiloh.